- Username
- Mod22
- Date posted
- 4y ago
One thing that makes me feel bad is that I have less intrusive thoughts and less Anxiety but it’s still there and I lost my attraction for girls and my sex drive
You'll get it all back bro. Trust me.
@marcovibes I feel so lost but because I have less anxiety I trip I don’t know what this really means I just wish I could go back part of the reason why it’s so hard is that even when you happy you dont forget that you have Ocd
Try to live your life :)
I will even though I don’t recognize the life I’m living now
Recover. Whoever you attract will simply be a reflection of who you see yourself as in the inside. Like attracts like. Work to become the best version of yourself. Don't rush things because paradoxically it won't get you to where you want to be any quicker. Best thing is to let things flow and the right woman will come into your life when you're ready for her. Forcing things will feel unatural and as I percieve you're only fixing yourself to settle at this point. I've been single for 3 years now and am currently recovering from HOCD after a 3 month raging obsession. The Universe will give me the appropriate woman at the proper time. Remember that the Universe won't give you what you aren't ready to recieve. Best of luck!
I hear you bro thing Is I’m a relationship guy even when this OcD started I was in a relationship and I felt like she didn’t deserve a mentally unhleatly me and I feel like she’s gonna be with someone better because I couldn’t be better for her I won’t lie being single sort of helped me in a way because I’d get triggered a lot but also I need my life back I want to be women crazy again and just love women without Hocd thoughts trying to make me feel gay
@Mod22 That's the best you could've done for her, man. Very considerate of you. Hey, I love women as well. They're fucking amazing, thing is that you can't expect to have the type of relationship you want while your OCD is making you trip over your sexual orientation. You'll only be giving her part of the best man you could be for her. When my HOCD kicked in, I thought it was my heart telling me I had to go out find a girlfriend, but the more I seeked the more lost I felt. Now that I'm recovering I know I'm a step closer to getting the type of woman I really deserve. If I would've listened to my mind months ago, I probably wouldn't be where I'm at now. Give yourself some time off. Work on yourself. You deserve to be 100%.
Man, hours ago, when I had not already downloaded the app, I thougt I was a freak and I was the unique in this, now I read these kind of things and I know that I'm not. I'm passing through the same, doubting about my sexual orientation all the time, not feeling or feeling little for women and feeling things for man that makes me feel unpleasant and akward. So, I think you could read about EPR, expose yourself and that kind of things.
So looks like I’ve hit a wall I haven’t hit ever with this ocd. If you can even call it ocd. I genuinely feel confused. Idk what’s real or not. Idk what my mind or body wants. I feel so stressed out. My thoughts don’t give me anxiety anymore and sometimes it genuinely feels like I want it and I’m just hiding it. I don’t get it. I even lost attraction to this girl I was madly interested in. I don’t know what to do anymore really. I see any dude and my mind automatically starts thinking “you’re attracted to him” literally every single guy I see. I’m not even kidding. I really don’t get what’s going on with me. I haven’t been diagnosed yet because there are no ocd specialists in my area. My mom told me once she thinks she has ocd and my aunt as well. But their ocd seems more like the “traditional” type of ocd where you can actually see their compulsions. I think I struggled from Religious ocd a few years back. Also with my ex girlfriend there was a period where I struggled with ROCD I believe but got over it. Now Hocd has definitely been the worst and what makes it worse is that I actually had a gay experience but even after that I didn’t question my sexuality. I maybe would get the ocasional “you’re gay” thought but wouldn’t pay it attention and it just went away. But now it just can’t leave my head. This has been going on since February. I used to be crazy for women, don’t know what’s wrong with me. I even had sex with the girl I really like about 2 weeks ago and really enjoyed it! But now my attraction for her seemingly disappeared out of nowhere when this hocd bull starts acting up again. I’m so tired of this.
I’m confused why I can’t imagine having a boyfriend! It’s kinda causing me so distress because I really want some and then their is another part of me that’s like no you don’t is this my anxiety or just me or could I be asexual? I also suffer from hocd
Is it hocd or have I actually all of a sudden stopped wanting to be with a guy. I have always known I wanted to be in a relationship with a guy but ever since I got these instrusive thoughts about 3 months ago it’s only getting worse and now i dont even know who I am and if I want to date a guy or a girl. I know I don’t want to date a girl but every time I tell myself I want to date a guy I feel like somethings telling me “no you want to be with girls and you don’t have hocd you’re just in denial” Another thing that scares me is that I have never really been boy crazy and I have had small crushes on guys never on girls but every time I have thought a girl was pretty I’m like what if I thought she was attractive and I would have these crushes (they weren’t that crazy)
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