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Do you have a loved one you could reach out to right now? If you’re having any thoughts of suicide please reach out to a loved one or local hotline!! Please be safe and have compassion for yourself. Things are tough right now and even tougher with ocd, but that doesn’t mean this is incurable or going to last forever
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im talking to my friend and my boyfriend. mostly him because he makes me feel at ease the most. i know it isn’t incurable but i get scared cause a lot of people say it’s chronic
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@zoya I had really terrible ROCD but it did pass. I cried constantly, avoided my boyfriend, thought it was doomed. The clouds cleared and it got better. Please do not give in. OCD picked the wrong person to mess with and you’re going to show it up. It takes a lot of strength to even post on here and a lot of strength to admit you need help. Please keep using that strength to fight ocd, even if you think it’s taken all of you. It hasn’t. Have you ever heard the song rainbow by kacie musgraves? This is going to sound dumb as hell but I love listening to that song when I feel lost and hopeless
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@Immorethanocd How did you over come ROCD??
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@Jessica89 To be honest, it just kind of left one day when I got really anxious about taking a huge exam. Of course, I have a new theme now but I take the rocd fears much less seriously now once I got distance
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@Immorethanocd Can I ask what theme it moved to? I’ve had rocd before and it went away. This time it has just stuck
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@Jessica89 HOCD
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@Immorethanocd Which I’ve had in the past and seems to reappear every few months / years
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@Immorethanocd thank u so much. this means a lot
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I totally understand how you feel. I’ve been suffering from intrusive thoughts for 7 months ago (crazy!) and it always seems to go away for a while and then come back hard. There’s really no cure to make OCD go away completely, we can only learn not to pay attention to those intrusive thoughts and to know that they are just OCD not us. I used to feel a great passion to help people and to spend my life traveling around the world and helping those in need but my Harm OCD took that passion away from me. But I’m fighting to get it back. I don’t know how much you are going through, but I damn well know that if I can get back up then so can you. Let’s do this together, the whole OCD community. You’re not alone in this fight :) Also, if you ever feel like committing suicide please call the suicide hotline number: 1-800-273-8255
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thank u so much. i appreciate this a lot
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Hey Girl I also suffer from ROCD and have also had some dark times too. It’s a pretty horrible disorder but have been reading that it can get much better! The more you work on it (even using this app to do it), the better it can get. I know how heartbreaking it is and feel it too. It will get better
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thank u so much
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Hi Zoya! I can relate to what you’re going through. OCD is not an easy thing. I have memories of OCD going back to when I was probably five. Right now I’m going through a particularly hard time too. The last time I remember it being this bad was years and years ago. I want to say I was probably fourteen when my last terrible spell began to get better. I like to look back on that. It reminds me that if my awkward, goofy, teenage self could find it in her to take on high school and deal with OCD, then I can do it now- and so can you! It may feel impossible sometimes, but don’t let it blind you from realizing how much strength you have. It can get better. Truly. Have compassion for yourself. I think you’re doing the right thing leaning on friends. And please keep in mind the hotline number that SillyBilly posted. It shows strength to seek help & you are strong. xx Praying for you.
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thank u so much
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I suffer with HOCD mainly but have bouts of ROCD. This is a ruthless disorder.
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WHY is it so bad?? who was gonna tell me 16 was just DREAD, my ocd has flared up worse than ever and i can’t go to therapy weekly anymore. im getting worse and i can’t do it. I just want to give up.
