I hope this doesn’t come off as reassurance, but I’m in need of some positive thoughts. I’m in the middle of ERP where I touched my hair on something where I know a dirty toilet snake had been and I’m resisting for 2 hours (I have to anyways since maintenance has to come fix something unrelated so I can’t shower now or while they’re fixing it). I feel so contaminated and gross right now. Any positivity is much appreciated.

Contamination OCD

synesthetic

Date posted: 5y

The feeling will pass, and your discomfort is temporary. Do you like cats? Ahaha. I watch cat videos when I’m feeling uncomfortable, which sounds so dumb. But very effective, actually. Ha. They’re so sweet and silly. I’ll link you to some if you’d like?

cats123

Date posted: 5y

The fact that you’ve even got the strength to do this is amazing. Good job and continue to work hard. Know that this is all worth it!

K8E

Date posted: 5y

Aw thank you so much!! I really needed that right now. I’m in so much emotional pain currently so it’s very difficult for me :/

cats123

Date posted: 5y

@K8E Hope everything works out and you can do this, hang in there

K8E

Date posted: 5y

Thanks for all the comments, guys! I know I’m contaminated so that’s the problem haha but I still can’t shower yet but hopefully it’ll all be okay.

cats123

Date posted: 5y

Keeping hanging in there! You got this

layan

Date posted: 5y

i’m very proud of you!!that’s a HUGE step into getting better bc it was v scary n intense but you did it anyways!!

K8E

Date posted: 5y

Thank you!!

sara235

Date posted: 5y

Great work!

K8E

Date posted: 5y

Thank you!!

Stephen Smith

Date posted: 5y

Are you doing ERP with a therapist?

K8E

Date posted: 5y

It sounds terrible, but I’m doing it on my own. I had a therapist awhile back so I’m trying to replicate what she taught me.

Stephen Smith

Date posted: 5y

@K8E Why not see an ERP therapist again? Doing it on your own is oftentimes really challenging.

K8E

Date posted: 5y

@Advocate4OCD&ERP Yeah I should.

Stephen Smith

Date posted: 5y

@K8E Inside the NOCD app, you can do live video-conferencing sessions with an OCD specialist therapist, and it’s only $50 per session. The reason the price is $150 less than average is simply because the team at NOCD all has OCD and they know how burdensome it is to pay for treatment. Most people also get better in 8 weeks. To start, all you need to do is hit the therapist button inside the app, and you can schedule a 15 min call with NOCDs intake team. The guy who answers the phone is named Gerald and he was very understanding of my sexual intrusive thoughts. He basically told me he hears them all the time. Did you know you can do that?

K8E

Date posted: 5y

Thanks for all the responses! I feel like I can’t get clean enough and that the room can’t get clean enough but I’m exhausted so it’s gonna just have to be what it is. I waited for 2 hours to shower which is disgusting but I guess that’s good?

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