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We got this! I just feel horrible. But I’m glad I’m not alone ❤️
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Also I looovvveee the UK so much!
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Awwww? it’s not all that honestly
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I relate in the sense that my biggest advocate was my best friend of 10 years and bc of ocd and bpd I drove her away.. she was like a big sister to me and rly the only family I felt I had left sometimes... I wish you the best.
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I relate. I love my mum (sorry british hahahah) but I find I get most angry at her. She doesn’t deserve it. I also question my morals and love a lot so it doesn’t help. I guess we spend so much time anxious, that we become irritated so easily. And we take it out on those closest to us. Don’t beat yourself up over this. Use how you’re feeling now as maybe a way to be more conscious. I’ll do it too! We can change.
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I can relate so much to this post that it’s crazy. Growing up I was never a good child. I was spoiled, rude, and entitled. Everybody makes mistakes, we all say and do dumb shit when we’re mad and then regret it later. I would apologize to your mom if I were in your shoes, and then forgive myself. You can’t change if you’re constantly beating yourself up. If you’re mom is being too loud, just leave the room or plug in some earphones (that’s what I do). If you want to say something, think of what could happen if you do. You know what I realized a while ago? Is that my siblings feel the same way I do (annoyed at stuff our parents do), but the difference is that they don’t react. Even though something is annoying the hell out of you, don’t react (I know that’s hard, trust me). My mom is naturally loud, so is my dad, no matter what I say and do is not gonna change that. So just let it be. If it can’t be changed by words the first or second time, then let it be. If you got more questions about what I’m doing to change then just feel free to ask :)
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Thank you so much! I have apologized deeply to my mom, so the next step is forgiving myself. Do you have any ideas on how to let myself forgive me? It’s really hard with ocd :)
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Let yourself know that you are who you are and that there are things in life that are going to trigger your anger or your sadness and that it’s okay. It’s okay that I got angry over this, but it’s not okay how I acted. Forgive yourself. You’re human, we all make mistakes over and over. Instead of hating yourself, learn from them and move on. There’s something that I’m starting to live by and it’s : “whatever happened, happened.” Which means that no matter what you try to do and say, you will never be able to change the past. So instead stop obsessing over what you DID and start thinking of what you will DO the next time something triggers you. And don’t expect to succeed the first time, or the second time, or the third time.
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@sillybilly Thank you, I really appreciate your advice! :)
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@Lou_lourocks Ye anytime
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My favorite “ocd” song is Human by Rag’n’Bone Man... it says how we are human and always make mistakes.
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I love that song! I was just listening to it the other day! It hits different lol
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I’m feeling kind of sad cause today was not a really good day in terms of my ocd. I was feeling kind of foggy/numb and that send me to spiraling. I’m 21 years old currently studying but my family has been having trouble with money for the last couple years(we’re just me and my mom) and I kinda want to get a job but everything is far from my home and I wouldn’t be able to return back at night, also it’s either way more expensive to move or the schedule wouldn’t let me take my classes. The point is that because of that every time my mom is stress tends to treat me bad, she speaks to me like I’m stupid or she just screams to nothing cursing all life and everything and that actually makes me feel soo bad and guilty for not doing anything, I know it’s hard for me to get a job that actually helps us without quitting school but that doesn’t stop me from feeling like I’m a burden. I want to help, I want to maybe hug her or something but I know she will be angrier and probably will reject it. So that’s it, I just feel like she punishes me for the stress she’s carrying and I get it but one day is happy and it feels like all love and the next is treating me like that, Idk it’s hard (also I feel like I shouldn’t be saying this cause it’s all my fault) 🫤
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Please comment. Just say if follows along the OCD pattern or not. I don't need reassurance per se! My daughter was laying across me and every time I breathed a certain way I was getting a groinal sensation. I kept breathing like that anyways (ugh idk why), and then my mind told me I had hurt/a**aulted her that I might as well do something else to hurt because what's more. So idk why or what overcame me other than the thought of doing it because my mind told me I had hurt her already ("my mind literally made me question what to do and I guess the only thing I could come up with was using my elbow) and causing another feeling but it came across my mind to elbow her, and I elbowed her crotch or side/thigh area. Which caused another very unwanted groinal sensation. Then I began FREAKING smooth out. And I've been stressing since. I feel like as a mom I don't deserve to be hers anymore. Idk what overcame me but my therapist says it's all OCD. I was doing SO well! Is this really OCD? This has all caused me a great amount of anxiety. I feel like a terrible person and mom. I just need help knowing if this is OCD. Not wanting reassurance. Just wanting to know if this lines up with the POCD I've been diagnosed with by my current therapist.
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Early this morning, my mom and I had a really, really long discussion. We talked about a lot, but it eventually led to me. She said that because of her past relationships, which she feels like involved some sort of power struggle, sometimes if I hug her too often, she gets uncomfortable/anxious. For context, before my parents (mom or dad) go anywhere, I'll say goodbye, I love you, and give them a quick hug or two. Even if I'm just going upstairs or walking away from a conversation! I've done this since I was little. It might've been a compulsion back then, but it's just habit now. But a couple of months ago, when I was in a really dark place due to OCD, I'd give my mom really long hugs because I just wanted comfort during that point in time. Unfortunately, it ended up stressing my mom out, and she pushed me away once and said it was weird or uncomfortable when I hugged her because it didn't feel genuine. That really hurt to be rejected like that, and then later, my sister told me my mom complained about me in the car about how it felt like I was draining the energy from her and annoying. Which... That hurt, too. But I mainly felt guilt because that wasn't my intention at all, and I've since tried my best not to hug her as often. So when she brought it up again today, she said she feels like she's experiencing a power struggle with me and that when I was younger, she said she felt like everything had to be on my terms. The context behind that is due to me being a really anxious child (and baby). I'd wake her up because I'd get really bad anxiety at night and panic, and she said it was really exhausting and that she's never known what to do with me. Then she went on to tell me really private details about my father and hers marriage (they've been divorced since I was little), and how that's affected her, and I just felt really uncomfortable. Like I want to be respect her boundaries, and I don't want to make her uncomfortable, but... I don't know what to do with all of this...? I didn't need to know those details about her and my father, and I feel really disgusting inside. And also guilty because my dad doesn't know that I know any of these things now, and I'm overwhelmed. I talked to my dad and his girlfriend about it, and I just started crying. I just feel so... Ugh :( They both comforted me, and my dad said that my mom's always struggled with physical affection and that I shouldn't take it personally. But it hurts to be rejected by a parent like that. I've tried the best I can to be understanding and supportive with her, but it just felt like she's seen me as a burden or something unfixable. If you read this far, thank you so much. I'm just really struggling to process this. I felt better after talking with my dad, but once he went to bed and I went back to my room, I just broke down.
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