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I’ve recently been struggling a lot with OCD. I have had OCD for a long time I just didn’t realize it until more recently. About seven months ago I developed panic attacks one day randomly at work. I thought I was having a heart attack and went to the hospital where they told me it was just a panic attack and I assumed I would snap out and be better within a few days. However it didn’t. Here’s where it gets scary, I was staying at my then boyfriends house while dealing with blurry vision, anxiety attacks everyday, and more (unsure of what was going on). But at some point I saw my bfs (pew pew 🔫) on his table and it sent me into an anxiety attack after sudden thoughts that I was going to hurt myself with it. I begged him to put it away when I’m not looking so I didn’t know where he put it. He did. These thoughts lasted for about four days but began to go away. (I thought that was it and I would be back to normal). Unfortunately though I ended up moving back in with my family when we couldn’t get my panic attacks under control in time for me to get back to work and pay bills. However, coming home brought up a lot of trauma from when I was kid. My anxiety got worse but I didn’t have those thoughts again. About two and half months ago though, I got sick and went to the hospital where they gave me steroid pills and a steroid shot but sent me into some kind of psychiatric event. Ever since then though, I have been suffering from harm OCD, I have had moments of intense anger that I usually have to completely walk away and go on my own because of how intense they are, and it feels like it’s getting worse. Today I felt fine until about and hour and half ago where I started to dwell on the fact that my suicidal thought was influenced by my OCD and at the moment my OCD is at the worst it’s been. This caused me to get suddenly really depressed and I started crying thinking about how I can’t handle this. I then saw a post talking about how suicide rates are high for people with this form of OCD and it made me question if I am mentally strong enough to pull through this. I fear that at times I’m getting worse. I have good days but I have a lot of bad days. Unfortunately this sent me into such a bad panic attack I went over to my nanas crying about how I can’t deal with this. I took a 0.25 mg Xanax which helped calm down the panic attack portion of it but my brain is still uncomfortably active. I guess I just need hope. I’m so saddened by this. It’s like my life took a total 360 in 10 months and got even worse since the steroid shot. Idk what to do about it. I can’t stop the spiral. I talk to two different therapist weekly and start more next week, making it 5 times a week. I feel no improvements…
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(Long post warning) Hi, I’ve been struggling with severe OCD for six years now. it started in 2019 with my theme being getting sick/emetophobia. it devastated my life. I almost didn’t graduate high school from it. I remember washing my hands for three hours one day until they were nearly bloody while crying and asking why I could not stop doing it. I remember id have to write and rewrite sentences when I did my English homework and that’s why I nearly failed that class. I remember how I would spend up to thirty minutes to an hour pacing the halls of my apartment while my mom was asleep until I neutralized the thoughts about throwing up and I could finally go to bed. I don’t know when it happened, but my theme switched. Sometimes in late 2020 or early 2021, it switched to POCD. It started with a single thought, and I focused on it and it’s been my theme since then for four years. It has been absolutely destroying me. I feel so disgusted and lost and just tired. My compulsions are severe now. I thought they were bad before, but now they’re ten times worse. I can’t eat, drink, change my clothes, walk, or even do things on my phone normally. I’ve developed so many mental compulsions that it’s so intricate and complicated yet at the same time I’ve done them so much that they’ve become normal. An example I have is if im putting on a shirt and I have a “bad” thought, I have to take it off and put it back on two more times (that’ll make it 3 times I put the shirt back on - odd numbers are my safe number). I have to have a good thought on the third time otherwise I have to take it off and put it on two more times to make it five times I put on that shirt. If not that then I just put on a different shirt because the original is now tainted with my bad thought. I can’t open apps on my phone. It’s with the numbers again. If I open TikTok once while having a bad thought - I have to close it and open it two more times and so on. Sometimes I do it up to 30 times. So I just don’t do things usually. I don’t turn on the TV because I know I’ll redo it. I don’t open a book or grab it off my shelf because I’ll have to repeat the action. I can’t even lay in bed without getting up and redoing it even if im exhausted. I just feel so helpless. I don’t know what to do. I feel disgusting and even now my minds screaming at me that I am dirty and what I think is true. I just wish I was free of this, I wish I could just live my life. I’ve wasted hours and days because of my compulsions. I mask it so well around my friends. I don’t do them in front of anyone or I’ve learned to hide it well. But when im back home alone, it goes haywire. I just want to live again.
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