uwotm8
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- 5y
ocdillustratedocdillustrated
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- 5y
It doesn't sound like you feel any better than before you got the test
uwotm8uwotm8
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- 5y
Well no cuz I haven’t had the results yet, I have to wait at least a week and I’m panicking now
ocdillustratedocdillustrated
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- 5y
Have you and your partner talked about how each of you would respond if the other tested positive? I've kind of gathered that a previous boyfriend ended a relationship over it, but that doesn't mean this one will. How long do you estimate the relief will last when the test results come back? Perhaps you could write down your prediction so that you can compare it to reality later on
uwotm8uwotm8
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- 5y
No no my previous boyfriend didn’t end it cuz of any std tests, I never had any with him as I hadn’t been with anyone else at that point. He ended it with NO warning and NO specific reasons, just didn’t want me anymore I think I’m trying to stop a sudden unexpected breakup happening again and my Ocd has convinced me I need to rule out STDs constantly as a way of protecting myself. It’s the only reason it keeps coming up with as a reason for a sudden breakup
uwotm8uwotm8
- Date posted
- 5y
I haven’t been with anyone else since being with my partner now either. I just keep worrying “what if I had undetected STDs from people BEFORE him and they only appear during our relationship and THEN he thinks I cheated when I didn’t!!!”
Jasm1hJasm1h
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- 5y
I used to panic about this. It helps to explain about your OCD so hopefully they can be more accommodating, or have another person of professional involved in your care explain for you prior to visits. Also a big thing I was always asked is, if you are positive for std/sti's whats the worst that can happen? What about it is scaring you ? You have to fight the OCD that's seeking reassurance.
uwotm8uwotm8
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- 5y
My partner doesn’t know I went to the clinic. He said before bit to open a can of worms when I said what my obsessions involved. I went today and I explained to the nurse I was severely anxious and she didn’t give a fuck. She told me I can’t have the results sooner than a week and I’m stressed and can’t stop crying. I’m trying to hide it from my partner. What if it comes back positive tho? I haven’t been with anyone I love him to death so I’m scared of the outcome
Jasm1hJasm1h
- Date posted
- 5y
Why is it you think you have an std/sti? Does your partner understand your OCD? She won't be able to speed up the results but she may have been able to put you at ease about the plastic swabs. What is making you so concerned about it coming back positive?
uwotm8uwotm8
- Date posted
- 5y
Do you think it’s my ocd making me worry cuz she touched the plast part you hold to do your own swabs? I feel I need to test again because of that now!!!
ocdillustratedocdillustrated
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- 5y
Do you think OCD is right that that's the only reason sudden breakups happen? Not does it feel right, but rationally is it true. If you've got friends who've been in relationships you could gather some of their perspectives on reasons relationships end
uwotm8uwotm8
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- 5y
What I’m saying is, my sudden unexpected breakup in the past nearly fucking KILLED me I think it triggered this fear in me. I was with that person before for ten years and had to hit the ground running I’m not doing it agaib
ocdillustratedocdillustrated
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- 5y
@uwotm8 So OCD latched onto the STD thing and sold you the lie that this is something it is possible to have complete control over....
uwotm8uwotm8
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- 5y
@NOCD Advocate - ocdillustrated I guess Now I’m stressed over the nurse touching the ends of the swabs. Is that ocd?
ocdillustratedocdillustrated
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- 5y
@uwotm8 If you're asking, treat it as if it is
uwotm8uwotm8
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- 5y
@NOCD Advocate - ocdillustrated Yeah ok thanks
uwotm8uwotm8
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- 5y
@OCD Coloured Glasses Yes exactly
uwotm8uwotm8
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- 5y
@OCD Coloured Glasses No not at all I trust him completely I have no doubts about that I’m worried “what if I have had something all this time and he thinks *I* cheated? I HATE cheaters”
uwotm8uwotm8
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- 5y
@OCD Coloured Glasses Yeah I’m trying to prepare for the worst constantly cuz I had no warning before Also doesn’t help my partners ex is in the picture and she’s a total bitch. Complete narcissist. She caused issues and as a result he kept saying he should stop seeing me and I get so so so worked up over it I’m here now
uwotm8uwotm8
- Date posted
- 5y
@OCD Coloured Glasses About 16?
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