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I been there too man, it's really hard not to look back and long for a time when you were happy and didn't have to deal with OCD..that care-free state of mind feels so foreign now. I still can't remember what I used to think about other than my OCD/Intrusive thoughts. It's one of my main ruminations and really gets me down. But you gotta understand that you didn't cause it and more than likely, none of us will ever figure out what caused our specific OCD..and if we did "figure it out", our OCD would just question it. Lol. My advice is to get in therapy ASAP. It took me several months of suffering and going insane before I got over my ego and agreed to go see someone. It's been a year since my diagnosis and I can't tell you how much of a better place I'm in. It's still a day to day struggle; but I no longer call off work or leave early, I'm socially active again, in a loving relationship with someone who understands my OCD..it's a process to get better. And I think therapy is the right first step.
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I know I’m so scared to go back and I don’t even have money for a proper ocd specialist I have less anxiety now and I feel like Going to therapy will change me I went to free Therapists and they didn’t help because they don’t specialize with Ocd
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Hey, man nobody ever plans for this. No cursing yourself bro. Trust me I have the same problem, but you have to hold yourself up. You got this far man. No stopping now. I've been down and depressed. It 3 am rn and I haven't ate anything in 12 hours. I get it trust me. But I ain't stopping now. Nobody can know if they will get hit with this stuff. It's not your fault. I'm literally in the same place you are. But you have to have hope for the future. You have a whole future to try and do better and make a good life for yourself. It's a process head up bro you got this
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Yeah I know but bro now I’m just stuck I’m trying really hard but it’s all going south I could have a boner with girls and no boner when I’m thinking about gay stuff but damn it hurts that I can’t get my life back on track
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It's always how you see it man. If you choose to say your stuck and you can't do it everytime it gets rough, then youll have a harder time. You can't give up, you've made it this far. Remember why you started. We all are in some pain. But we can do it. Your not alone man. Everyone here goes through the same thing and there are some that can tell you everything will be alright cuz they were in the same place you were. It's up to you to be one of them man. We all want to see you get better. No doubt you have this man
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@Reptarrox Yeah bro and sometimes I’m actually happy and sometimes I’m down I just want my life back I should be happy that I’m here but I’m not I should be happy that I’m less anxious but it makes me feel like shit me being less anxious makes me feel like shit
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@Mod22 Same here man. Feels awful. But we both will be okay. I thought the same that I would feel better not being anxious but some and I would say it feels worst. But that's not the goal. Tf e goal is to be able to put it aside as normal thinkers do. Never losing morals but being able to just say. Ha OK brain. Sure whatever you say. And move on. That to me is a goal. You will be happy, I just takes time. Good on you bro
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Im kinda ignorant to this topic Im new to the group i never mean any offense and am hear to learn.With thatbsaid can i ask..is its with a view one attration is bad and one is good?..or is it the confusion thats the distressing part....?❤
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These past few days I was fine. Minimal intrusive thoughts ,no anxiety etc(to add I'm on medication so maybe it's starting to work although it barely is 2 weeks) and today I got a sudden wave of anxiety and it started latching on some thoughts like" what if I'm in denial and I wanna break up with my bf? And what if erp doesn't work for me because I actually wanna break up with my bf?" But they didn't really stay long usually those thoughts would make me spiral for days or so, now they lasted for some hours. And now I'm trying to trigger myself into being anxious again because if I don't it means I don't have ocd and if I don't have ocd it means I don't love my bf and if I don't love my bf it means I have to break up. Idk if it makes sense but the lack of anxiety makes me wonder if I actually have ocd or not.
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Hello, I unknowingly have lived with ROCD or OCD (not sure what one. I’m new to this). It has ruined so many amazing romantic and platonic relationships and I am so sad that just now I am finding out what the hell is wrong with me. Maybe life would be different if I have known. My OCD and anxiety is at an all time high (ATH) due to some horrible events that have happened in the recent months. I am at the point where paranoia has taken over my life now. I had my first panic attack a few weeks ago where I fainted. My anxiety attacks are so extreme I go thought cognitive distortion that has lasted days. My girlfriend of 3 years is my emotional guardian and she no long has the energy to be that and honestly it’s not her responsibility to be that. She is bi and wanted to have an open relationship and for someone who has OCD this has not been good for me. She also was assaulted in my own home by a good friend of ours when I was out of town but it’s not a clear situation because it sounded consensual at first. I just left my very high paying job. I am financially secure but the job was emotionally abusive and looking back made my OCD worse. I am taking some time off to get my head right…but now, all I have to do during the day is live in my OCD. I’m very happy I finally figured out why I act the way I do but I don’t know if I can get better quick enough to save my relationship. I have never been so worried about myself (M 28 years old). I am a confident young professional and never thought I would be writing on a page like this. Anyway…I hope it gets better.
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