Acceptance has made my condition worse. Has anyone experienced finally giving in & accepting you have a seriously problem has then made my contamination OCD worse than it has ever been before, it’s getting heightened by the day. Have booked into my first OCD specialist session but it’s not for 3 weeks. Every day contaminations happen it can cost me between 6- 12 hours of cleaning each time, I’m so exhausted, so tired of crying and having sore hands from washing them. A huge trigger is flys which I can not control. They just keep getting the house. I can’t touch anything in my own home due to various contaminations.

So draining! When a contamination happens it trumps everything else I have to do that day because as you said if you don’t deal with the contamination the anxiety is just too much to handle so it’s easier to just give into the compulsion deContaminate. At least then, you can go back to normal for however long it is until the next contamination happens. I would love if we could find a way to help this.

Well yes I think, making the decision to see one. It’s weird. My first appointment is in 3 weeks so maybe it will start to get better after that. Now I think that my entire mind has just surrendered to the fact I have an issue so it’s all that I’m thinking about and it’s making it worse. And it’s not good cause I own a company and have so many responsibilities so I can’t let this take over my life. And it’s not something that you can tell people easily and even have them understand if you do.

It so f**ked up. When did you realize that you were having OCD issues?

So you have been dealing with it for years but still your parents don’t take it seriously. It’s even harder when your going through it by your self. It’s so overwhelming.

My dad also seemed to be better then my mum about it before they realized it was an issue. I don’t think people really know how to react to people with these issues. I must admit I never knew how to talk to my brother about the depression that he has had for many years. Now I can though because I understand more about what he is going through because of what I’m going through. So you live with your mum and step dad? It’s so shit that your step dad just flat out doesn’t believe you. People are so naïve. Being dismissed about something like OCD is not good. I felt it for so many years. Like if you were in a wheelchair and people can see your disability they believe it but if it’s in the mind and they can’t see it they don’t believe it. I only just found this app a couple of days ago but I already feel like I have a place now to do where people can relate. Because your OCD is not yet debilitating I think this is a really good thing it means you can stop focusing on getting better now before it takes over. What are your main triggers. I. E mine are flys, raw meet (not getting any blood anywhere) or making sure I don’t touch anything in my room or my things I touch all the time after I have been out of the house. I have to have a shower when I get back from going anywhere, or if my partner picks up the dog poo then I have to hold the door open for him and make him have a shower before he can touch anything. So bad when you bring other people into your compulsions but at this stage I can’t help it until I get help.

Oh no ☹️☹️. I can’t believe he says your lieing about the seizures. He is going to be no help to you at all by the sounds of it. And it your mum (I’m in Australia we spell it differently ha ha) is listening to him over you that’s an added pressure. They don’t even realize that they are going to start pushing away if you get rejected by them so many times. Honestly I only really have 1 person who understands which is my partner because he sees it first hand and having someone to vent to and cry to is the only way I have being able to deal with this. I wonder if your dad is the person that could be that for you. I know you have tryed to tell him in the past but he doesn’t seam to be as closed minded about it like your mum and step dad. I also only started using this app today. My aunty who is a trauma psychologist recommended I download it and I’m really glad I did. She has been giving me tips here and there for years but never realized it was as bad as it was untill recently when I started breaking down all the time. (So over myself right now) I use to be such a strong person. I think my OCD has also caused my anxiety. It’s weird hey. I never use to feel anxious and now I only feel anxious when a contamination happens. I’ll post the short artical I found when I was starting to realize I was bad that for some reason finally made my mum and dad realize I have an issue.

https://thiswayup.org.au/how-do-you-feel/obsessed-and-compulsive/

I didn’t realize slot of the things I was doing were related to my OCD untill I read this.

I also know what you mean about the doctor and even a therapist. I have never wanted to go see one because I didn’t think I needed to and I almost thought it would be weak if I did. It sounds bad but was they way I felt. Even making the appointment the other day and having to fill out the forms you have to do make me feel shit. Like I was just fitting into a box of the items I had to tick that I had issues with. Being stuck in your brain is exactly how I feel as well. I started like you just needing to keep things clean but wow. I never imagined it would get this bad. And I have now read many arrivals that it is comment to get worse in your twenties and most people go undiagnosed for 10 to 15 years which is exactly what I have done. The only upside I think for you even though at the moment your parents are not listening and you have OCD is that I really believe that knowing it this early in and down loading this app you have decided that you want to do something about it. Or at least know that you want to feel better.