- Username
- uwotm8
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Seriously can’t handle my life nothing ever goes right
I’m literally worthless
I don’t mean to belittle what you’re feeling because that sounds extremely painful, but I do think it’s Important to note how intertwined your sense of self worth is to your romantic relationship. Obviously relationships are an extremely important facet of living a meaningful life, but they are just one part of a larger picture! I guess what I’m trying to say is, you have so much going for you outside of this relationship or ANY romantic relationship. Your OCD is making you conflate your purpose with the state of this relationship, but that’s not necessarily true!
I think I may have undiagnosed bpd as well as ocd if I’m honest
Dear uwotm8 , With OCD sometimes you can get overwhelmed and feel helpless to the symptoms. You sound discouraged, overwhelmed and I wanted to remind you that you are not alone. Please read the email sent to you from NOCD, we send these when users are in despair, mention self harm or feeling overwhelmed.The email will provide referral support. Please know that the NOCD program is working to reduce the severity of symptoms and allow you moments of peace. I hope you can sign up with an ERP trained therapist and get the treatment that will help improve your symptoms. Please also reach out to your support persons, dial 911 or go to the nearest emergency room if you have any thoughts of self harm or suicide. NOCD cares about you!
I just feel like I don’t care anymore. I’m so exhausted of swinging between constant thoughts and numbness. I just don’t feel like I can sustain the feeling of love. My boyfriend will find someone else. I know he thinks he loves me but I know he could also love again. He’d be fine if I just disappeared. I just hate myself and don’t want anyone to love me. There’s always going to be other people in the world a person will have a connection with so he could move past me just fine. No one connection means anything.
I’m just crying now. I feel like I’m being forced out of my relationship by my sexuality. Why can’t I stay with her?!? It’s not fair!!! I love her!! I really do how can I be in love this deeply if my brain says im gay. It feels like it’s already made it’s mind up that it’s time for me to end it??? Everyday it’s like I loose the control. The thoughts get worse, it feels more real, I feel like it makes more sense. IDC IF IT MAKES SENSE… I DON’t WANT IT! Please take it away I want my girlfriend. I love her
It’s not going well with my boyfriend and I (we’re long distance and he travels for work) and we’ve been arguing a lot - half of them cuz of my anxiety and half cuz of … both of us? My ROCD feels high but also I ask for things like - where is this going over the next two years? When can we meet each others family? So that I can feel secure and tell me ROCD to shove it. But his answers are that he isn’t ready yet especially cuz we’ve been arguing so much. My brain is telling me to cut and run. My ocd is telling me the same. Everything is yelling at me to leave. I’m so tired of this.
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