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I don’t have HOCD but a lot of body image issues/identity. Never ever feel attractive anymore. I definitely used to have moments of feeling myself. Not anymore. I’m disgusted by myself. I can’t look in the mirror. When I do try to look nice I fail and feel like shit so I usually just don’t try. I don’t feel like myself. I’m too afraid to wear the clothes that I like. I view everyone as above me. I’m 24 and I feel like a disgusting, childish little goblin.
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I also have those issues... its so annoying and horrible because it wont allow me to feel pretty and when i feel pretty im not pretty if that makes sense. The last two years ive never felt uglier. I dont understand how i used to be so carefree... i wish u peace of mind so u cun finally see how gorgeous u are
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@hocdgirlsummer Sometimes I feel cute and then I look in the mirror and feel like such a fool. I hope we can feel pretty soon but I also hope we can learn that we don’t have to be pretty to have fun or be worthy.
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@Derby Very true indeed but still, I remember feeling pretty is like one of the best feelings in the world especially for woman.. i reeally wanna experience it again?
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I feel this too!!
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Yup. Its like who are getting dressed up for? Why draw attention to yourself like this?
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This is exactly how I feel and I’ve not seen anyone else say this. I literally think these exact words everyday. I’m 20 but still feel like the 15 year old I was when this first started and all I want to is to feel like the woman I’m growing up as and I just don’t. I hate it. Thank you for posting this
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Exaclty, i feel u honey. I hate it so much because everyone around me is evolving and i cant help but just be jalouse. I just wannt to feel like who i saw in my dreams when i was young. I feel like im so numb to all the feelings i couldnt wait for feeling if that makes sense...
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I feel the same way. I used to get ready and all pretty but now it just seems like I've lost the magic but I cant go back to being the same either. Could this just be depression ? I'm only 17 but growing up has really hit hard. Especially growing up too early. I know I'm pretty but I hate that I don't have that artistic vibe anymore that happy drive
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Wow exactly!! Im also 17 and i haaate not feeling the vibe that i wanna dress as u know. When u know ur that bitch when u step out the door, that feelingn dissapeard. Its like i lost my whole aesthetic to life if that makes sense lol. I miss feeling the magic indeed it sounds so dramatic but u notice the emptyness when its gone. I miss that happy drive too bevause thats what made it feel good. Now i look in the mirror when i get all dressed up and im like aight cool but i used to feel this whole vibe and idk feel girly and pretty and diva like haha, i always got called diva and kim k bc i liked dressing up and id feel like the shit but now im just like uhhh im getting dressed but idk what for. I always loved to go to the airport and got like a cute joggerset and feel all cozy cute u kno but i did this again with hocd and omg i didnt enjoyed it all the whole spark was gone.. idk if this is just depression too. I freaking hope so
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- 22w
Like I can’t think straight. This is making me doubt everything I’ve thought about myself and even makes me feel like I like the thoughts when I know I don’t. Like I would be less anxious at a time while I still have the thoughts and my mind would go “oh so you like it you must be gay” or the other one where I’m not anxious and I think of my attraction for girls that I’ve had my whole life and my mind goes “see now you’re not into them you’re gay” like it’s so stupid but so effective. I clearly remember being into girls my whole life but my mind is making me believe that all these attractions and feelings for women were all fake or “a thing of the past”. But I can still get aroused by women but I have this weird anxiety going on which brings these sensations/feelings and it’s so weird. Today I’ve spent my whole day thinking about it like I’ve been doing for 5 months now. I know that this aint normal but my mind just won’t let me live in peace. I never cared about my sexuality cuz I simply liked women my whole life but now my sexuality is a fundamental philosophy. I hate this.
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- 20w
This obsession is new, but feels so much more grounded and it’s so anxiety inducing. Since the ocd started I’ve lost my sense of self and confidence. I got soocd and it slowly turned into be doubting my identity on whether I want to identify or dress masculine or feminine. I don’t feel good in the clothes I would typically wear out before I’m constantly overanalyzing how I’m feeling , it makes me really anxious and like I’m preforming. So then I started doubting if I would rather dress masculine and it’s extremely anxiety inducing and idk if it’s the ocd now but it feels like that’s how I want to dress.. that’s not what I associated with at all before the ocd but now it feels like that’s what would make me feel fully confident and loose in the world, does anyone else experience this??
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- 16w
I feel different from others, I don’t feel as feminine and I feel like I’ve changed. I’m not sure why I feel this way. I also don’t think my ocd is ocd, it’s just something I told myself to feel better. I know! What if I am what if I’m not, I get it, but I don’t feel like i have a choice in the matter anymore. I have soocd and it’s eaten me alive for years. I woke up out of my sleep and got triggered and here I am. I don’t know what I feel anymore. I always wanted a boyfriend and now It seemed to change. I don’t want a girlfriend, it’s just that I don’t see anything for myself and I feel like I’m hiding. It’s hard to explain. Plus sometimes the way I move or speak makes me feel more masculine and it kills me. Im feeling so lost and alone right now. I know what I want deep down but I feel incapable of having those things because I won’t be able to have feeling. If that makes sense.
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