Do you sometimes feel like you should just came out and that is it

I really regret doing that and I fucking hate that I hadn't recognised my disorder sooner

Yeah I feel you. It's been a day and I'm not anxious about my HOCD and my GAD is going crazy about why I'm not anxious. Like fuck this!!

@chamomile GAD?

@annehatesocd General anxiety disorder

@chamomile Ohhh lol I feel that I have it as well haha

@annehatesocd Yeah and it's just worse when you have OCD like that don't feel nice. I'm always tensed about everything and my heart races

@chamomile Ya I feel....I’m freaking out rn cause someone was saying being gay is okay and it definitely is. Like I have nothing against it. I just don’t want to be a lesbian and with a girl. And I just feel like I’m lying now:( do you feel like this?

@annehatesocd Yes a lot. Somebody once compared their HOCD about being straight with mine (HOCD about being gay) and said that that it's ok being gay and that I'll like it when obviously im straight and I'm freaking out at that of being gay. Not that I'm homophobic of against it but doesn't feel good personally

@chamomile Ya same I want to be with a guy and I’ve been so moody at the thought that I’ll never get a bf and I’m alone forever and that I’m a lesbian and like my friend ?

@annehatesocd Same!!! But I don't fear liking my friends, I fear liking the whole sex in general and wanting a vag and boobs sexually. I'm distressed at that thought so much!!!

I thought I was bi for a really long time though I never ever got attracted to girls. Now it traumatizes me...like HOCD ain't good with this memory

But honestly dont come out cause of HOCD, you're going to cry your eyes out. It was extremely painful for me

@chamomile U came out?

@Peridottttt I did it out of anxiety because of HOCD. At that point I didn't realize I was having it and o cried that I turned gay and came out :(

@chamomile Can I ask you something tmi? It’s relate to me when I watched porn in 6th. I’m scared that I masterbated and the web cam recorded it

@Peridottttt Yeah sure

@chamomile Yeah I’m scared that the web cam recorded me master bating and then later released it to the public

@Peridottttt Yeah I had that same fear and I cried and I tried to stop but I couldn't, I somehow got over my fear though.

@Peridottttt I had read your post on this but I didn't say anything (I'm sorry). I have hocd and weirdly I only get attracted to lesbian porn though I don't want to do it. It's like way worse. I want boys extremely badly :( but my brain doesn't allow me to think of them

@chamomile I feel like I wanna be a lesbian

@pgam14 Idk if it makes sense tho

@pgam14 It makes sense to me. I know how it feels. Now most of my obsession is me actually being gay and in deniall. It upsets me a lot too. I don't want to be one either but it really feels like yourd supposed to be it :(.