Did I act? Harm OCD but I was also actually angry? Hi everyone could use some advice here. A little background - I remember having OCD since I was a teenager. I’ve had everything from religious OCD to sexual OCD fears like POCD and so in. You name a genre of OCD, I’ve probably had it. Also, lately I’ve been dealing with some anger issues. I’ve had some trouble feeling frustrated with my wife. I know this is not part of the OCD but it has led to some events that have been entangled with Harm OCD symptoms. Let me be clear: I don’t think that I’m the sort of person capable of hurting anyone. I’m afraid of causing harm to others. I always have been. However, a couple of times I’ve driving with my wife in the car while we’re in the middle of an argument and this terrible thought of pulling into oncoming traffic pops into my head. I have a history of apologizing to her about not driving carefully enough. One night, I found myself feeling really frustrated by a discussion we were having. I was driving at the time and I remember having an awful, awful, dark thought while at an intersection as I about to make a left hand turn. It was, "instead you could pull out in front of this oncoming car as it's approaching and it would hurt both of you". I was feeling frustrated and angry about our conversation. I also don't remember the car being so close to where I couldn't get around it, so I went for it. I pulled out in front of the car and accelerated really quickly so that we would be sure to get around it. She was on her phone, but joked about how fast I was driving. I think I was accelerating so quickly so that we'd get around the car and that we wouldn't be hurt. But why on earth did I pull out in front of it in the first place? I MAY have been angry and acted in anger. I beat myself up over this for months and months, however, I still don’t know what happened. I feel like there’s a strong chance that OCD made the entire situation seem way worse than it actually was. I honestly don’t know. Sometimes when I’m frustrated with her about something, some impossible Harm OCD thought will come into my head where I’m hurting her. Now I’m better at thinking “Ridiculous. I would never do that” and blow it off. Well, a really similar situation happened yesterday. I was driving and I happened to be upset at my wife about something. I let the angry thought kind of flow through me and didn’t react. However, I found myself in the same left-hand turn situation again. My brain produced the thought - “you could turn left again in front of oncoming traffic and hurt her and yourself”. I blew it off. Of course I would never ever do that. But, in that moment, I noticed that my hand on the steering wheel slightly turned in that direction. Like I said, I had no intention of pulling out. Maybe my hand just did this because I was prepping to turn left after the cars had finished coming and I could make my turn. Again, I HAD NO INTENTION OF PULLING OUT. But what I can’t figure out is, why do I remember this slight pull the left of my hand on the wheel after the thought? Was I really just driving as normal, positioning the wheels to turn after the cars had passed? Or did my body react to the OCD thought? I would never want to cause harm to my wife. The anger I was feeling complicates this and makes it feel like I intended to do something even though I know I wouldn’t intentionally hurt my wife. So confused. Can anyone relate or offer advice?