I’ve had a long-standing fear of essentially just not being a good person. Being selfish, or a narcissist, or a sociopath etc etc. But I’ve alllllways thought that the fact that it worries me so much, is proof that it can’t be true. Because bad people don’t worry about being bad. But today I began to wonder if that’s not true. If it’s just an obsession. A way my brain can trick me into compulsions. It doesn’t matter if it’s about being a good person or not, it’s just a fear. Therefore I have no regard to being good or bad, I just don’t want to be anxious. Maybe OCD doesn’t actually attack my morals and values, it just picks anything. I don’t think I’ve worded this right and maybe it all sounds a little bit confusing. But I’m just worried I’m not good at the end of the day.

I had this theme too but trust me even tho it’s cliche narrsasicts sociopaths etc don’t care or wonder if they are also I’m a bit selfish and you can change that I’m trying to

Hi Eden I am currently at the same theme also, and it’s seem tha low confidence and low self esteem feeds this OCD form. Last week I just closed all social media, I stopped the selfies and I started to enjoy my moments at the present just for me. It seems that it help a lot because when you have low self esteem you also worry how others see you. So now I just to accept the situation and be more in the present moment. OCD lives in what if, in what is it cannot survive. It’s not easy to stay in the moment, but when I am, I feel myself again and I the moments. This can last to 10 min, to 1 hour, to a day. The more you bring yourself back to present the more you stop to feed OCD thoughts.

Thanks a lot, I wish it will help you also, try not to lose hope, we will all have dark days we just need to survive them. Try to be gendle and kind to yourself and breath, it will pass as it always does. Try to be more on the know and just leave the thoughts in the background.

I am consciously suffering from OCD from more than 7 years. I manage to leave for a few years completely free and now I am learning to accept that it may comes and go for the rest in my life. One thing I learn through the years is that OCD can be this scary monster in our mind but it can also be a teacher of what really counts in life. It teach how to be more sensitive to the pain of other people and how to enjoy the little things in life, family, friendships, the sounds of the birds when the noise dissapears. It teach how to find the courage and to win any kind of fear, how to be kind to my self and now it’s teaching me how to be more on the now and the here. So try no to beat up yourself and to understand immediately, it takes time, mistakes, back steps, but eventually you will get there, as everyone else in this app. Try to enjoy your free OCD days the most you can and try to survive the most, through time, therapy, books, support and self realization, you will get there and you will feel again the wind on your face, the sound of the sea, the sun, and you will smile and you will breath.