- Username
- Carrie
- Date posted
- 6y ago
You’re not. I suffer from depersonalization. It is terrifying to not know what it really happening to feel so out of your body all the time.
I had an anxiety attack and was wondering why bad people/bad events exist which led me to be paranoid that everyone around me maybe wasn’t actually real. I of course KNOW that everyone is real, quite obviously, but my brain was trying to mess with me :-(
Yes it can result in you feeling like people aren’t real. I often panic in stores because they’re mad of these walls of wood with shelves of plastic with things of plastic we put into a metal cart to buy with a piece of plastic. To someone who is not in the state of mind we are in, in these moments that doesn’t make sense. I can understand how we would appear crazy. But I don’t think that’s it. I honestly think it’s a hypersensitive level of awareness of the world and what it really is. Most people choose to ignore that. The best thing I’ve found is to be outside where things are “real” try to spend at least 30 minutes outside a day. Even if it’s just sitting on the grass. Grounding exercises are where you physically put your feet in the grass because it helps “ground you” meaning you get back a sense of reality. Think about that. Therapists have to tell people to do grounding exercises, this just proves we spend too much time in a false reality. And you’re not going nuts carrie. It’s that your ocd over thinks everything which makes you aware of things other simple minded people are oblivious too
Hey!! You can find me on Instagram @forestfairyyoga I’m only mentioning that because you can talk to me there and because I’ve made a few posts specifically about the things I’ve learned that helped me stop being so scared during derealization episodes. I can find them myself and send them to you so you don’t have to go searching if you’d like! They can be so terrifying, but I PROMISE your body is okay! And you are okay!! I wish you allll the best!!
@melanie_27 Yes!! I love that advice so much!!
But you’re not losing your mind I promise.? listen to the Mr. Mister song Kyrie Eleison. Which means lord have mercy down the road that I must travel. I think this is happening just because it’s going to make you who YOU were always meant to be. You can do it because you have no choice, but that doesn’t have to be bad. I hate OCD but it is making me into the me I was destined to be. As will it be for you.
I think I just did today. I literally could not stop screaming and jumping around crying punching the wall for like 30mins-1hr. I’ve had quite bad panic attacks, but this one was just me feeling absolutely defeated. Can anyone relate? I feel crazy (well maybe I am, I have OCD)
is the worst and it’s so scary
with my OCD I go through these phases where I believe I experience derealization and depersonalization and they are extremely triggering and terrifying to me I experience all the symptoms from foggy brain to feeling like there's glass dividing me and the world and everything feeling far away. But I also think what if it isn't derealization because no one will ever know how I'm feeling? What if something is wrong in my head? What if I have a brain tumor? And it's and endless cycle along with actually acknowledging that I have OCD.
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