hate_ocd.123
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LinaLina
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I'm scared I like it too. This one girl the false attraction is the worst and I think it is because she is bisexual and that is my fear. Thunking of being with her makes me uncomfortable but then I'm afraid im uncomfortable cuz I like and it just "different" then being with a boy. Wish I could just know if I had a crush on her sick of the dumb doubt.
Mimi123Mimi123
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I totally have the same thing! Ive a boyfriend and today I thought I was gay because of fake attraction! Yesterday was one! Today was a really ugly girl that had a bag with a rainbow so I thought she was gay! And than I thought I was gay because I couldn't forget she was gay! We were studying in the same library so it was a tough afternoon! I was almost quitting!
Ditto~Ditto~
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I apologize that my posts triggered some of you. I took it down. Was just sharing my story, as I felt the fear you all did in the beginning.
LinaLina
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No worries you just wanted to share :)
Mimi123Mimi123
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It's okay! But what do you consider yourself now?
Ditto~Ditto~
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@Lina Thank you for understanding.
Ditto~Ditto~
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@Mimi123 Possibly bi. But time will tell. I’ve not had a significant female dating experience in these past two years of exploration that went far enough to be certain of anything. If I see a naked attractive woman it will most likely still turn me on. But sometimes, if I’m with a man I’m really into, the physical attraction to women has decreased. I guess I’m just trying to allow myself to be me, whatever that means. I’m still trying to understand what’s ocd and what’s not.
Mimi123Mimi123
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Why would you have anything with a girl if your scared of it?
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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Idek I’m scared I’m gonna act on the thoughts but I won’t. It just causes me so much anxiety. I don’t want it but then I’m scared I’m lying to myself and my head keeps saying “your missing out” and I get so sad and I’m like “I don’t want that though.” Do you have hocd?
Mimi123Mimi123
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@annehatesocd Yes I do! With me happens exactly the same! And I have a boyfriend and I don't want to loose him! I'm so scared!
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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@Mimi123 My ex left me five months ago and now he’s dating my ex best friend when he said through two years “he doesn’t wanna be serious in hs” and I feel broken. I haven’t stopped crying.
Mimi123Mimi123
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@annehatesocd Fuck that sucks! Was it because of your Hocd? And you still believe your gay?
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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@Mimi123 No, it was just a really insanely toxic relationship. He didn’t know his feelings constantly but I could never be with another guy cause of him and I’d get jealous when he would get close to my best friends and flirt with them. It broke my heart. He stopped all the hocd thoughts :( I’m scared I’m never going to feel like that for a guy again.
Dee313Dee313
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@Mimi123 That stress could have triggered your HOCD. My caged up after a relationship I so badly wanted didn’t work out, I now have no attraction to any guy what’s so ever and fear that mean I’m Going to start finding women attractive and I don’t want that!!
Dee313Dee313
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@annehatesocd I have exact same thing as you guys...afraid to be around other women for fear you might be attracted. Makes you not wanna leave house and it’s very depressing, don’t know what the future looks like
Mimi123Mimi123
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Oh ok! Whatever makes you happy!! Be thankful for not having OCD! Were you ever diagnosed?
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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I’m now scared that I’m gay. Do I sound like it? :(
LinaLina
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@annehatesocd I worry that I am too
Mimi123Mimi123
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@annehatesocd Not at all!
Mimi123Mimi123
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@Lina Also you! We cant assume everyone has OCD! Most people here were not even diagnosed! Of course they might not be experiencing the same! In fact this can be seen in a relaxing way! She didn't mind and she likes it! We do mind so we don't like!
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