“ERP” simply doesn’t work for me. It MAKES me need to check more. Months ago, I purposely didn’t wash my hands after touching my eye. I had conjunctivitis, and convinced myself it was caused by an std, even when I had negative results in my std tests. I used the toilet at work after touching my eye and now I feel absolutely TERRIFIED I infected myself and my partner will think I cheated and leave me. NOW I feel that I MUST go back to the clinic to make sure my asshole isn’t infected by my own fucking eye all because of “ERP” which is nonsense as far as I’m fucking concerned

Relationship OCD

orangey

Date posted: 5y

This heightened feeling of needing to check even more is part of the ERP processes. Feeling triggered to new levels is to be expected. Hang in there, I know it’s hell at times.

uwotm8

Date posted: 5y

I don’t see how I’ll get through it without checking. How can I? If I don’t know I’m fine I can’t let it go. I feel I just need to check once more and then let it go

Aleba

Date posted: 5y

@uwotm8 Been struggling the same thing

Aleba

Date posted: 5y

I think we have pretty much the same obsession

uwotm8

Date posted: 5y

In what way?

Aleba

Date posted: 5y

@uwotm8 The STD thing, worrying that we could get infected in a very nonsense way. And always wanting to get a STD test

uwotm8

Date posted: 5y

@Abel I don’t even know if it’s nonsensical anymore cuz conjunctivitis can be caused by STDs Doctor said if my tests were negative then so is my eye but I’m sceptical

Aleba

Date posted: 5y

@uwotm8 Welll same as HIV, even a simple cough can be caused by HIV. Im still fighting through this worries and you’re probably has the most similar OCD as mine. Stay strong :)

uwotm8

Date posted: 5y

@Abel People keep telling me to sit with anxiety - how? How tjenfuck? Nothing scares me like this issue does. If my relationship ends and e thinks I cheated I won’t hesitate to end my shit

Aleba

Date posted: 5y

@uwotm8 I lost my GF because of OCD, not bcs she thinks im cheating on her. But bcs i was so depressed i cant even finish my degree at this point i have to DO out of my uni. I hope youre not experiencing mine

Perfect Impe...

Date posted: 24w

Question

What would I do for ERP if my OCD says because I didn’t do something correctly or remember something I will have panic attacks that don’t end?

Anonymous

Date posted: 24w

Relationship OCD- fear of cheating

I have this deep fear I’ll accidentally cheat on my long term partner. This fear was initially triggered a couple years ago after being at a bar with my friends where I enjoyed the attention of being flirted with by a stranger. Because of my enjoyment of receiving verbal attention, I began spiraling about what if I accidentally cheat. Since then I have made multiple confessions to my partner to seek reassurance, replayed events over and over in my head, spent hours googling/looking at reddit threads, and now I dread “bar like” situations where I know my partner won’t be around. Today I was triggered and have wasted about 4-5 hours of my day ruminating. Does anyone else with relationship ocd struggle with this fear and have any tips?

TrustGod24

Date posted: 24w

ERP

I’m thinking about doing erp but my ocd is so severe the thought of accepting my fears happening to me makes me sick to my stomach. I also believe in the power of my words and saying I accept this Bad thing will attract it into my life. I’m not sure what I should do🥲

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