hopeful4healing
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- 5y
JayNicoleJayNicole
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- 5y
I definitely have understant this. I struggle with overthinking almost everything. Or thinking that they hate being around me, or that I’m a bother constantly. It’s the hardest when it’s the ones you love the absolute most.
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
Yes I have also felt this. I was getting to the point I couldn’t bring myself to spend time with my fiancé. I still worry when we are together that I don’t feel anything or if this is going to last which makes me more anxious
JayNicoleJayNicole
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- 5y
I 100% understand that feeling, and it kills me. It’s as if my brain wants to fight my heart and confuse me. You always listen to your heart. I always figure it’s because I’m having a “bad day”. The thing with that is it seems as if everyday becomes a bad day for me. The anxiety and always overthinking on absolutely everything in my life carries heavy on me. It makes it hard to enjoy life as we know it. Some days I love myself, and I love my life. The tiniest thing could ruin my whole entire day, which sometimes leads to my whole week. I always blame it on hormones or my period. Bad days happen, but if we had no bad days there would be no good ones to go along with them. I try to tell myself that it’s not my fault I’m like this, but I can never truly believe myself. This app has shown me that it’s not just me who is suffering every single day, sometimes wishing they weren’t even here. It sucks to have any type of disorder. Physical or not, it’ll take a toll on you.
FOCD123FOCD123
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- 5y
@JayNicole Are you getting help from a specialist for any of this? I’m exactly the same but srarting therapy in a week as I literally couldn’t go on much longer like this without getting help..
hopeful4healinghopeful4healing
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- 5y
Thank you! Also have you ever felt that the idea that you just don’t want to spend time with them feels real??? could this also be ROCD???? it’s been my latest obsession
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 5y
What is your experience with this @josh-smith
FOCD123FOCD123
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- 5y
I just overthink all the time that my partner will want to see someone else as at the minute I’m a nightmare to live with as I basically have to tell her that my worries make me not want to be with her or find her attractive, good days do happen though and we try to make the most of them days!
hopeful4healinghopeful4healing
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- 5y
@josh-smith Do you think it’s bad that I very rarely have good days anymore?
FOCD123FOCD123
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- 5y
No because I don’t really either, me and my girlfriend probably have 1 a week? If that. One thing I know for you and me is that one day it will be 4/5 good days a week and then so on...
hopeful4healinghopeful4healing
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- 5y
Thank you so much! Positive thinking and hope for those 4/5 days soon!
hopeful4healinghopeful4healing
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- 5y
Also have you ever felt that the idea that you just don’t want to spend time with them feels real??? could this also be ROCD???? it’s been my latest obsession
FOCD123FOCD123
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- 5y
@hopeful4healing That definitely sounds like an obsession latching onto a peticular fear, maybe the fear is that you won’t work our together so it decides to make you obsess over this new thought?
hopeful4healinghopeful4healing
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- 5y
@josh-smith But does that make the fear real do you think?
FOCD123FOCD123
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- 5y
@hopeful4healing In my experience, in the moment it does and that’s because your brain is literally tricking you to think that this tiny fear,that every single person in the world has, is an insanely huge thing. It’s not though but just keep noticing and posting/writing it down and some day you’ll look back at it and think “oh yeah I remember when I was worried about that”
hopeful4healinghopeful4healing
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- 5y
@josh-smith I just hope so much that it is still an ROCD thing....I’m scared it’s not...
FOCD123FOCD123
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- 5y
@hopeful4healing Have you done any exposure therapy? I’m starting next week and I think it basically tells you to accept your thoughts currently, I could be wrong though.
hopeful4healinghopeful4healing
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- 5y
@josh-smith I haven’t.....but I’m hoping to try it soon....I just can’t tell if this thought is rocd or legit
Kitty99Kitty99
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- 5y
I struggle with that too. In fact I had once a weird date with my actual boyfriend... I wasn't sure how I felt, we didn't talk about anything at all and at the end of the date everything sucked. I ended up crying all day after I was convinced that he doesn't love me and we're gonna break up. What really happened, I was distant and I made him feel weird that day... because of the ROCD. Sometimes everything is so confusing... :(
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