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Yes, that number freaks me out too. When I had a previous theme of fear of possession, I would see it multiple times per day constantly and it would stress me out. But you’re hyper aware and are noticing it because it causes you stress and anxiety. It’s like when you buy a new car and then you see that car everywhere. Your brain is always going to pay extra attention to the things you react to. Then once you start to forget about the number, you will hardly see it.
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It’s difficult, but the best thing you can do is expose yourself to it. Either by reading, writing, or saying the word. But you have to sit with the anxiety and let it wash over you.
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It’s not silly at all! One of my worst fears is devil, demons possession ect so if I see that number, I would internally freak out. But then I started saying to myself “just a number, next please”. It was a hard and I took practice but eventually I just stopped seeing it.
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That number freaks me out too. I’ve established something key though that helps me through it. For every time you see that particular number, just know there is an offsetting number out there somewhere and probably close. Perhaps a number right by it and when you add the digits up, the one that caused the fear is no longer that number as it has been adjusted up or down by the other. It really helps me out! Also, I believe it. Numbers may be random, but I truly believe they add up to something more than just the one you see.
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Thank you so much for the response Myka! I am sorry you have experienced a similar fear, but it’s encouraging to know I’m not the only one and it could get better!
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Gosh I’m working on it with my therapist but it truly is so overwhelming. And I know it’s silly because it’s just a number but to me, my ocd convinced me it’s so much worse
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This is so inspiring you have no idea how much you’ve helped me tonight!
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So, I know my capacity to get fixated on things. And it's normally something that's relatively remote but, my latest issue is really getting to me and I was wondering if people have any advice. I'm avoiding getting too into specifics, as I don't want this to get reassurance-y but, in essence.. I came to the realisation recently that people who I'd been "friends" (feels like the wrong term now) when I was younger were not very nice people, and normalized a lot of very unpleasant behaviour towards other members of the group. They really normalized it, sold themselves as figures of authority, as older and more responsible and grown-up than others, and looking back, they acted horribly. And coming to this realisation, that I'd been manipulated into just accepting their behaviour has just... broken me. My OCD has latched onto it and I can't stop feeling irreversibly tainted by it. I've talked to others about it, and they've reassured me, told me it's not a big deal and that I hold myself to too high a standard, but none of that sticks. I feel better for a bit, then think 'Maybe when you told them you were skewing it to make yourself look better' or 'Did you leave out a crucial detail'. I keep ruminating over and over, trying to remember exactly how everything played out, trying to figure out if I fed into the behaviour, if I did something bad myself (because y'know, I feel like I was accepting of it at the time, so what does it say about my own values?). I know I need to stop doing all this if I want to improve, but then some part of me keeps saying 'So, you're just going to let yourself off the hook then?' Normally, I can rationalize my own fears to some degree, assure myself something won't happen, but the realness of the situation, and the fact I only came to understand the reality of it because the thought had been bothering me means it feels so much more all-encompassing. I know confessing in itself is a compulsion, but I keep feeling that if I'm not I'm somehow concealing what I 'really am' from others around me, and any positive interactions are me deceiving them in some way. I feel like I can't enjoy anything in life right now, and a good part of me feels I should not enjoy it ever again. If anybody has any advice on it, I'm all ears. Or even hearing if you relate to these feelings, I might appreciate the solidarity at least.
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i don’t want to do my compulsions. I feel like if I don’t somebody will get hurt, sick or die. It’s a very scary thought to feel like if I don’t do my compulsions it will be my fault even though it isn’t & nor will it happen. I know it’s magical thinking & my thoughts are not true nor will they come true. it’s just im so tired of doing these compulsions. im so tired of feeling like I can stop something bad happening if I don’t step on this or touch this 4 times. it even got me believing that if I do something I want to do & love, something bad will happen. I just want to be able to live & feel like I use to. I hate ocd. how can I calm this down so I can be able to navigate in my own life?
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