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I'm scared I like it too. This one girl the false attraction is the worst and I think it is because she is bisexual and that is my fear. Thunking of being with her makes me uncomfortable but then I'm afraid im uncomfortable cuz I like and it just "different" then being with a boy. Wish I could just know if I had a crush on her sick of the dumb doubt.
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I totally have the same thing! Ive a boyfriend and today I thought I was gay because of fake attraction! Yesterday was one! Today was a really ugly girl that had a bag with a rainbow so I thought she was gay! And than I thought I was gay because I couldn't forget she was gay! We were studying in the same library so it was a tough afternoon! I was almost quitting!
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I apologize that my posts triggered some of you. I took it down. Was just sharing my story, as I felt the fear you all did in the beginning.
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No worries you just wanted to share :)
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It's okay! But what do you consider yourself now?
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@Lina Thank you for understanding.
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@Mimi123 Possibly bi. But time will tell. I’ve not had a significant female dating experience in these past two years of exploration that went far enough to be certain of anything. If I see a naked attractive woman it will most likely still turn me on. But sometimes, if I’m with a man I’m really into, the physical attraction to women has decreased. I guess I’m just trying to allow myself to be me, whatever that means. I’m still trying to understand what’s ocd and what’s not.
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Why would you have anything with a girl if your scared of it?
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Idek I’m scared I’m gonna act on the thoughts but I won’t. It just causes me so much anxiety. I don’t want it but then I’m scared I’m lying to myself and my head keeps saying “your missing out” and I get so sad and I’m like “I don’t want that though.” Do you have hocd?
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@annehatesocd Yes I do! With me happens exactly the same! And I have a boyfriend and I don't want to loose him! I'm so scared!
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@Mimi123 My ex left me five months ago and now he’s dating my ex best friend when he said through two years “he doesn’t wanna be serious in hs” and I feel broken. I haven’t stopped crying.
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@annehatesocd Fuck that sucks! Was it because of your Hocd? And you still believe your gay?
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@Mimi123 No, it was just a really insanely toxic relationship. He didn’t know his feelings constantly but I could never be with another guy cause of him and I’d get jealous when he would get close to my best friends and flirt with them. It broke my heart. He stopped all the hocd thoughts :( I’m scared I’m never going to feel like that for a guy again.
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@Mimi123 That stress could have triggered your HOCD. My caged up after a relationship I so badly wanted didn’t work out, I now have no attraction to any guy what’s so ever and fear that mean I’m Going to start finding women attractive and I don’t want that!!
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@annehatesocd I have exact same thing as you guys...afraid to be around other women for fear you might be attracted. Makes you not wanna leave house and it’s very depressing, don’t know what the future looks like
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Oh ok! Whatever makes you happy!! Be thankful for not having OCD! Were you ever diagnosed?
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I’m now scared that I’m gay. Do I sound like it? :(
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@annehatesocd I worry that I am too
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@annehatesocd Not at all!
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@Lina Also you! We cant assume everyone has OCD! Most people here were not even diagnosed! Of course they might not be experiencing the same! In fact this can be seen in a relaxing way! She didn't mind and she likes it! We do mind so we don't like!
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hi i’m a lesbian! and i have known im a lesbian for a really long time and i have a sweet girlfriend of 1 year. it all started when i saw this masc lesbian come out as straight, after that i had my guy friend over and he’s a sweet guy and he was flirting with me (he didn’t know i was gay) im not sure but i panicked and my brain froze and i was like “do i like him”, ever since my brain has been over worked 24/7 for 2 months now and it’s spiralling constantly. im trying to control it but all these thoughts are so disgusting and my brain tries to put him and i in scenarios that make me uncomfortable and i feel panic and i hate it. i have always been comfortable being a lesbian and i still am comfortable as a lesbian, but i dislike these thoughts i have about him and men and i want it to be over. i do not want to experiment with men even tho my brain is telling me i do, i find it disgusting and i dread it, i have a sweet girlfriend and i want to be with her forever, i do not imagine anything with any men and i hate these thoughts. im scared of becoming bisexual/straight one day and i hate hearing sexuality is fluid. its a whole mix of comphet and so-ocd
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I’m struggling badly. I did something about a month ago which I now realize was probably testing, but what scares me is I feel like I liked it, which is horrifying. What’s even worse though, is after I did it, I was able to brush it off quickly and not be too bothered by it, as I was still very anxious on other thoughts I was experiencing. Now those thoughts are meaningless and THIS is what’s causing tremendous anxiety, but the fact that I didn’t feel anxiety about it after I did it seals the deal for me. I mean, did feel anxious and guilty after I did it, but I was able to dismiss it somewhat quickly, and I remember that memory came up a couple of times within the month after I did it but like I said, it hasn’t too hard to dismiss it. I really feel like it’s denial. The fact that I wasn’t that anxious about it and tried to justify it/dismiss it HAS to mean it’s been denial all this time, there just no way this is OCD :( Right now I’m anxious about the fact that I might’ve liked it AND the fact that I wasn’t anxious about it for a while. It is really just a torment to ruminate on, and I would never do that thing again, but the fact that I did it and felt like I liked it is beyond terrifying. I feel like I have proof now, I’m trying to figure out why I did it and what it meant, and why I wasn’t super anxious the following weeks after, I mean it WAS uncomfortable to think back on, but I feel like the fact I wasn’t super anxious about it means I was in denial or repressing my true self. I am so so scared. I’ve been worried about this for the past week and a half :( (This is all centered on the same theme btw.)
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Chat GPT told me its more likely comphet than ocd Idk im scared Im scared that if i accept the uncertainty to know the truth once and for all 1) i end up actually turning out to be lesbian 2) I lose the guy i love (or i think i love idk atp) I’m remembering so many moments of same sex attractions from when i was little Im so scared im so scared Its too much
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