So I’m curious how many of my HOCD suffering friends here have theirs morph from being gay to bisexual? It’s like, yeah I notice good looking attractive men, I’m not brain dead. But I have no joy or want to have any physical, romantic or sexual relations with them.

I mean I think it’s normal as a human to notice or acknowledge attractive people and such. I would be a liar not to say that a guy like Brad Pitt is not a handsome or attractive male and women find hot or cute. To me that doesn’t mean I’m bi or anything, yet the OCD goes info full drive about.

I’m currently dealing with this. Everytime you see an attractive guy your thoughts go “do I want something more? Am I sexually attracted? Is this noticing the same noticing I feel when I see an attractive woman?” and this leads to mental compulsions of imagining sexual things to see if you’d like it or not

Right. I can’t either. My HOCD makes me go back in my past and check if I had a “crush” on a guy best friend that was suppressed somehow or whatever. And the false attraction can feel so real that it leaves you in confusion and you feel like you’re lying to yourself at times

I feel the same way. I’ve never been sexual attracted to a man but I will unashamedly comment on their good looks around other people.

The difference is wanting a sexual or romantic relationship with someone (makes your bi or gay) or just noticing them. But my HOCD just plays with boy ideas and creates false attraction, false feelings, etc. I’ve watched gay porn as a compulsion and I won’t be graphic but there was nothing arousing or of interest whatsoever. So it’s like, why can’t I just get past it?

Yep, been there done that. I’ve always thought of those as admiration and not attraction. Such as, I wish I could be like that person or their qualities they have that makes people like them or even girls love them.