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One thing that makes me feel bad is that I have less intrusive thoughts and less Anxiety but it’s still there and I lost my attraction for girls and my sex drive
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You'll get it all back bro. Trust me.
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@marcovibes I feel so lost but because I have less anxiety I trip I don’t know what this really means I just wish I could go back part of the reason why it’s so hard is that even when you happy you dont forget that you have Ocd
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Try to live your life :)
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I will even though I don’t recognize the life I’m living now
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Recover. Whoever you attract will simply be a reflection of who you see yourself as in the inside. Like attracts like. Work to become the best version of yourself. Don't rush things because paradoxically it won't get you to where you want to be any quicker. Best thing is to let things flow and the right woman will come into your life when you're ready for her. Forcing things will feel unatural and as I percieve you're only fixing yourself to settle at this point. I've been single for 3 years now and am currently recovering from HOCD after a 3 month raging obsession. The Universe will give me the appropriate woman at the proper time. Remember that the Universe won't give you what you aren't ready to recieve. Best of luck!
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I hear you bro thing Is I’m a relationship guy even when this OcD started I was in a relationship and I felt like she didn’t deserve a mentally unhleatly me and I feel like she’s gonna be with someone better because I couldn’t be better for her I won’t lie being single sort of helped me in a way because I’d get triggered a lot but also I need my life back I want to be women crazy again and just love women without Hocd thoughts trying to make me feel gay
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@Mod22 That's the best you could've done for her, man. Very considerate of you. Hey, I love women as well. They're fucking amazing, thing is that you can't expect to have the type of relationship you want while your OCD is making you trip over your sexual orientation. You'll only be giving her part of the best man you could be for her. When my HOCD kicked in, I thought it was my heart telling me I had to go out find a girlfriend, but the more I seeked the more lost I felt. Now that I'm recovering I know I'm a step closer to getting the type of woman I really deserve. If I would've listened to my mind months ago, I probably wouldn't be where I'm at now. Give yourself some time off. Work on yourself. You deserve to be 100%.
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Man, hours ago, when I had not already downloaded the app, I thougt I was a freak and I was the unique in this, now I read these kind of things and I know that I'm not. I'm passing through the same, doubting about my sexual orientation all the time, not feeling or feeling little for women and feeling things for man that makes me feel unpleasant and akward. So, I think you could read about EPR, expose yourself and that kind of things.
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I feel awful that I keep coming on here whenever I’m down bad but oh my gosh OCD is the most painful shit that I have EVER experienced in my life and I have a physical chronic illness…. I hate to say it but I hate living right now it’s too painful… im crying as I type to the point where my stomach is hurting, I have pretty severe ocd I do have generalized anxiety and idk if that is connected with ocd but because of that I have most of the subtypes REAL EVENT OCD,POCD,ZOCD,ROCD,SOCD HARM OCD, you name it and I got it!!! a lot of also why I have have those theme is trauma growing up and involving those things^ as of right now i’m 25 and a women with the most loving boyfriend in the entire world before my ocd hit me I NEVER questioned my love and care and attraction with the love of my life I always knew I was going to marry and be with this person the rest of my life! Now with ocd it confuses me soooo much and now I think I’m gay and didn’t realize or indenial and listen I get it “don’t look for reassurance!” “It’s not the thing ocd is attacking that is the problem ocd is the actual problem!” Here’s the thing with that if I’m in a relationship and I’m gay that would mean I would have to leave that said relationship and to say that “oh yeah that stuff happens and you’ll move on” is absolutely devastating to me this is THE LOVE OF MY LIFE and your telling me that iv been lying to myself this whole time or that I didn’t realize?!?!? And that sexuality can change (even though some say it can’t google says otherwise and some people have said it can’t idek anymore) and all this other BULLSHIT I can’t take it WHY?!?! why does this have to happen why can’t I just be with my love the rest of my life?!? and yes before anyone says anything I have been attracted to girls more so when I was younger watching lesbian porn liking the body’s and fantazing them sexually it stopped when I got older but I still don’t get disgusted with women who are pretty it just makes me uncomfortable because I’m with the love of my life and before I remember talking to my partner and discussing certain childhood things I experienced and we discussed that we both could be a little bi and for certain I’m (demi sexual so I don’t even really care about looks) and I truly didn’t care!! NOW I do care even with being bi because again I don’t like thinking about anyone else but my partner but I do also know my parents are homophobic and I do think about if I am gay they wouldn’t be okay with that and I also dont want to deal with that so now I sound like in indenial right?!???? I didn’t even care about labels before my ocd it just didn’t matter but now it’s effected my sex life and it’s hard for me to enjoy sex with being so confused I’m so confused I googled everything can you still have sexual fantasies with same gender but still be straight? Can you fantasize about same gender or imagine marrying them all of it !!! And non of that disgusts me it just makes me uncomfortable AGIAN only bc I just love the partner I’m with right now!!! I’m so fucking confused do I have to leave my partner and accept that I’m gay is that going to happen in the future if I get better with ocd and find out it’s been true all along?!???
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I’ve had so many moments of clarity with my OCD that I love my boyfriend and I’m beyond willing to go through this to be better and be with him. in the back of mind I’ve in a way known I was at least somewhat sexually attracted to women (I’m a woman) since the start of the ocd it was always like “okay. Fine, but I don’t want to date a girl” I only just realized this after the ocd started, I never really argued with this. my ocd has always revolved around if I’m romantically interested in women and not men. I’ve done so many compulsions through this year and a half and 9 times out of 10 have come to the conclusion that I don’t want to be with a woman romantically. I always end up feeling like I know I love my boyfriend. But the doubts don’t stop about whether I want to spend my life with a woman instead, my heart literally breaks to think of not being with my bf and imagining him with someone else. I don’t want to be with a woman I know deep down somewhere underneath the anxiety that that’s not what I want. It doesn’t feel natural for me, unfulfilling. I want to tell my boyfriend about the possible sexual attraction to women (ik it’s still ocd related) but I’m scared that once I tell him, I’ll realize that I actually do want to be with women and not with him. Ugh I’ve spent hours today ruminating about this after being solid in my commitment with him for a little while, I’m stuck in this loop and idk how to get out right now
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So I identify as a lesbian and I am in a committed relationship with a wonderful girl. But i’m stressing that I have crushes on boys I go to school with. I get anxious around them, which I think I mistake for excitement. I obsess over it in my head which confuses me a lot. Idk I also never think about them sexually or romantically but I think about them often which is scaring me. Any advice?
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