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I don’t have HOCD but a lot of body image issues/identity. Never ever feel attractive anymore. I definitely used to have moments of feeling myself. Not anymore. I’m disgusted by myself. I can’t look in the mirror. When I do try to look nice I fail and feel like shit so I usually just don’t try. I don’t feel like myself. I’m too afraid to wear the clothes that I like. I view everyone as above me. I’m 24 and I feel like a disgusting, childish little goblin.
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I also have those issues... its so annoying and horrible because it wont allow me to feel pretty and when i feel pretty im not pretty if that makes sense. The last two years ive never felt uglier. I dont understand how i used to be so carefree... i wish u peace of mind so u cun finally see how gorgeous u are
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@hocdgirlsummer Sometimes I feel cute and then I look in the mirror and feel like such a fool. I hope we can feel pretty soon but I also hope we can learn that we don’t have to be pretty to have fun or be worthy.
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@Derby Very true indeed but still, I remember feeling pretty is like one of the best feelings in the world especially for woman.. i reeally wanna experience it again?
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I feel this too!!
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Yup. Its like who are getting dressed up for? Why draw attention to yourself like this?
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This is exactly how I feel and I’ve not seen anyone else say this. I literally think these exact words everyday. I’m 20 but still feel like the 15 year old I was when this first started and all I want to is to feel like the woman I’m growing up as and I just don’t. I hate it. Thank you for posting this
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Exaclty, i feel u honey. I hate it so much because everyone around me is evolving and i cant help but just be jalouse. I just wannt to feel like who i saw in my dreams when i was young. I feel like im so numb to all the feelings i couldnt wait for feeling if that makes sense...
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I feel the same way. I used to get ready and all pretty but now it just seems like I've lost the magic but I cant go back to being the same either. Could this just be depression ? I'm only 17 but growing up has really hit hard. Especially growing up too early. I know I'm pretty but I hate that I don't have that artistic vibe anymore that happy drive
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Wow exactly!! Im also 17 and i haaate not feeling the vibe that i wanna dress as u know. When u know ur that bitch when u step out the door, that feelingn dissapeard. Its like i lost my whole aesthetic to life if that makes sense lol. I miss feeling the magic indeed it sounds so dramatic but u notice the emptyness when its gone. I miss that happy drive too bevause thats what made it feel good. Now i look in the mirror when i get all dressed up and im like aight cool but i used to feel this whole vibe and idk feel girly and pretty and diva like haha, i always got called diva and kim k bc i liked dressing up and id feel like the shit but now im just like uhhh im getting dressed but idk what for. I always loved to go to the airport and got like a cute joggerset and feel all cozy cute u kno but i did this again with hocd and omg i didnt enjoyed it all the whole spark was gone.. idk if this is just depression too. I freaking hope so
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This obsession is new, but feels so much more grounded and it’s so anxiety inducing. Since the ocd started I’ve lost my sense of self and confidence. I got soocd and it slowly turned into be doubting my identity on whether I want to identify or dress masculine or feminine. I don’t feel good in the clothes I would typically wear out before I’m constantly overanalyzing how I’m feeling , it makes me really anxious and like I’m preforming. So then I started doubting if I would rather dress masculine and it’s extremely anxiety inducing and idk if it’s the ocd now but it feels like that’s how I want to dress.. that’s not what I associated with at all before the ocd but now it feels like that’s what would make me feel fully confident and loose in the world, does anyone else experience this??
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I feel different from others, I don’t feel as feminine and I feel like I’ve changed. I’m not sure why I feel this way. I also don’t think my ocd is ocd, it’s just something I told myself to feel better. I know! What if I am what if I’m not, I get it, but I don’t feel like i have a choice in the matter anymore. I have soocd and it’s eaten me alive for years. I woke up out of my sleep and got triggered and here I am. I don’t know what I feel anymore. I always wanted a boyfriend and now It seemed to change. I don’t want a girlfriend, it’s just that I don’t see anything for myself and I feel like I’m hiding. It’s hard to explain. Plus sometimes the way I move or speak makes me feel more masculine and it kills me. Im feeling so lost and alone right now. I know what I want deep down but I feel incapable of having those things because I won’t be able to have feeling. If that makes sense.
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I’ve been dealing with SOOCD for over a year now, and I have been having a very hard day today. I feel like I just need someone to talk too, my whole life I’ve always had girl crushes and always wanted to be romantic with women . Ever since I posted this picture on instagram and one person said I looked “zesty” in it , which is when I started obsessing about being gay . I feel like I put so much meaning to these thoughts where now I’m always checking how I feeling around men. I had a really bad porn addiction for a long time and bad anxiety which fucked up my sex drive. I feel like I doubt if I’m attracted to women when I know I am , but the doubt is so overbearing where I start to believe it . I never was interested in men sexually, and my ocd makes me feel like I like the thoughts even though I feel no pleasure out of it. I feel like I lost who I am as a person . It feels like I don’t even know what my sexuality is and it’s really upsetting to me . I meant this girl the other day and she is the most beautiful woman I’ve ever met and I just feel like ocd is getting in the way😭😭😭 please any advice or comments
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