A lesbian on Instagram has a matching tattoo as me in the same exact spot in my elbow crease so naturally my hocd mind takes me to that means I’m a lesbian and I’m suppose to be with her. Y’all I am fuckkng TIRED.

I know and I know how dumb it sounds but it’s just what my brain thinks with my hocd :( I can’t help it.

@Ocdandme123 It’s not dumb! I’m just trying to be blunt to tell your ocd to fuck off!! I’m sorry ? I have “dumb” std fears too, never been diagnosed with one but I convinced myself my conjunctivitis 6 months ago was caused by one and I have now infected myself and my partner will leave me and think I cheated We all have our nonsensical worries

@uwotm8 I went through std ocd. I know how you feel :( it’s awful! I went nonstop. All the time. My dr laughed at me. But it’s a scary thing! Just know it’s a little harder to get than what you’re thinking! And just be smart during intercourse and you will be fine :)

@Ocdandme123 And I know it’s dumb in my head but gosh it feels so fucking real. Like I could be with a girl. I hate not knowing myself and who I am. I think that makes me the saddest

@Ocdandme123 We don’t use condoms because we both tested negative at the start of our relationship and we don’t sleep with other people but I just can’t stop worrying “what if the conjunctivitis was caused by an std and the symptoms only showed a year later? And my vagina etc didn’t have an std but I was just lucky I didn’t catch one in those areas, and unlucky that I DID in my eye? If I get the eye gunk in/near my mouth or genitals I’m absolutely fucked”

@Ocdandme123 You’re not sad!! Hocd is entirely about not having confidence in yourself, it’s not that you’re gay it’s that you haven’t “found yourself” yet

@uwotm8 Yeah but I can’t bear to “find myself” and have that be me ending up being gay. Or bi. Idk. I don’t want that. And to get an STD, you have to have direct contact with the genitals or the fluids to contact it. From what I’ve researched, that’s what I thought

It makes you feel like it though for sure cuz I was completely okay with where I was at with myself before this. I needed help being confident but I didn’t need to “find myself”

Hocd is about that though, how else do you explain it? It’s an identity based tbing, people don’t realise exactly what it is but they feel something isn’t giving them self confidence then ocd goes “ok so what if you’re gay then?”

@uwotm8 Yeah and when mine hit, my bf and I were going through a rough patch so I was upset and stressed and self conscious then bam. “Oh I’m probably gay.”