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Do you have a loved one you could reach out to right now? If you’re having any thoughts of suicide please reach out to a loved one or local hotline!! Please be safe and have compassion for yourself. Things are tough right now and even tougher with ocd, but that doesn’t mean this is incurable or going to last forever
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im talking to my friend and my boyfriend. mostly him because he makes me feel at ease the most. i know it isn’t incurable but i get scared cause a lot of people say it’s chronic
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@zoya I had really terrible ROCD but it did pass. I cried constantly, avoided my boyfriend, thought it was doomed. The clouds cleared and it got better. Please do not give in. OCD picked the wrong person to mess with and you’re going to show it up. It takes a lot of strength to even post on here and a lot of strength to admit you need help. Please keep using that strength to fight ocd, even if you think it’s taken all of you. It hasn’t. Have you ever heard the song rainbow by kacie musgraves? This is going to sound dumb as hell but I love listening to that song when I feel lost and hopeless
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@Immorethanocd How did you over come ROCD??
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@Jessica89 To be honest, it just kind of left one day when I got really anxious about taking a huge exam. Of course, I have a new theme now but I take the rocd fears much less seriously now once I got distance
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@Immorethanocd Can I ask what theme it moved to? I’ve had rocd before and it went away. This time it has just stuck
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@Jessica89 HOCD
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@Immorethanocd Which I’ve had in the past and seems to reappear every few months / years
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@Immorethanocd thank u so much. this means a lot
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I totally understand how you feel. I’ve been suffering from intrusive thoughts for 7 months ago (crazy!) and it always seems to go away for a while and then come back hard. There’s really no cure to make OCD go away completely, we can only learn not to pay attention to those intrusive thoughts and to know that they are just OCD not us. I used to feel a great passion to help people and to spend my life traveling around the world and helping those in need but my Harm OCD took that passion away from me. But I’m fighting to get it back. I don’t know how much you are going through, but I damn well know that if I can get back up then so can you. Let’s do this together, the whole OCD community. You’re not alone in this fight :) Also, if you ever feel like committing suicide please call the suicide hotline number: 1-800-273-8255
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thank u so much. i appreciate this a lot
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Hey Girl I also suffer from ROCD and have also had some dark times too. It’s a pretty horrible disorder but have been reading that it can get much better! The more you work on it (even using this app to do it), the better it can get. I know how heartbreaking it is and feel it too. It will get better
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thank u so much
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Hi Zoya! I can relate to what you’re going through. OCD is not an easy thing. I have memories of OCD going back to when I was probably five. Right now I’m going through a particularly hard time too. The last time I remember it being this bad was years and years ago. I want to say I was probably fourteen when my last terrible spell began to get better. I like to look back on that. It reminds me that if my awkward, goofy, teenage self could find it in her to take on high school and deal with OCD, then I can do it now- and so can you! It may feel impossible sometimes, but don’t let it blind you from realizing how much strength you have. It can get better. Truly. Have compassion for yourself. I think you’re doing the right thing leaning on friends. And please keep in mind the hotline number that SillyBilly posted. It shows strength to seek help & you are strong. xx Praying for you.
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thank u so much
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I suffer with HOCD mainly but have bouts of ROCD. This is a ruthless disorder.
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I haven't been officially diagnosed with OCD but when I learned more about it, I never related to anything more. A little back story: when I was younger, there were a couple of youth suicides in my area and the schools felt the need to have someone come in and talk about suicide. Well the person they had come in did a horrible job teaching it and basically made it seem like the smallest negative emotion or feeling or change in behavior made you suicidal. This ended up scaring me so much that I got horrid anxiety. Fast forward to now, Everytime I feel anxiety and panic, I fear I'm going to kill myself. Everytime I feel down and depressed, I fear I'll end it all. I'm scared to be around anything sharp because the "What if" I hurt myself comes into my mind. There are always intrusive thoughts at almost every point of the day. And it's not only for me. Everytime I hear someone being negative, I fear they will be suicidal. I know in my heart that none of this is true but it's terrifying me that it's stuck around so much that it makes me scared that maybe it is true. I've had a lot of death in my family in the past year and a half and a lot of other family drama that I'd never had before that is now also bringing up existential intrusive thoughts. And I'd never questioned anything about life before but now I get the "why is life like this?" and "does anything we do matter?" and I hate it. I don't want to think like that. I just want to go through life being able to handle things normally again. It terrifies me even right now going "what if you give up?"
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I feel like there’s no way out of this. everyday i’m anxious and depressed from these thoughts. i feel like i have to constantly question if it’s OCD or not. the panic attacks are insane and i freak out. and a compulsion i have is looking eveything up on the internet when im stressing to know that it’s just my OCD and im not in danger. but looking things up add on to my thoughts and i start thinking “what if” actual suidcal people think. do others with this theme whenever they do something like if im taking a picture it’ll be like “yeah you look happy people will wonder what happened when your gone” LIKE i DO NOT want to end my life. or even as simple as cleaning my room, “yup keep it clean so when your family goes through your stuff” then i panic and can’t even do anything. those thoughts distress me so bad. i’ll sit there and think how good my life is or when im having a good day my thoughts will be like “NOPEEE what if your just saying that to convince yourself” it never shuts up and genuinely makes me think i have SI or something. i hope this reaches the right people just to know im not alone. Even when i do get better in the back of my mind it’s always “people who want to are the same a day before too” im genuinely scared and im scared one day im going to just snap and do it because its “too much” do i need to go to a mental hospital! i feel insane.
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I can't live with OCD anymore. It's ruining my life. I feel like I'm being constantly bullied in my own mind all day everyday. I don't know if what I think and feel is ever real or normal or okay, what is me and what is the OCD thoughts. I don't know if any of my experiences are normal. I'm exhausted from picking apart every single conversation I ever have with anyone until I'm strung out by a vague and ambiguous feeling of guilt. I'm tired of feeling like I'm a bad person and feeling scared all the time and not knowing why and having my brain spin me out on an endless spiralling train of thoughts that never goes anywhere and just makes me feel disconnected from everything and everyone around me. I don't know what I feel and if what I feel is normal or if anything I am doing is real and actually me or if I'm 'losing my mind.' I don't even know if this makes any sense. I get into these states of mind where every thought in my head and everything I feel and perceive makes me question my own sanity. I don't know if anyone likes me because I have absolutely no concept of what I am actually like. I feel completely lost and confused CONSTANTLY.
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