“ERP” simply doesn’t work for me. It MAKES me need to check more. Months ago, I purposely didn’t wash my hands after touching my eye. I had conjunctivitis, and convinced myself it was caused by an std, even when I had negative results in my std tests. I used the toilet at work after touching my eye and now I feel absolutely TERRIFIED I infected myself and my partner will think I cheated and leave me. NOW I feel that I MUST go back to the clinic to make sure my asshole isn’t infected by my own fucking eye all because of “ERP” which is nonsense as far as I’m fucking concerned

I don’t see how I’ll get through it without checking. How can I? If I don’t know I’m fine I can’t let it go. I feel I just need to check once more and then let it go

@uwotm8 Been struggling the same thing

In what way?

@uwotm8 The STD thing, worrying that we could get infected in a very nonsense way. And always wanting to get a STD test

@Abel I don’t even know if it’s nonsensical anymore cuz conjunctivitis can be caused by STDs Doctor said if my tests were negative then so is my eye but I’m sceptical

@uwotm8 Welll same as HIV, even a simple cough can be caused by HIV. Im still fighting through this worries and you’re probably has the most similar OCD as mine. Stay strong :)

@Abel People keep telling me to sit with anxiety - how? How tjenfuck? Nothing scares me like this issue does. If my relationship ends and e thinks I cheated I won’t hesitate to end my shit

@uwotm8 I lost my GF because of OCD, not bcs she thinks im cheating on her. But bcs i was so depressed i cant even finish my degree at this point i have to DO out of my uni. I hope youre not experiencing mine