ruminating_redhead
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- 5y
IcePenguin19IcePenguin19
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- 5y
Yes. I just started with a new therapist and he told me from the start that some days I'll leave feeling great and other days I'll leave feeling worse than when I came in. It's all part of the process, especially when you start ERP. I'm nervous because I haven't really started it yet, but we've done a few other things that stressed me out and left me with a lot to think about so in that sense I didn't feel amazing but I know that the rough times will lead to better ones
ocdillustratedocdillustrated
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- 5y
Almost every time.
ruminating_redheadruminating_r...
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- 5y
I’m not really in a ‘slump’ though. I get through everyday. I would like to actually live and enjoy my life. And not be trapped in my head 24/7. I suppose meds are different for everyone. And it sucks that it caused such a negative reaction for you.
IcePenguin19IcePenguin19
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- 5y
Yeah I agree, they worked really really well for my friend he's in a much better mindset now that he found the right meds. Definitely takes time and patience which I absolutely don't have so I gave up after two different meds. Maybe I'd find one to work for me but I'm not willing to try right now. If you feel like it might help you, keep in mind that it's rare to figure out the perfect one right from the start & they can take weeks or months to really kick in
ruminating_redheadruminating_r...
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- 5y
See I’m not doing ERP with this therapist. At least I don’t think I will be. But we touched on subjects I’ve been trying to push down and forget about. She also talked about medication and that totally made me feel super anxious.
IcePenguin19IcePenguin19
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- 5y
Mine talked to me about meds too, but I told him I wasn't interested. I've been on 2 different ones and decided that I wanted to figure this out on my own. You're not forced to take meds it's definitely your choice keep that in mind :)
ruminating_redheadruminating_r...
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- 5y
I know, but I want to try them to see if it helps me. But I’m also terrified of it making me an emotionless zombie. I’m afraid of becoming someone my loved ones don’t recognize because I’ll be different. MOSTLY, I’m afraid of it making me lose control or cause psychosis (one of my fears) last time I tried them I was in a very dark place and so I associate meds with that feeling even though it really wasn’t them ugh
IcePenguin19IcePenguin19
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- 5y
I understand that. I was on 2 different meds but the first one didn't work out and the 2nd one was ok for a couple years but then I decided to tell my doctor I didn't want it anymore. After I got off of them, I felt completely different. I actually had emotions and I didn't realise they were gone while I was on the meds. I also don't have any memories from the time I was on them. It's like those years never even happened
ruminating_redheadruminating_r...
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- 5y
And that really sucks and I don’t want those things happen to me, but the fact is, I already feel as though I’ve lose the past two years. Everyday, every memory is tainted by this feeling and these thoughts. I already am suffering from emotional bluntness without the meds. So really, how much worse could meds make me? Lol
IcePenguin19IcePenguin19
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- 5y
That's also another way to look at it. You can make a pros and cons list and see if the benefits would outweigh the possible cons of going on the meds. Sometimes people need that extra push from the meds to get themselves back on track & that's okay
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