Just resisted a compulsion. I’m proud of myself that I did and I feel less anxious but I hate the unnerving feeling you get after, it’s like an itch you can’t scratch.

That’s so true:)

U can stop:) if I can do it, you can, trust me. We can resist compulsions and suffer together haha??

@Colourful I'm tired of suffering...my kids need someone healthy. Not me.

@xOnlyFarmers If you keep going it’ll get better believe me. About 4 months ago I was on the brink of giving up on life as I thought it wouldn’t get better. It took a while but things are so much better. Keep going with ERP, keep overcoming ocd, don’t let this mental illness stop you from living your life. I don’t let it stop me anymore.

Yes it is considered a compulsion. I learned that this week. I disabled google because I couldnt stop during the day.

I used to have small breaks but the more I worked on it the bigger the breaks became. I used the SOS feature on this app to do ERP. I’ll write out something that will trigger my ocd like “I might be a terrible person, I accept the uncertainty and move on”, while resisting all compulsions. It really helps reduce anxiety over time as it desensitises you to your obsessions.

I dont deal with HOCD anymore. I did back in high school. But I deal with other forms of ocd. Mainly pure o. But yes googling makes things 1,0000% worse. Because now that I've googled it's made me so much worse. I can barely get up and work a fulltime job anymore

@xOnlyFarmers Aww I can totally relate. How did u manage to turn off the HOCD and now it’s POCD? What brought about the change

@Dee313 I dont deal with pocd or HOCD. Pure O is a form of OCD that only consist of obsessions. But me googling seems to be a compulsion as well. So maybe I just simply have OCD. And you cant turn it off but me knowing I've always been attracted to and dated the same gender helped me cope. You dont magically one day become G..people who like the same sex have known for years. As I've heard.

@Dee313 You gotta remember, OCD is OCD...forget the labels. It's all a form of anxiety.

@xOnlyFarmers I feel like I’ve always had a fear of same def attraction from young age but alway dated men and never had any same sexy encounter but this last heart break has made me obsess now on my sexual orientation thinking I’m going to start really turning G, questioning everything and looking back in all relationships etc

@xOnlyFarmers "pure o" absolutely does include compulsions, just less visible ones. Praying, seeking reassurance, googling, ruminating are often compulsions that get overlooked .