How can a single thought ruin your whole day. I opened my eyes to anxiety and constant thoughts. Spent the morning searching the internet for answers. I can’t seem to get myself out of this state of panic. I don’t want to live like this anymore. I don’t even feel like I’m living. I’m just trying to survive

So I have had the same experience. The B in CBT is all about behavioral changes. I didn’t realize at the time that I had to, quite literally, do different things to get a different outcome. Right now, your brain is preconditioned for anxiety in the morning. It’s because it’s happened before, and that you dread the experience, that it reoccurs. Searching online is a compulsion I have as well, and it paradoxically causes the obsessional thoughts to last longer and come more frequently. So, as best you can, think about your mornings and think of something you can do differently. If you stay in bed, get up right when you wake up. If you search online, set a timer that you can’t for at least one hour. Start with a journal, exercise, meditation, or whatever activity diverts you briefly. Over time your brain comes to have a different expectation and response about mornings, and you’ll notice the thoughts are less troubling and therefore less frequent.

I know exactly how you feel. I wake up to it too and it never stops. It’s a nightmare and I’m sorry it happened to you too.

That’s true my OCD has been pretty bad for about a month and every morning I’ve been waking up anxious with the thoughts starting right away. I’m beginning to fear sleep. Thank you for the suggestions. I will def try. I try to talk myself out of it and then I get the what it thought. No this isn’t happening but what if it is and the cycle starts again. I start therapy tomorrow. And I’ve thought of cancelling purely out of fear... the constant what if and doubt. He’s going to tell me it’s not OCD and admit me somewhere for being crazy