ginac
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- 5y
AnonymousAnonymous
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Same. Even though I had bi tendencies before HOCD I always liked boys. I am so fucking I was gay all along and I never knew. I feel like I forced myself to like them and was in compulsory heterosexuality. I fucking hate this disorder
ginacginac
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I’ve never considered myself bi, but I do have fears that my history is proof that I’ve been gay all along and in denial. So I hear you.
AnonymousAnonymous
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@ginac Yeah something I fear too but I also can't tell myself I never had crushes on boys which I did
AnonymousAnonymous
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@ta I had a crush on a female androgynous character fr a cartoon when I was kid (she was my only female crush ever). At the age of 11 I realized I wasn't completely straight and that there was high possibility of me being heteroflexible/bi. But I still had extremely strong attraction for boys which is why I identified straight mostly
AnonymousAnonymous
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@ta Well if you don't enjoy it then it definitely means you don't have bi tendencies. One thing, I have always found androgynous boyish girls really attractive, I never worried about it much though I was low-key scared that meant I'm gay. But I had and still have strong attraction for boys.
AnonymousAnonymous
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@ta At my current stage of HOCD im scared that I'm completely gay and I'll never be heterosexual again so now I pray everyday im straight. It scary since I've lost my attraction for boys and that means I'm gay or something
AnonymousAnonymous
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@ta Same I can understand. I don't feel bad thinking about fictional female androgynous character but I'm somehow uncomfortable thinking about actual girls. I feel so gay it's almost killing me :(
AnonymousAnonymous
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@ta Kind of feels good to imagine with fictional ones but I can't imagine it with someone real
AnonymousAnonymous
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@ta I mostly think it's because fictional female androgynous characters look a lot like boys so It doesn't feel like I'm kissing an actual girl
AnonymousAnonymous
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@ta I identify as heteroflexible
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AnonymousAnonymous
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Heteroflexibility means you're primarily attracted to the opposite sex like 90% but you can still get attracted to the same sex like 10%
AnonymousAnonymous
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@ta Well if you don't like women or the thoughts you aren't gay or bi. I consider myself heteroflexible since Ive only liked boys but I was also attracted to fictional female characters. But the thing is I don't actually feel attracted to girls irl
AnonymousAnonymous
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@ta My feeling with real androgynous females touching me is kind of disgusting. Like I don't want that irl. Btw The character is Haruka Tenou
AnonymousAnonymous
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@ta No not a single one
AnonymousAnonymous
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@ta Well I had one or two kissing fantasies but they were only with fictional female characters
AnonymousAnonymous
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@ta But I'm straight for the most part :)
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