Anyone else with HOCD feel like they’re having a sexual response to every attractive person of the same sex that they see? This never happened to me before OCD.

I’ve never considered myself bi, but I do have fears that my history is proof that I’ve been gay all along and in denial. So I hear you.

@ginac Yeah something I fear too but I also can't tell myself I never had crushes on boys which I did

@ta I had a crush on a female androgynous character fr a cartoon when I was kid (she was my only female crush ever). At the age of 11 I realized I wasn't completely straight and that there was high possibility of me being heteroflexible/bi. But I still had extremely strong attraction for boys which is why I identified straight mostly

@ta Well if you don't enjoy it then it definitely means you don't have bi tendencies. One thing, I have always found androgynous boyish girls really attractive, I never worried about it much though I was low-key scared that meant I'm gay. But I had and still have strong attraction for boys.

@ta At my current stage of HOCD im scared that I'm completely gay and I'll never be heterosexual again so now I pray everyday im straight. It scary since I've lost my attraction for boys and that means I'm gay or something

@ta Same I can understand. I don't feel bad thinking about fictional female androgynous character but I'm somehow uncomfortable thinking about actual girls. I feel so gay it's almost killing me :(

@ta Kind of feels good to imagine with fictional ones but I can't imagine it with someone real

@ta I mostly think it's because fictional female androgynous characters look a lot like boys so It doesn't feel like I'm kissing an actual girl

@ta I identify as heteroflexible

Heteroflexibility means you're primarily attracted to the opposite sex like 90% but you can still get attracted to the same sex like 10%

@ta Well if you don't like women or the thoughts you aren't gay or bi. I consider myself heteroflexible since Ive only liked boys but I was also attracted to fictional female characters. But the thing is I don't actually feel attracted to girls irl

@ta My feeling with real androgynous females touching me is kind of disgusting. Like I don't want that irl. Btw The character is Haruka Tenou

@ta No not a single one

@ta Well I had one or two kissing fantasies but they were only with fictional female characters

@ta But I'm straight for the most part :)