missbluesky
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flowerboyflowerboy
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only you can decide your sexuality and it’s no big deal whatever you identify as but don’t put pressure on yourself to have a label right away, you can take time to think about how you feel
missblueskymissbluesky
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Are you familiar with hocd??
flowerboyflowerboy
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@missbluesky not too much
missblueskymissbluesky
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@flowerboy Not to offend, because I don’t mean to, but your comment was rather triggering. that’s not really the nature of hocd. are you yourself lgbt?
flowerboyflowerboy
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@missbluesky omg i’m so so sorry, and yes i’m bisexual
missblueskymissbluesky
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@flowerboy That’s totally okay. what kind of ocd do you suffer from? Did you ever obsess over your bisexuality?
flowerboyflowerboy
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@missbluesky i deal with rocd, just perfect ocd, and counting,,, i did question myself A LOT before i confirmed i was bisexual with myself bc i hadn’t had many experiences and i didn’t wanna label myself as something i’m not. i just stopped worrying about it bc i’m not gonna have a relationship anyways hahaha
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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@flowerboy When you were questioning, did the thought of doing stuff with another girl cause you great anxiety? And like almost make you want to cry? Also, did you want a relationship with another girl? I’m not against lgbt, my best friend is bi, I just suffer from hocd as well.
flowerboyflowerboy
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@annehatesocd i wasn’t scared of doing stuff with a girl only scared of what people would say and yes i have wanted a relationship with another girl. i’m sorry that you guys have to go through this i can’t imagine how bad that feels not knowing who you are
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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@flowerboy See I’m scared of doing stuff with another girl, I’ve only liked guys my whole entire life. And I can give two craps less on what people would say, I’m more scared that I like my friends that are girls who I’ve never before and actually help them get bfs. And I get an anxiety attack thinking about doing stuff with another girl. And I’ve always wanted to end up with a guy only. It really does suck and it’s so scary
flowerboyflowerboy
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@annehatesocd i’m so sorry about that, i can only imagine obsessing so much over who you’re attracted to, just remember it’s most likely ur ocd and u don’t have to do anything u don’t want to
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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@flowerboy Thank you for reminding me. I wouldn’t ever be able to do it without breaking down into an anxiety attack lol. And I’ve had it in and off since I was 13, and ocd since I was 7. So in a way used to it but in another it’s like “grrrrrr”
missblueskymissbluesky
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@annehatesocd You’ve had this on and off?
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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@missbluesky Ya. It’ll go away for awhile and I’ll have a different obsession than it’ll come back
missblueskymissbluesky
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@annehatesocd Me too. Since 7th grade. That’s what worries me
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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@missbluesky Same
missblueskymissbluesky
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@annehatesocd Do you think it means anything because it started at the same time a lot of people realize they’re gay?
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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@missbluesky Idrk. I try not to think like that cause I had no signs in my childhood. And I have a really complicated time with boys cause I was sexually assaulted when I was 9, witnessed him molest 7 other girls and rape my best friend so I have a very rocky relationship with males. But I have tons of guy friends and I fell in love with a guy who left me and broke my heart through this time and I would’ve done everything with him and anything for him. But as of late hocd has been stronger and like the thoughts don’t even disgust me anymore (sometimes and other times they do$ I just know I wouldn’t act on them and I get tons of anxiety at the thought.
missblueskymissbluesky
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my mom said I don’t seem like one but then she also said “how can someone seem like a lesbian if they’re not butch?”
missblueskymissbluesky
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So maybe she just thinks I don’t seem like one because I’m feminine but there are other ways to seem like it
missblueskymissbluesky
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I think I’m kind of losing it
missblueskymissbluesky
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What do you mean? Were you really anxious while you were questioning? How old were you? Why wouldn’t you have a relationship?
flowerboyflowerboy
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i was like 13 and i was anxious bc i didn’t rlly know much about being lgbt, and i meant that i wouldn’t have a relationship cuz no one wants to date me anyways ahhh lol
missblueskymissbluesky
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@flowerboy So how do you have rocd? I’m confused I’m sorry
flowerboyflowerboy
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@missbluesky oh it’s ok! i’m sorry i’m wording everything bad, i have been in relationships and when i am i constantly doubt how much i actually love them or how much they love me and i also second guess myself about crushes alot
missblueskymissbluesky
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@flowerboy and you’ve had crushes on the same sex before? As well as the opposite?
flowerboyflowerboy
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@missbluesky yeah
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