I have really bad HOCD. It’s the only intrusive thought I’ve ever experienced. My therapist is 100% convinced it’s HOCD. I’ve had short relationships with boys and my feelings for them have been so strong. For the last 2 or 3 years I didn’t have these thoughts and I never had the desire to be in a relationship with a girl. But now my OCD is tricking me into thinking I did. I used to have girl crushes or be curious about things but for as long as I can remember since I was a little girl my dream was to always marry a boy. I know it’s going to take time and I’m not looking to get over it straight away but I’m just looking for advice on how to accept that this is just OCD? For some reason every time I try tell myself it isn’t real it’s just an intrusive thought my brain goes no you are just in denial. These thoughts are making me feel really ill any advice on how I can accept its OCD???

It is difficult to break the cycle at first. The key is start allowing those thoughts to occur without you questioning them or trying to make yourself feel better. When they happen, try to let them flow through and even say things like, I might be attracted to girls, but that’s okay. You will feel very anxious at first, but the longer you continue, your anxiety will start to subside and the thoughts will seem silly.

Hey, I have HOCD as well and it’s my only intrusive thought. I think I have other intrusive thoughts? But HOCD is the most noticeable and scary and convinced me that it isn’t OCD Because it’s my only OCD thought. So I feel relieved knowing I’m not the only person dealing with one OCD theme!! But ERP is super helpful and don’t dig into your past, it makes things worse!

Omg its my only theme too thought i was the only one ??‍♀️

Hang in there ladies we can get thru this ??

Glad to know I’m not alone!

It may be better to ease into exposing yourself so that you don’t overdo it. Your therapist can help you structure an exposure hierarchy so you can start small and work your way up. Hang in there! If it wasn’t OCD you wouldn’t be feeling so unwell and anxious!

Yes, it does! I honestly can’t look at my past crushes anymore with ocd saying it wasn’t real

Definitely not alone girl ? We got this!

wow this is absolutely identical to my HOCD. i had never had these thoughts before until one day i looked at my friend and thought that she was so pretty, because she is, and it went into a downward spiral from there. but therapy really helps. talking about it really helps. and there’s a lot of ups and downs, right now i’m kinda dealing with a down because it happens sometimes, but you have to just keep going. HOCD doesn’t have to be around forever, it can go away!!! i always feel like mine tricks me into thinking one thing and not the other, like it purposefully tries to get me to like certain things when i know i don’t. then i go into a cycle of in denial where it tells me i actually did like it i just won’t admit it. but i know that’s it’s just my ocd and not me, but learning to separate the two is hard

this makes me feel so much better that so many people have commented on this and they deal w the same thing i do

Yes guys it makes me feel amazing to know I’m not alone. I know we are all going to be ok even though it’s tough now??

Exactly it makes me feel a lot better knowing other people go through this. Do you ever feel like your HOCD tricks you into remembering things differently? Or that you have feelings for someone? It’s so cruel!

Yeah it’s a great feeling to know we aren’t alone

If anyone wants, im in a group with other girls dealing with HOCD, ROCD, etc. on Instagram. Add me @nadselhag and I can add anyone to the group!