PLEASE URGENT HELP God! God please help me. Today hocd hit very hard. I was scrolling on fb and i saw wrestling so i kept watching to see if i get aroused. I kept telling myself I’m equal and strong, they can’t do this to me. But then the thought came « they could rape you» « look, they look like he’s raping the other »im not that strong as them . God and I saw movement, my dick was almost semi erect. GOD I FELT LIKE I DIED AND I WANTED TO DIE. EHY WOULD MY FUCKING PENIS MOVE FOR SUCH A THING . WHY IS MY MIND FUCKED UP. I FELT THE GREATEST ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION FELL OVER ME WHO EVENTUALLY STOPPED THE AROUSAL. I’M STILL SHAKING. GOD I NEED HOPE. I NEED TO GET RID OF THESE THOUGHTS BUT THE BODY SIGNALS AND DREAMS ARE DESTROYING ME ! PLEASE! PLEASE! PLEASEE!!

Sexual Orientation OCD

Star-Lord

Date posted: 5y

Yeah, if you think about getting sexual arousal you are going to get it, i am getting it right now just writing about it. You can relax man

Jamarceline

Date posted: 5y

Cuz he had anxiety and before presentations he always thought that everyone is gonna look at him and every part of his body and " what if I get erection" so he always had erection . I think it's something like you tell person : dont think about yellow colour and automatically he start to think about yellow colour and picture how yellow color looks like . Be happy you have erection. Old people dont have this pleasure . Other example is that in the morning you wake up with erection too right ? And it doesnt mean you're attracted to urine :p

Ionut

Date posted: 5y

Honestly, i’d prefer to have erectile dysfunction than having gronials like this

Jamarceline

Date posted: 5y

(The standing one)

Evelyn4416

Date posted: 5y

Are you seeing a therapist about this?

sillybilly

Date posted: 5y

Give all yours problems to God and leave it there. Sometimes we can’t do things ourselves, no matter how hard we try. Intrusive thoughts? Screw them, give them to God because he is the only one who can help. I hope the best for you, God bless.

Jamarceline

Date posted: 5y

My ex boyfriend used to have erection during presentation at uni

Jamarceline

Date posted: 5y

I dont know tho , I dont have a penis so maybe I write silly stuff . I'm sorry if so

RSMs

Date posted: 5y

What would’ve happened if you didn’t watch the wrestling?

ocdillustrated

Date posted: 5y

How have your feelings and thoughts changed since you posted?

Ionut

Date posted: 5y

I still feel like a piece of shit. I wonder why would my brain do this. My HOCD activates usually when he sees stuff with violence, extreme dominance. I remembered that not too long ago I read an article of a case of raping and I got a gronial (that time i didn’t freak out cause i know im not capable of such a thing) i think all this stuff is somehow bounded to a lack of self esteem and also i have some bad memories with my dad abusing me and my mother . So i don’t really know...

Ionut

Date posted: 5y

@Ionut Like why do my brain associates this shitty , horrible stuff of man dominance, raping a kid man like WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY BRAIN?

Ionut

Date posted: 5y

@Ionut When I see a gay post or like idk 2 guys making out or idk emotional stuff (i am just disgusted no gronial) sorry if i offended anyone but this is notworking for me. But when this brutal shitty who is more powerful question comes, my brain decides is something important... God how I hate it.

sks2011

Date posted: 5y

This is normal to happen. Bodies are good at having automatic responses to lots of things. Because you were focused on it it happened. Try and breathe and let the discomfort go away on it's own.

Ionut

Date posted: 5y

Thank you all for your comments. Last night really was disastrous. I don’t know what to do... I wish I didn’t give a fuck but it scares the shit out of me to see gronial movement in such scenario... it destroys me...

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