kaysf
- Date posted
- 5y
Sb60rottSb60rott
- Date posted
- 5y
That's just the way humans brains are wired some times. We are sexual beings; but obsessive compulsive disorder is lying to you. That's what's not normal- the chemicals in your brain are just a temporary illness. This is not your fault. You need to practice thoughts of self love and worthiness. Even when you dont feel like it. Meditation made a big difference for me
prakritiprakriti
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- 5y
Same! Did anyone of you stop having such active thoughts. I used to constantly search on the internet about sexuality tests and all that. I don't actively think about sexuality stuffs nowadays but it's there somewhat at the back of mind to the point i know i can never go back to how I was and freely interact with my female friends. Like i go through my daily routine without having such intrusive thoughts but it's there at the back of my mind. But just the fact that nowadays I don't actively think about it is making me think that I never had hocd and am actually a lesbian. I do actively think when i read something online that triggers me or come across a pretty girl. I just start fantasizing to the point I get anxious
neveragain86neveragain86
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- 5y
I guess I have days when I don’t get the thoughts as much those days I could feel a little better and deal with the thoughts. Other days it’s constant ugh I hate those days
neveragain86neveragain86
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- 5y
I know how you feel i get those same thoughts. It’s constant and iv been dealing with this since 2004. It really sucks
kaysfkaysf
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- 5y
i literally do not know what makes me think i like it. and that makes me think i actually do like it and that’s why i think i do and now i’m stressed and anxious and worrying and just not doing good
neveragain86neveragain86
- Date posted
- 5y
I get that too. I’ll have a thought I like another girl when I don’t and my hocd even makes me feel like I’m smiling it’s disgusting. I guess we could just say it’s part of the hocd
kaysfkaysf
- Date posted
- 5y
it sucks. it really sucks. and i just wish i could be cured of it and never have to deal with it again
kaysfkaysf
- Date posted
- 5y
i’m pretty sure this is a compulsion so i need to stop, but when i think about it to check and see if i like it, it seems so real and i hate it. also this is a way for me to vent because the more i vent the better i feel because it seems less real life and more of an actual ocd thing
neveragain86neveragain86
- Date posted
- 5y
I feel like I could never love myself when I constantly have these thoughts. It really does suck I’m sorry we have to go through this.
Sb60rottSb60rott
- Date posted
- 5y
Neveragain86, you often arent going to feel like it. That's the thing. I never feel like doing a lot of things especially when I'm depressed I have to force myself because in the long run I know its what's best for me. Make it a practice. Writing it out, saying things out loud. Even if you dont believe it in the moment. Its the action you are taking and over time it helps to make new and healthy connections in the brain.
neveragain86neveragain86
- Date posted
- 5y
Yeah I know your right it just gets hard some days and I have no motivation to get out of bed on certain days.
Sb60rottSb60rott
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- 5y
Look into Mel Robbins 5 second rule. It doesnt always work but can help for things like getting up!
neveragain86neveragain86
- Date posted
- 5y
Thank you
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Anonymousssssss
- Date posted
- 20w
Idk what to do
Hey yall, having a tough time. I’ve been struggling with intrusive thoughts while I self pleasure and it GENUIENLY feels like I enjoy them for whatever reason. And then now about half an hour later it’s like okay it’s a sexual thought but I might not actually like it. Idk I just really hate myself, because I basically genuinely liked it in the moment
geodrimilis
- Date posted
- 15w
Hocd is literally a clown in my head.
Like I can’t think straight. This is making me doubt everything I’ve thought about myself and even makes me feel like I like the thoughts when I know I don’t. Like I would be less anxious at a time while I still have the thoughts and my mind would go “oh so you like it you must be gay” or the other one where I’m not anxious and I think of my attraction for girls that I’ve had my whole life and my mind goes “see now you’re not into them you’re gay” like it’s so stupid but so effective. I clearly remember being into girls my whole life but my mind is making me believe that all these attractions and feelings for women were all fake or “a thing of the past”. But I can still get aroused by women but I have this weird anxiety going on which brings these sensations/feelings and it’s so weird. Today I’ve spent my whole day thinking about it like I’ve been doing for 5 months now. I know that this aint normal but my mind just won’t let me live in peace. I never cared about my sexuality cuz I simply liked women my whole life but now my sexuality is a fundamental philosophy. I hate this.
issphra 🫶🏻
- Date posted
- 14w
I’m freaking out please help
I don’t know if my hormones are extra wild this month or what, but I have been having so many POCD thoughts lately. It feels like I enjoy them in the moment, and then a few seconds later, I get this tiny flicker of *wait I don’t think I actually want to enjoy that.* It’s scaring me a lot. I was watching adult videos for the first time in about a year, since I had been avoiding them because of my OCD. I know they are not good for anyone, but I felt like i could (ironically it felt like a tiny win that my OCD had calmed down enough). But while watching, I had like 3 separate POCD thoughts. And it felt like I liked them. Like genuinely *liked* them. I don’t know if maybe my body was mixing up physical pleasure and mental pleasure, and then my brain inserted those not okay thoughts into the situation, which got tangled up with the pleasure responses I felt mentally and physically. It is all really confusing. I just feel so scared. I know OCD thoughts are supposed to feel real, and that once you get desensitized to the anxiety, they lose their power. But this feels like I am *actually enjoying* the thoughts, and that makes me want to cry. I’m scared that I actually like these thoughts when I’m really aroused :( Please help.
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