neveragain86
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AnonymousAnonymous
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Same. As a kid I had a small crush on sailor Uranus and now my mind is ruminating on how I'm lesbian though even then I liked guys like 98% of the time ??
neveragain86neveragain86
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You notice how a lot of cosplayers dressed up as guy are it’s really a huge Hocd trigger I’m absolutely disgusted right now
neveragain86neveragain86
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@neveragain86 Are girls
AnonymousAnonymous
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@neveragain86 I know!! I never really minded it but as a kid I remember having a crush on sailor Uranus from sailor moon. Even wishing I was her partner or something. But I still liked guys sexually back then and I still do now but my mind is ruminating over that one damn thing!!!
neveragain86neveragain86
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@chamomile ? To make it worse a lot are actually lesbians. Why would they dress up as guy characters I don’t get it I know I would never be with a girl but the ones who dress like guys could really make me spike and worry and it’s gross
AnonymousAnonymous
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@neveragain86 Yeah, but I always had a feeling before HOCD I was heteroflexible since I like sailor Uranus and some female cosplayers. After HOCD I just wish to be damn straight like a fucking arrow. I regret my mini crushes on Haruka and cosplayers that dressed up as guys ??
neveragain86neveragain86
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I worry if I’m attracted because I thought she was a guy don’t know if I really was I know I would never date any girl.it was just this one picture I spiked at cause it really didn’t look like a girl i thought feel like we know we could never be a lesbian and girl cosplayers cannot change who we are
AnonymousAnonymous
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I know like even after puberty I never thought id be a fucking lesbian. But I still kind of had a feeling of heteroflexibility which now makes it hard for me since I suffer with HOCD and I can't tell the difference between false and real attractions, but I still want and love boys sexually and I know nobody can change that!!!
neveragain86neveragain86
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@chamomile ? If you’ll only date guys your not a lesbian?
AnonymousAnonymous
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@neveragain86 I was just in love with Haruka from sailor moon and I kind of wanted to kiss her but nothing sexual with females irl. I only like looking at Japanese androgynous females but I still have no sexual thoughts about them. I just find them specifically pretty
neveragain86neveragain86
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To me I only looked up girls not cosplayers just reg girls I wanted to look like cause guys liked them my hocd obviously uses that against me
AnonymousAnonymous
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Yeah same. I would often try to be pretty like them. But my HOCD is convincing me I wanted to be with them. Currently I'm ruminating over why I liked sailor Uranus? Like my mind is telling me it was an early sign of me being gay. I can't take the thoughts at all ??
neveragain86neveragain86
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It really is something most people could never fathom unless they go through it
AnonymousAnonymous
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Yeah, there are some people at my school that think that being OCD means being so fucking organized and shit, while I'm gonna be just sitting there with my subsets of OCD. Like its hard going through my usual day. I constantly worry I like all girls :(.
neveragain86neveragain86
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Me too all ages too it’s disgusting
AnonymousAnonymous
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Omg that's even worse. I remember having fascination for only androgynous female anime characters and sometimes extremely androgynous Japanese woman. But I don't think I had any sexual thoughts about them except Haruka
neveragain86neveragain86
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It just feels like it’ll never go away
AnonymousAnonymous
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Same... same ? but I always wish I have this instead of actually realising I'm gay. Like I know I ain't accepting myself
neveragain86neveragain86
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Yea I agree
AnonymousAnonymous
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Right? I can't imagine living with another girl. But my brain objects everytime saying "c'mon it isn't that bad, it's who you are". I hate these thoughts
neveragain86neveragain86
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Me too
AnonymousAnonymous
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Is it weird that I had some bi tendencies before HOCD? But since I was still strongly attracted to boys I didn't think of it too much. It makes me worried now :(
neveragain86neveragain86
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Hocd sucks
AnonymousAnonymous
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If I accurately describe it, it's a bitch to me!!! ?
neveragain86neveragain86
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I think even if we get the right help it’ll go away finding the right therapist though is hardest part
AnonymousAnonymous
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I can't have a therapist so elf ERP is the way to go for me :(
neveragain86neveragain86
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None of them ones I see know erp
AnonymousAnonymous
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Do you know sel ERP and meditation?
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