I am having an extremely strong urge to text my gf, because she hasn’t texted me in two hours which is unusual for her. I’m super anxious and keep thinking about her cheating on me. I hate this, but I’m using it as an exposure. I just recorded on the app’s loop tape feature: “my girlfriend is cheating on me with someone else” and I’m listening to it over and over again. Anxiety is still at a 7 but hoping it goes down.

I’m in the same boat right now with my boyfriend

Good job! So proud of you!

I really feel your pain....This guy I’ve been dating for about a month now has suddenly started acting very cold and weird towards me, at least in the sense that we normally talk and text literally all the time everyday and jokingly call each other out when the other hasn’t responded in enough of a timely fashion....It’s been 4 days now where I’ve belatedly gotten a handful of texts from him, and mostly just him ignoring my tons of funny (and some serious ones too about how I feel about him, which is normal again, cuz we always talk about our feelings about each other too) texts, and I just can’t figure out what changed... This weirdness happened right after I met his parents for the first time (he had already met mine at that point) and it sent me into an OC meltdown where I couldn’t stop thinking of him getting back together with an ex....This was also fueled by me seeing the following words that he put on his Instagram story a day after I returned home: “Hate that I’m lying on cold hard-wood floors and can’t stop thinking about you” so when I saw that, I thought to myself: “Uhhh...if that’s about me, then why do u hate it? We’re dating & that’s normal to think about each other all the time, no..?” And so now I’ve come to the conclusion that it’s not about me and about someone else.....However, his mothers boyfriend of 3 years just died 3 months ago, so I considered it was about him too, but I just somehow have a hard time believing that he would post to Instagram about that like he did...it was very melodramatic and had an angsty-heartbroken-teenager vibe to it...the words were posted over a picture of multicolored Christmas lights hung around his bedroom window, which he actually bought right before I came to visit his place for the first time the same weekend I met his mom....idk why, but I kind of felt like he bought them for me to set the mood? Then again, an ex could’ve definitely had Christmas lights which he liked and bought them to remind him of her?....ugh. I’ve just been going around in circles and haven’t been able to focus on anything else and it’s very painful & shameful, and the worst part is that I’m causing the pain to myself, because it’s my obsessive thoughts that won’t let me stop, and my compulsion forces me to check my phone every half hour to see if he texted and then get disappointed when he didn’t....it’s fucking torture. (Especially when I’ve told him I have a bad history with guys taking advantage of me and making me feel unwanted, manipulating me, etc....and he’s told me so many times he would never do any of that to me, and would always be there for me....of course I was skeptical at first, but then he proved time and time again to be true to his word, so I finally let my walls down, and now this....?)

Glad to know I’m not alone and thank you!

I'm in the same boat all day today as well. I hate that relationships are harder for me bc of my OCD.