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Look I’m struggling with HOCD as well and you know what I feel better accepting that it’s there rather than fighting. Trust me on this you won’t become what you fear, I had all those symptoms you listed above and you know what I’ve stop caring. The more importance you put on the thoughts the stronger it gets. What you need to do is let the thoughts in and not fight them (I’m still learning this) they will have less power over you and you will overcome it. I had this shit 7 years ago and it went away, I relapsed but it’s slowly fading. Don’t waste anymore of your life worrying over what if’s, live your life and fuck ocd. OCD is a bully regardless of the theme, it will make you think things that don’t reflect you as a person. Starve the beast and don’t fuel it with unnecessary worries, that means no visiting forums (ie: Empty closets) or even gay pornography for that matter. Excessive worry or testing won’t make it better only worse. Learn to live with the uncertainty
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Same I’m really struggling today
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You’re not bisexual you have ocd
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If feel exactly the same, never ever had attraction for guys, please noooo. But OCD is so strong it's super weird. If I would be really gay I would feel pleasure thinking of guys right? Guess what, I don't, I'm disgraced about myself and I don't even dare to watch porn anymore because it scares me. I have a huge crush on a girl from my university, she keeps my head above the water and when I think about her I get this warm and cosy feeling. OCD is so weird and it tears you apart. Fuck this shit
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- 19w
I need too know that I'm not insane, really. I am 16 and for the past two weeks, this has been completely ruining my health and happiness. I only recently came out as a lesbian like 3 months ago after a lot of confusion about my attraction since I used to think I liked men. At first, I felt so sure that I liked women, but lately, I've been having these unwanted thoughts about the possibility of liking men. I never used to feel this way, but now, every time I look at a man, my brain obsessively fixates on it. It forces me to imagine kissing him, loving him, things I don’t want, and then tries to convince me that I do. It’s painful. The thought of this fills me with fear and anxiety, leading to panic attacks and breakdowns. I don’t want these thoughts. I hate them with every fiber of my being, but I’m terrified that one day I’ll act on them and somehow like it. I used to think I liked men, but back then, I was in a very unhealthy space in a time of escapism and something deeply parasocial. I’ve only ever liked the attention and validation a man could give me, but these experiences are somehow treated as further proof that I’m "bisexual." I’ve never been in a real relationship with anyone, which makes my brain constantly challenge me—telling me, “You don’t even know what love feels like.” It won’t shut up. It keeps obsessively trying to make me prove that I’m a lesbian, testing my reactions and questioning my certainty. Is this normal?
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hi i’m a lesbian! and i have known im a lesbian for a really long time and i have a sweet girlfriend of 1 year. it all started when i saw this masc lesbian come out as straight, after that i had my guy friend over and he’s a sweet guy and he was flirting with me (he didn’t know i was gay) im not sure but i panicked and my brain froze and i was like “do i like him”, ever since my brain has been over worked 24/7 for 2 months now and it’s spiralling constantly. im trying to control it but all these thoughts are so disgusting and my brain tries to put him and i in scenarios that make me uncomfortable and i feel panic and i hate it. i have always been comfortable being a lesbian and i still am comfortable as a lesbian, but i dislike these thoughts i have about him and men and i want it to be over. i do not want to experiment with men even tho my brain is telling me i do, i find it disgusting and i dread it, i have a sweet girlfriend and i want to be with her forever, i do not imagine anything with any men and i hate these thoughts. im scared of becoming bisexual/straight one day and i hate hearing sexuality is fluid. its a whole mix of comphet and so-ocd
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- 13w
I had a bad rumination spiral yesterday and went to bed hoping I’d start over in the morning. I was wrong. I had dreams about liking women and not being attracted to men anymore and my entire body has been in a state of anxiety since. I genuinely feel like I’m gay and just need to accept it. I have this urge to accept it. Maybe if I do I’ll get some sort of relief because this feeling is awful. I feel like my brain is telling me that I’ll get relief if I just accept it and come out. The intrusive thoughts don’t even seem to be around sexual images anymore, just to come out.
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