Yall girls wirh hocd just lost ur femininity? I dont enjoy getting ready anymore like inused to. Putting on lashes and nails is jusr not giving me that sparkle u kno its like makig me feel nothing. Looking cute and got me feeling cute anymore. I miss those days in summer where u feel al clean and pretty snd go out to dinner n shit. All i feel is anxiety now. Getting ready for a party is anxious while it used to be so fun to do it with friends with music blasting. I dont feel like the pure woman i used to be i feel disgusting and ruined. I was so girly and i miss the girly me. Like the developement of me growing in to the adult me has been disturbed by hocd and now im growing up to be the woman i wasnt supposed to be. Im so scared im missing out on becoming thr woman who i was suppose to be if that makes sense. Hocd grabbed on to very little thing i enjoyed and poisoned it.

Sexual Orientation OCD

Derby

Date posted: 5y

I don’t have HOCD but a lot of body image issues/identity. Never ever feel attractive anymore. I definitely used to have moments of feeling myself. Not anymore. I’m disgusted by myself. I can’t look in the mirror. When I do try to look nice I fail and feel like shit so I usually just don’t try. I don’t feel like myself. I’m too afraid to wear the clothes that I like. I view everyone as above me. I’m 24 and I feel like a disgusting, childish little goblin.

hocdgirlsummer

Date posted: 5y

I also have those issues... its so annoying and horrible because it wont allow me to feel pretty and when i feel pretty im not pretty if that makes sense. The last two years ive never felt uglier. I dont understand how i used to be so carefree... i wish u peace of mind so u cun finally see how gorgeous u are

Derby

Date posted: 5y

@hocdgirlsummer Sometimes I feel cute and then I look in the mirror and feel like such a fool. I hope we can feel pretty soon but I also hope we can learn that we don’t have to be pretty to have fun or be worthy.

hocdgirlsummer

Date posted: 5y

@Derby Very true indeed but still, I remember feeling pretty is like one of the best feelings in the world especially for woman.. i reeally wanna experience it again?

oliviacandace

Date posted: 5y

I feel this too!!

lizzy123

Date posted: 5y

Yup. Its like who are getting dressed up for? Why draw attention to yourself like this?

b13

Date posted: 5y

This is exactly how I feel and I’ve not seen anyone else say this. I literally think these exact words everyday. I’m 20 but still feel like the 15 year old I was when this first started and all I want to is to feel like the woman I’m growing up as and I just don’t. I hate it. Thank you for posting this

hocdgirlsummer

Date posted: 5y

Exaclty, i feel u honey. I hate it so much because everyone around me is evolving and i cant help but just be jalouse. I just wannt to feel like who i saw in my dreams when i was young. I feel like im so numb to all the feelings i couldnt wait for feeling if that makes sense...

RH212002

Date posted: 5y

I feel the same way. I used to get ready and all pretty but now it just seems like I've lost the magic but I cant go back to being the same either. Could this just be depression ? I'm only 17 but growing up has really hit hard. Especially growing up too early. I know I'm pretty but I hate that I don't have that artistic vibe anymore that happy drive

hocdgirlsummer

Date posted: 5y

Wow exactly!! Im also 17 and i haaate not feeling the vibe that i wanna dress as u know. When u know ur that bitch when u step out the door, that feelingn dissapeard. Its like i lost my whole aesthetic to life if that makes sense lol. I miss feeling the magic indeed it sounds so dramatic but u notice the emptyness when its gone. I miss that happy drive too bevause thats what made it feel good. Now i look in the mirror when i get all dressed up and im like aight cool but i used to feel this whole vibe and idk feel girly and pretty and diva like haha, i always got called diva and kim k bc i liked dressing up and id feel like the shit but now im just like uhhh im getting dressed but idk what for. I always loved to go to the airport and got like a cute joggerset and feel all cozy cute u kno but i did this again with hocd and omg i didnt enjoyed it all the whole spark was gone.. idk if this is just depression too. I freaking hope so

elleeen

Date posted: 5y

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