I keep remember boys I dated when I was younger and how I wasn’t attracted to them and now I’m like oh proof. Lol what 13 hasn’t dated some questionable men. I’m also confused because when I try to pictures sex with men I now feel nothing but worry. Damn, it’s been an exhausting week even without all of this!

My brain gives me the same shit. I can’t orgasm with a partner and get anxious during sex, my brain does the same thing

Haha I’m getting married so I think that’s why this is getting so bad! But, I’m excited too. I want to be happy I’m getting married, not scared I’m deceiving him. It’s really ruining my enjoyment of the whole thing!

I really don’t want to. This sucks. I don’t even like being near other girls because I keep checking if I’m attracted? And I can’t stop overthinking during sex. And I’m the point where I’m like do I not orgasm because I don’t like men or am I too in my head??!

I get that too. But it’ll be super out of nowhere. I get really anxious because I can’t just get turned on looking at abs or naked men, like we need to be doing something, so that plus the orgasm thing has taken a toll on my relationship

I do talk to him, he knows everything! Right now it’s just me versus these awful doubts

I’m sorry? I wish there was a test I could take that would be like you’re not gay! Don’t worry! And I could just worry about me and him

Mine started when I met my boyfriend and fell in love. It happened suddenly one day. Never ever ever questioned before, had crushes on so many men, etc. I loved him, enjoyed intimate moments with him, and suddenly one day cold dress washed over me. What if I’m gay and we can’t be together? We are still together 5 years later but ocd still rears it’s ugly head. It makes no sense. Like the orgasm thing, all this other bullshit, has a lot more to do with my anxiety about losing him/having HOCD than actually being gay. It’s ironic, the only thing making me doubt myself is the presence of HOCD. I want to go back to before I had doubts at all, when I was just in love

@Immorethanocd **dread

The fact that you remember it was junior year is pretty significant. It’s weird to stress out about something out of nowhere. And it’s weird how long it’s lasted. You’d think by now a gay person who started questioning 5 years ago would have come to a conclusion. Lol not HOCD, that shit lasts for a longggg time

I know I’m straight because I don’t think a gay person starts questioning out of the blue and this all happened during a very happy relationship

We won’t. I promise. Everything will be okay, we won’t suffer forever, we just need to come up with some goals and a olann

@Immorethanocd Plan*

My therapist said the same thing. He was like I’ve never seen a gay person react to the idea of homosexuality like this. Sexuality is a weird thing, which helps the “doubt” grow in this disorder. But, actual gay people don’t cry, sit in agony, and think constantly about MAYBE being gay. I also don’t think they constantly ask other people if they’re gay. So. Yeah. It’s just our brains. But, it’s really good to know there’s other people out there like me. It can be a lonely illness