pac
- Date posted
- 5y
Carl CornettCarl Cornett
- Date posted
- 5y
So I have had the same experience. The B in CBT is all about behavioral changes. I didn’t realize at the time that I had to, quite literally, do different things to get a different outcome. Right now, your brain is preconditioned for anxiety in the morning. It’s because it’s happened before, and that you dread the experience, that it reoccurs. Searching online is a compulsion I have as well, and it paradoxically causes the obsessional thoughts to last longer and come more frequently. So, as best you can, think about your mornings and think of something you can do differently. If you stay in bed, get up right when you wake up. If you search online, set a timer that you can’t for at least one hour. Start with a journal, exercise, meditation, or whatever activity diverts you briefly. Over time your brain comes to have a different expectation and response about mornings, and you’ll notice the thoughts are less troubling and therefore less frequent.
BlueBlue
- Date posted
- 5y
I know exactly how you feel. I wake up to it too and it never stops. It’s a nightmare and I’m sorry it happened to you too.
pacpac
- Date posted
- 5y
That’s true my OCD has been pretty bad for about a month and every morning I’ve been waking up anxious with the thoughts starting right away. I’m beginning to fear sleep. Thank you for the suggestions. I will def try. I try to talk myself out of it and then I get the what it thought. No this isn’t happening but what if it is and the cycle starts again. I start therapy tomorrow. And I’ve thought of cancelling purely out of fear... the constant what if and doubt. He’s going to tell me it’s not OCD and admit me somewhere for being crazy
melwocdmelwocd
- Date posted
- 5y
Go to therapy! I have had this same fear, I think we all have. This is your brain telling you to fear. Try to practice some breathing exercises, come back to your breath when you start to drift. You can do this and will feel so much better after your session. I have one today. I woke up feeling the same way. As difficult as it is, you can do this. God bless
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- Date posted
- 23w
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I'm at my college and don't feel like being here. I didn't even want to come here. I woke up with anxiety bc i feel like i need to solve this. I had a bad stomach ache when i arrived to school and still havent even eaten breakfast yet bc i feel like i have to solve this. Im just so worried bc i have harm thoughts daily. If i could i would remove this! I dont want to think anymore. Its just, how do I know i dont have real urges when I'm feeling a negative emotion like anger or disappointment or annoyance? Im worried EVERY time i feel a negative emotion. Yesterday I was playing video games with my neice (we are close in age range) and she made us lose. She started blaming me and I guess i felt a little annoyed, it really wasnt my fault (dumb mini argument it was more playful since we started laughing but it was a bit annoying). Anyway i got a harm thought while feeling annoyed of me getting off the couch and lunging at her to attack. I immediately look at my bodily reaction and I tense up to stay as still as possible. My stomach was hurting and i wanted to leave as fast as possible. I stood up and turned off the game and said i was tired while making sure to stay back from her (and i had my hands away and stiff) but i felt so uneasy. I laid I bed and felt sad and heavy. And i kept getting thoughts that said "íts only a matter of time before you can't take it anymore". I started to reassurance seek using ai to ask if i was about to or if they are real urges or thoughts i mean until i eventually fell asleep in the middle of the compulsion. Im just so worried, what if I act out impulsevly one day? I dont want to! But what if when feeling a negative emotion, i suddenly dont care and do something? I really dont want to! I dont even want to feel negative emotions anymore since they trigger the thoughts and I dont want to think about any of that. As a result i tend to avoid my family as much as possible bc they are annoying sometimes. I just wish i was all alone sometimes so i wont get any more thoughts and so everyone can be safe. I usually just stay in bed under my blankets all day long to avoid my family and pets. I am constantly uncomfortable. I miss when i would never think any of this. Living life has become very scary for me now. 😞
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- Date posted
- 19w
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Today I woke up with severe panic attack. My heart jumps out of my chest. As I do every morning. When I wake up and my brain is awake it automatically goes straight to intrusive thoughts about my partner, my life and everything else. That I don’t love her, I don’t want to be with her and she’s not the one for me and I should break up with her. This all happened from TikTok comments I saw that triggered this. Since then I haven’t been able to stop my thoughts. I know she is the one for me I know I love her I just can’t stop the thoughts. It feels so real. The voices feel so real.
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- Date posted
- 16w
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