I don’t know what the point in my existence is anymore I don’t feel secure I don’t feel loved I don’t know where o stand with my partner cuz he keeps pushing me Away then pulling me back I love him and I’m so confused why I’m not receiving the same level of certainty I always give him I’m currently crying at work cuz two girls are engaged and know they aren’t gonna be abandoned. One girl just said she’s going on a date with her fiancé while I’ve just been told he needs space and for me to go back to my own place, a few days after he asked me to fucking move in ALL I WANT IS LOVE AND SECURITY WHY DONT I FUCKING DESERVE IT WHEN EVERYONE WLSE GETS IT

Seriously can’t handle my life nothing ever goes right

I’m literally worthless

I don’t mean to belittle what you’re feeling because that sounds extremely painful, but I do think it’s Important to note how intertwined your sense of self worth is to your romantic relationship. Obviously relationships are an extremely important facet of living a meaningful life, but they are just one part of a larger picture! I guess what I’m trying to say is, you have so much going for you outside of this relationship or ANY romantic relationship. Your OCD is making you conflate your purpose with the state of this relationship, but that’s not necessarily true!

Dear uwotm8 , With OCD sometimes you can get overwhelmed and feel helpless to the symptoms. You sound discouraged, overwhelmed and I wanted to remind you that you are not alone. Please read the email sent to you from NOCD, we send these when users are in despair, mention self harm or feeling overwhelmed.The email will provide referral support. Please know that the NOCD program is working to reduce the severity of symptoms and allow you moments of peace. I hope you can sign up with an ERP trained therapist and get the treatment that will help improve your symptoms. Please also reach out to your support persons, dial 911 or go to the nearest emergency room if you have any thoughts of self harm or suicide. NOCD cares about you!