I feel like I should be a boy but I don’t want to be. Is this trans ocd?? Could hocd slowly shift to trans ocd? It’s like I’m supposed to be a boy and like a girl and I don’t want to be with a girl or be a boy. But it’s like my thought process has completely shifted from being boy crazy to being girl crazy and it feels like a guys mind and not mine and I hate this. I feel like I’m going crazy. Is this all normal for ocd?

Same it’s not my main I would say hocd is my main. I hate this so much :(

Ya I’m just typing it out and it sounds like I’m just in denial. I’ve always been super girly since I was a kid and loved Barbie dolls so I know the trans part is ocd. But the hocd part cause me tons of anxiety cause it’s like my thoughts have “shifted” to a “gay” persons thoughts or like how a boy would think about a girl and I hate it with a passion. And in my childhood I always liked boys and would have crushes on them so it doesn’t make sense. Especially when I don’t want a gf and don’t want to do anything with a girl. I hate this it makes no sense at all.

@biodgrde Wait what’s interesting and makes sense? Is that normal for ocd??

@biodgrde And no I’m not seeing a therapist my parents haven’t found one yet

@annehatesocd I struggle with HOCD too, and I can tell you that you’re not in denial just by what you’ve said. If the thoughts distress you and you don’t want to be with girls, then this is definitely HOCD. One of the symptoms of HOCD is feeling like you’ve “turned gay.” However, the reality is that if the thoughts scare you, then your brain will constantly worry about them. That’s why they pop up more and more. It’s not that you want to think those things, it’s just that your brain focuses on them as a threat or problem that needs to be solved.

@jcplunk I’m currently in my bathroom crying cause I think I’m a lesbian. I’m so sad. I don’t want to date a girl but it feels like I have to and I’m just in denial. Nothing gives me reassurance anymore and I just cry so much.

@annehatesocd Have you tried seeing a therapist about this? I understand how it feels, but I promise that once you take the fear out of the equation it gets much easier. A counselor/therapist can help you do that.

@jcplunk No I haven’t

@annehatesocd Are you in high school or college? Most colleges have free counseling services, or you could talk to one of your parents that you trust a lot to not judge you and see if they’ll help you go to counseling.

@jcplunk My parents can’t find a counselor and I’m a senior in hs so next year I go to college