Mod22
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- 5y
Mod22Mod22
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- 5y
One thing that makes me feel bad is that I have less intrusive thoughts and less Anxiety but it’s still there and I lost my attraction for girls and my sex drive
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
You'll get it all back bro. Trust me.
Mod22Mod22
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- 5y
@marcovibes I feel so lost but because I have less anxiety I trip I don’t know what this really means I just wish I could go back part of the reason why it’s so hard is that even when you happy you dont forget that you have Ocd
elleeenelleeen
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- 5y
Try to live your life :)
Mod22Mod22
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- 5y
I will even though I don’t recognize the life I’m living now
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
Recover. Whoever you attract will simply be a reflection of who you see yourself as in the inside. Like attracts like. Work to become the best version of yourself. Don't rush things because paradoxically it won't get you to where you want to be any quicker. Best thing is to let things flow and the right woman will come into your life when you're ready for her. Forcing things will feel unatural and as I percieve you're only fixing yourself to settle at this point. I've been single for 3 years now and am currently recovering from HOCD after a 3 month raging obsession. The Universe will give me the appropriate woman at the proper time. Remember that the Universe won't give you what you aren't ready to recieve. Best of luck!
Mod22Mod22
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- 5y
I hear you bro thing Is I’m a relationship guy even when this OcD started I was in a relationship and I felt like she didn’t deserve a mentally unhleatly me and I feel like she’s gonna be with someone better because I couldn’t be better for her I won’t lie being single sort of helped me in a way because I’d get triggered a lot but also I need my life back I want to be women crazy again and just love women without Hocd thoughts trying to make me feel gay
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
@Mod22 That's the best you could've done for her, man. Very considerate of you. Hey, I love women as well. They're fucking amazing, thing is that you can't expect to have the type of relationship you want while your OCD is making you trip over your sexual orientation. You'll only be giving her part of the best man you could be for her. When my HOCD kicked in, I thought it was my heart telling me I had to go out find a girlfriend, but the more I seeked the more lost I felt. Now that I'm recovering I know I'm a step closer to getting the type of woman I really deserve. If I would've listened to my mind months ago, I probably wouldn't be where I'm at now. Give yourself some time off. Work on yourself. You deserve to be 100%.
FranquitoFranquito
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- 5y
Man, hours ago, when I had not already downloaded the app, I thougt I was a freak and I was the unique in this, now I read these kind of things and I know that I'm not. I'm passing through the same, doubting about my sexual orientation all the time, not feeling or feeling little for women and feeling things for man that makes me feel unpleasant and akward. So, I think you could read about EPR, expose yourself and that kind of things.
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geodrimilis
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- 13w
I need this to end.
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