Its nice knowing im not the only one who doesnt enjoys going out and is introverted, the sad truth is just that deep down im not an introvert but hocd made me one. I cant not be an introvert theres too much anxiety for me to enjoy being an extrovert again. It hurts knowing that im missing out of hella fun i wouldve had if i didnt had hocd

Girl i hope so much, i have so much things planned for summer and im so scared it wont be amazing and like how things used to be before. I saved a lot of money for vacation and disneltland and im not even excited . I probably would’ve been if i ddimt had hocd 100% im so scared it wont be worth it

Thank you so much!!! I will take ur advice:) it sucks sometimes that my friends dont understand how i feel (i dont blame them this hocd shit weeeiiirdd) and i try to explain why i might seem salty or unhappy sometimes but they think im just negative about thinge. I reallt cant do something about it.. im glad you en people on here do understand me. So comforting❤️

Ooff preachhh but its littrtaly the main thing happening in my life

Okay its going to be good :) i wish u the best day at school and peace of mind to get you trough the day!

Same girl!!❤️✌?

Thank you so mych for the support:) i feel like for me its converted:( last summer i went to buddapest and i was excired before the trip because i was feeling kinda good, but then i startes focussing on feeling good and forcing it bevause i reaaaally wanted to have a good time. I forced kt and eventually it all went away cause of the pressure i put on beinf excited... im sooo scared the same will happen. It probably will bevaude my mind cant help but just shit on every single moment of joy lol. I reallt cant stop it my brain does this automatically it doesnt believe it can be happy or excited about somethinf. I wish my brain wasnt like this and i wish she was free so i could just genuinly and naturally enjoy moments again. Thanks for the support tho u give me hope:)

Ugh exactlyy like today i was hella energetic and feeling quit good and i can tell everyone enjoys my company way better, which is logical bc no one wants to be around a sad person the whole Time. But i wish they didnt mock me when im sad because its really not my choice and a negative view on things its probably me overthinking again and feeling anxious. I told them about this but it seem like they forgot

Aaahw thats soo sweeet??? yes i actually had a good day today:) i went to school alone and went shopping alone (my friends didnt have to attend bevause they already finished their projects) and im always kinda afraid to be alone but with hocd idk it felt good becaus ei ddint feel like i had to be happy around someone or fake it.. i always was scared people see me as loser but i see now it shows more confidence when you do things on ur own. So idk i had a good Time with myself. It was one of Those “ kinda feeling okay” days. But i had to work after and it was roughhh cuz i was wrecked from taking trains and walking all day. Kinda stressed out too bc i had to finsih projects todah i forgot about oops? but yeah thank you so much for asking:) how are you doing??