- Username
- kaysf
- Date posted
- 4y ago
That's just the way humans brains are wired some times. We are sexual beings; but obsessive compulsive disorder is lying to you. That's what's not normal- the chemicals in your brain are just a temporary illness. This is not your fault. You need to practice thoughts of self love and worthiness. Even when you dont feel like it. Meditation made a big difference for me
Same! Did anyone of you stop having such active thoughts. I used to constantly search on the internet about sexuality tests and all that. I don't actively think about sexuality stuffs nowadays but it's there somewhat at the back of mind to the point i know i can never go back to how I was and freely interact with my female friends. Like i go through my daily routine without having such intrusive thoughts but it's there at the back of my mind. But just the fact that nowadays I don't actively think about it is making me think that I never had hocd and am actually a lesbian. I do actively think when i read something online that triggers me or come across a pretty girl. I just start fantasizing to the point I get anxious
I guess I have days when I don’t get the thoughts as much those days I could feel a little better and deal with the thoughts. Other days it’s constant ugh I hate those days
I know how you feel i get those same thoughts. It’s constant and iv been dealing with this since 2004. It really sucks
i literally do not know what makes me think i like it. and that makes me think i actually do like it and that’s why i think i do and now i’m stressed and anxious and worrying and just not doing good
I get that too. I’ll have a thought I like another girl when I don’t and my hocd even makes me feel like I’m smiling it’s disgusting. I guess we could just say it’s part of the hocd
it sucks. it really sucks. and i just wish i could be cured of it and never have to deal with it again
i’m pretty sure this is a compulsion so i need to stop, but when i think about it to check and see if i like it, it seems so real and i hate it. also this is a way for me to vent because the more i vent the better i feel because it seems less real life and more of an actual ocd thing
I feel like I could never love myself when I constantly have these thoughts. It really does suck I’m sorry we have to go through this.
Neveragain86, you often arent going to feel like it. That's the thing. I never feel like doing a lot of things especially when I'm depressed I have to force myself because in the long run I know its what's best for me. Make it a practice. Writing it out, saying things out loud. Even if you dont believe it in the moment. Its the action you are taking and over time it helps to make new and healthy connections in the brain.
Yeah I know your right it just gets hard some days and I have no motivation to get out of bed on certain days.
Look into Mel Robbins 5 second rule. It doesnt always work but can help for things like getting up!
Thank you
Can anyone relate to having HOCD thlughts (or any form of sexual orientation OCD) and getting aroused by them? I don't mean a groinal response (tingles, twinges, etc.) or arousal-non concordance (when you're groing get's aroused but your mind doesn't), or confusing stress with arousal... I literally mean getting aroused (both mentally and physiologically) by unwanted thoughts in repeated occasions (frequently) when you test yourself? Basically like if it was a sexual fantasy, with the exception that it's a torture that you have found through compulsions. I never wanted to think any of this and I still hate and wouldn't do any of the content of my thoughts. But this happens to me and makes me feel SOOOOO in denial and anxious even though I've never had sex, interest, attraction or desires for a man (or a transexual, which is my other HOCD topic).
18+ only Does anybody with sexual intrusive thoughts get scared that they’ll masturbate to their thoughts? Or that the thoughts really arouse them? because I get groinals and it’s so confusing. But I find the thoughts disgusting and I don’t enjoy the experience of having a groinal response at all.
I was focused on a vid of women my age and above doing explicit things… I kept getting intrusive thoughts that I didn’t notice… then I started getting a physical groinal response… and by the time that happened I had noticed the intrusive thoughts… my HOCD is saying I’m in denial because of this… when I don’t ever want to ever be homosexual or bisexual at all…
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