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- Lou_lourocks
- Date posted
- 4y ago
We got this! I just feel horrible. But I’m glad I’m not alone ❤️
Also I looovvveee the UK so much!
Awwww? it’s not all that honestly
I relate in the sense that my biggest advocate was my best friend of 10 years and bc of ocd and bpd I drove her away.. she was like a big sister to me and rly the only family I felt I had left sometimes... I wish you the best.
I relate. I love my mum (sorry british hahahah) but I find I get most angry at her. She doesn’t deserve it. I also question my morals and love a lot so it doesn’t help. I guess we spend so much time anxious, that we become irritated so easily. And we take it out on those closest to us. Don’t beat yourself up over this. Use how you’re feeling now as maybe a way to be more conscious. I’ll do it too! We can change.
I can relate so much to this post that it’s crazy. Growing up I was never a good child. I was spoiled, rude, and entitled. Everybody makes mistakes, we all say and do dumb shit when we’re mad and then regret it later. I would apologize to your mom if I were in your shoes, and then forgive myself. You can’t change if you’re constantly beating yourself up. If you’re mom is being too loud, just leave the room or plug in some earphones (that’s what I do). If you want to say something, think of what could happen if you do. You know what I realized a while ago? Is that my siblings feel the same way I do (annoyed at stuff our parents do), but the difference is that they don’t react. Even though something is annoying the hell out of you, don’t react (I know that’s hard, trust me). My mom is naturally loud, so is my dad, no matter what I say and do is not gonna change that. So just let it be. If it can’t be changed by words the first or second time, then let it be. If you got more questions about what I’m doing to change then just feel free to ask :)
Thank you so much! I have apologized deeply to my mom, so the next step is forgiving myself. Do you have any ideas on how to let myself forgive me? It’s really hard with ocd :)
Let yourself know that you are who you are and that there are things in life that are going to trigger your anger or your sadness and that it’s okay. It’s okay that I got angry over this, but it’s not okay how I acted. Forgive yourself. You’re human, we all make mistakes over and over. Instead of hating yourself, learn from them and move on. There’s something that I’m starting to live by and it’s : “whatever happened, happened.” Which means that no matter what you try to do and say, you will never be able to change the past. So instead stop obsessing over what you DID and start thinking of what you will DO the next time something triggers you. And don’t expect to succeed the first time, or the second time, or the third time.
@sillybilly Thank you, I really appreciate your advice! :)
@Lou_lourocks Ye anytime
My favorite “ocd” song is Human by Rag’n’Bone Man... it says how we are human and always make mistakes.
I love that song! I was just listening to it the other day! It hits different lol
Please help me. I have not used this app in months, but I am actually lost. 1.) I have been BEGGING to go back to therapy for my OCD for months. (Around five to six months now) My mom always tells me that she’s doing the best she can or genuinely gets annoyed (it’s like she gets mad when I try to bring it up) the thing is I would understand if she didn’t have the money for me to go back to therapy, but she constant buys food that is the worth of the bill she needs to pay to let me go back into therapy. So basically, she owes my therapist 100 dollars. It’s been six months. She makes a lot of money. She just doesn’t think my OCD is important. 2.) Everything in my life is triggering. It’s to the point where the thought of not doing a compulsion, makes me break down. I try erp, but I don’t think I can without a therapist. I’ve used this app to help me with erp. I need professional help. I feel as if I won’t get help for months ahead. 3.) I am really isolated, and I don’t have a way to socially have contact with irl people. I have a boyfriend and he is pretty much the only person I see outside of family. I’ve been homeschooled for years, so I’ve lost touch with the people I was friends with in school. If I do want to see or do anything (even going to the store for something and sometimes seeing my bf I have to DEEP clean the whole house) the isolation has caused me to not even be able to look at my family in the eyes. I feel so crippled and stuck. What should I do? I’m thinking about telling my mom I need to go to hospital for a long stay. The last time I did that the bill was 12,000, and it was a very traumatic stay, but I am so mentally ill from my OCD. I feel like every option I have is something I’ve tried. Merry Christmas btw if you actually read this. Also you don’t have to pity me or reassure me. If you’d like to comment, please give me advice on how to approach this situation.
I really need help. This isn’t ocd related but I don’t know what to do and I have no one to go to. I think my mom is verbally abusive and I don’t know if I’m overthinking because I’m told all the time I overthink things but I can’t calm down. My mom has treated me horrible my whole life she doesn’t pay attention when I tell her things I’m excited about, she dismisses my feelings or when I’m upset and makes me feel like I’m a problem or that I don’t matter and that her problems are always worse than mine. She has threatened to hit me many times throughout my life but never has except for once when I was little I had a horrible headache and was crying from the pain in my room and we had company and she came in and hit me and told me to shut up that I’m worrying the company. She’s called me so many horrible names and just did today. We were playing cards and listening to music with my grandma and when I made a music suggestion she had a strong opinion about a singer that she has also listened to and when I got irritated about it she stopped playing and said I was a “little bitc*” said “another holiday ruined” and made a comment about my friends at work and that I treat them some way is why I lost them or whatever and she’s always called me much worse. I don’t know what to do. I’m scared and I want to escape so badly but I can’t I have no where to go. I’m 23 and live with my mom and grandma. I can’t afford to move out and if I did I would have to live in my car. I’m so scared and upset. I hate myself. I wish I could just give up and I’m scared if I do that than it’s going to get much worse for me but at this point I don’t care. I have no one who loves me or cares about me and I definitely don’t have my mom because if it were any one else she would be so kind to them and treat them so nice if they were going through a hard time because I’ve heard her do that for many people but in real life when no one is listening and I tell her what is going on and why I’m upset she yells and screams at me saying I’m a ungrateful bitc* and that there’s nothing I could possibly be stressed about and many other things. I can’t do this anymore. I wish I could be free
So my mom wasn't/isn't the best mom in the world and she hevaly traumatized me. My parents are devorsed and I go to my mom's house every other weekend, now I haven't been diagnosed with ocd yet (I have a diagnosis app on the 11th) so I don't have any meds for it, anyway, I keep having these thoughts of harming my mother in extream ways, and I made the decision that I can't go to her house until we figure out what's going on with me for her own safety, I can't get any of these thoughts to go away and ik really scared
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