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- 4y ago
So I have had the same experience. The B in CBT is all about behavioral changes. I didn’t realize at the time that I had to, quite literally, do different things to get a different outcome. Right now, your brain is preconditioned for anxiety in the morning. It’s because it’s happened before, and that you dread the experience, that it reoccurs. Searching online is a compulsion I have as well, and it paradoxically causes the obsessional thoughts to last longer and come more frequently. So, as best you can, think about your mornings and think of something you can do differently. If you stay in bed, get up right when you wake up. If you search online, set a timer that you can’t for at least one hour. Start with a journal, exercise, meditation, or whatever activity diverts you briefly. Over time your brain comes to have a different expectation and response about mornings, and you’ll notice the thoughts are less troubling and therefore less frequent.
I know exactly how you feel. I wake up to it too and it never stops. It’s a nightmare and I’m sorry it happened to you too.
That’s true my OCD has been pretty bad for about a month and every morning I’ve been waking up anxious with the thoughts starting right away. I’m beginning to fear sleep. Thank you for the suggestions. I will def try. I try to talk myself out of it and then I get the what it thought. No this isn’t happening but what if it is and the cycle starts again. I start therapy tomorrow. And I’ve thought of cancelling purely out of fear... the constant what if and doubt. He’s going to tell me it’s not OCD and admit me somewhere for being crazy
Go to therapy! I have had this same fear, I think we all have. This is your brain telling you to fear. Try to practice some breathing exercises, come back to your breath when you start to drift. You can do this and will feel so much better after your session. I have one today. I woke up feeling the same way. As difficult as it is, you can do this. God bless
Does anyone sometimes just sit and wonder how they could even have such thoughts? What could possibly have happened to make you start thinking like this, to make you genuinely fear that you are sick in the head even though you never felt or thought this way prior. Sometimes I wonder what I could have done differently in the past to have prevented this, how much better my life would be without it. My mind has successfully ruined days that I know would've been good. I can't look forward to anything anymore because I know it will be ruined
I spend a lot of my day just waiting for another panic attack to hit me. I live with anxiety about having more anxiety. Some days I do well and then I get tired from work or whatever and then it feels like my brain struggles to stay positive and have peace.
Why is it every single morning feels like I am swallowed with depression and anxiety both? As the day goes on I slowly feel relief but every single morning is the same. I dread mornings now. I used to love waking up, sitting out on my porch drinking a cup of coffee listening to the birds. Since the OCD spiral it’s the last thing I want to do. My mind cannot stop asking “when is it gonna be different? How long will I feel like this?” And that makes it so much worse. I think I have a judgment around it. The longer this goes on, the bigger the meaning. As if to say since I’ve felt this way for six weeks, something is really wrong and I can’t pull myself out of it. How do you reconcile your morning depression? Is it a matter of accepting it, treating yourself with compassion and kindness about it? I wonder if I’m beating myself up since I still feel so deep in the depression hole.
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