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- 5y
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- 5y
Hey there Eden. I’ve experienced similar. Sometimes I get a horrible line from a song stuck in my head and it feels like torture. If I can be honest with you, that’s happening to me right now. Other times I hear a slur and I can’t stop hearing it. The impulsive thoughts are hard too. Sometimes I’m scared I’ll hum along to a bad song or even blurt out a slur like a Freudian slip. Those things are really scary, I know! It seems like you have a lot of fear. This is gonna sound super dumb, but it’s true: fixating on your fear of the thoughts occurring can actually make them worse! That sounds agonizing, but it’s true. We often see our fear and anxiety about something (like intrusive thoughts, sensations, or impulses) as an enemy, but it doesn’t have to be that way! Now I have a little assignment for you, maybe think of it as an early birthday present. Please play the game “Adventures with Anxiety.” It’s a text-based game that is free and really short. You can even play it on your phone’s web browser! It sounds silly, but this game really helped me see my fear of intrusive thoughts differently. It was super therapeutic and honestly a comforting experience! I even replay it sometimes! We can’t control the thoughts we have and we can’t even control the fear regarding those thoughts! However, we can control how we respond to fear. Our fear is trying to protect us from a perceived threat, but there is no threat! You are in control of your body, even if OCD tries to tell you otherwise. And the more we learn to tell our fear “thanks for caring about me and trying to keep me safe, but I’m safe right now so don’t worry about it,” the more our fears will subside. I hope this helps and I hope you have a wonderful birthday! :-)
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- 5y
I’m sorry for replying so late considering you wrote so much. Thank you for that, I feel really comforted by it. You’re right, these thoughts are beyond me. I don’t think I’ll scream then outloud, but that’s me reassuring myself, adding to the cycle. Is adventures with anxiety an online game? On the App Store? My birthday ended up being okay, thank you ??
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@garden :) I’m glad that you’re birthday was alright. And the game isn’t an app, you can just type it into your web browser and it should come up. I hope you’ll enjoy it!
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@ocdsurvivorem Okay thanks! That’s really good to know :) Hope you’re well!
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I thought I was the only one who has the fear of the fear, where the song isn’t even in your head but you’re afraid of it being there.
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