Urgent. I need tremendous help. Thanks for letting me vent. Sorry for the depressing post. My mom and I are breaking up... I hurt her so so much and I feel great remorse. Thanks to my ocd. I kept telling her every thought on my mind and drove her too far. I can’t think before I speak. I can’t think before I act. Every random thought (example compare my relationships with her to my sister’s relationship with my mom, every little ouchie in my body, and always tell her she’s too loud. Any advice would be greatly appreciated... currently on my bed crying. I love my mom. She is (or was) my advocate. I really want to change, I do. When I put my mind to it, I can! I am at wits end... I’m nice and sweet to EVERYONE else but I’m snotty 90% of the time to her! I even told her to shut up during her yelling at me. How am I going to survive this quarantine while living in the same house 24/7???

We got this! I just feel horrible. But I’m glad I’m not alone ❤️

Also I looovvveee the UK so much!

I relate in the sense that my biggest advocate was my best friend of 10 years and bc of ocd and bpd I drove her away.. she was like a big sister to me and rly the only family I felt I had left sometimes... I wish you the best.

I relate. I love my mum (sorry british hahahah) but I find I get most angry at her. She doesn’t deserve it. I also question my morals and love a lot so it doesn’t help. I guess we spend so much time anxious, that we become irritated so easily. And we take it out on those closest to us. Don’t beat yourself up over this. Use how you’re feeling now as maybe a way to be more conscious. I’ll do it too! We can change.

I can relate so much to this post that it’s crazy. Growing up I was never a good child. I was spoiled, rude, and entitled. Everybody makes mistakes, we all say and do dumb shit when we’re mad and then regret it later. I would apologize to your mom if I were in your shoes, and then forgive myself. You can’t change if you’re constantly beating yourself up. If you’re mom is being too loud, just leave the room or plug in some earphones (that’s what I do). If you want to say something, think of what could happen if you do. You know what I realized a while ago? Is that my siblings feel the same way I do (annoyed at stuff our parents do), but the difference is that they don’t react. Even though something is annoying the hell out of you, don’t react (I know that’s hard, trust me). My mom is naturally loud, so is my dad, no matter what I say and do is not gonna change that. So just let it be. If it can’t be changed by words the first or second time, then let it be. If you got more questions about what I’m doing to change then just feel free to ask :)

Thank you so much! I have apologized deeply to my mom, so the next step is forgiving myself. Do you have any ideas on how to let myself forgive me? It’s really hard with ocd :)

My favorite “ocd” song is Human by Rag’n’Bone Man... it says how we are human and always make mistakes.