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Do you have a loved one you could reach out to right now? If you’re having any thoughts of suicide please reach out to a loved one or local hotline!! Please be safe and have compassion for yourself. Things are tough right now and even tougher with ocd, but that doesn’t mean this is incurable or going to last forever
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im talking to my friend and my boyfriend. mostly him because he makes me feel at ease the most. i know it isn’t incurable but i get scared cause a lot of people say it’s chronic
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@zoya I had really terrible ROCD but it did pass. I cried constantly, avoided my boyfriend, thought it was doomed. The clouds cleared and it got better. Please do not give in. OCD picked the wrong person to mess with and you’re going to show it up. It takes a lot of strength to even post on here and a lot of strength to admit you need help. Please keep using that strength to fight ocd, even if you think it’s taken all of you. It hasn’t. Have you ever heard the song rainbow by kacie musgraves? This is going to sound dumb as hell but I love listening to that song when I feel lost and hopeless
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@Immorethanocd How did you over come ROCD??
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@Jessica89 To be honest, it just kind of left one day when I got really anxious about taking a huge exam. Of course, I have a new theme now but I take the rocd fears much less seriously now once I got distance
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@Immorethanocd Can I ask what theme it moved to? I’ve had rocd before and it went away. This time it has just stuck
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@Jessica89 HOCD
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@Immorethanocd Which I’ve had in the past and seems to reappear every few months / years
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@Immorethanocd thank u so much. this means a lot
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I totally understand how you feel. I’ve been suffering from intrusive thoughts for 7 months ago (crazy!) and it always seems to go away for a while and then come back hard. There’s really no cure to make OCD go away completely, we can only learn not to pay attention to those intrusive thoughts and to know that they are just OCD not us. I used to feel a great passion to help people and to spend my life traveling around the world and helping those in need but my Harm OCD took that passion away from me. But I’m fighting to get it back. I don’t know how much you are going through, but I damn well know that if I can get back up then so can you. Let’s do this together, the whole OCD community. You’re not alone in this fight :) Also, if you ever feel like committing suicide please call the suicide hotline number: 1-800-273-8255
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thank u so much. i appreciate this a lot
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Hey Girl I also suffer from ROCD and have also had some dark times too. It’s a pretty horrible disorder but have been reading that it can get much better! The more you work on it (even using this app to do it), the better it can get. I know how heartbreaking it is and feel it too. It will get better
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thank u so much
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Hi Zoya! I can relate to what you’re going through. OCD is not an easy thing. I have memories of OCD going back to when I was probably five. Right now I’m going through a particularly hard time too. The last time I remember it being this bad was years and years ago. I want to say I was probably fourteen when my last terrible spell began to get better. I like to look back on that. It reminds me that if my awkward, goofy, teenage self could find it in her to take on high school and deal with OCD, then I can do it now- and so can you! It may feel impossible sometimes, but don’t let it blind you from realizing how much strength you have. It can get better. Truly. Have compassion for yourself. I think you’re doing the right thing leaning on friends. And please keep in mind the hotline number that SillyBilly posted. It shows strength to seek help & you are strong. xx Praying for you.
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thank u so much
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I suffer with HOCD mainly but have bouts of ROCD. This is a ruthless disorder.
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I feel like there’s no way out of this. everyday i’m anxious and depressed from these thoughts. i feel like i have to constantly question if it’s OCD or not. the panic attacks are insane and i freak out. and a compulsion i have is looking eveything up on the internet when im stressing to know that it’s just my OCD and im not in danger. but looking things up add on to my thoughts and i start thinking “what if” actual suidcal people think. do others with this theme whenever they do something like if im taking a picture it’ll be like “yeah you look happy people will wonder what happened when your gone” LIKE i DO NOT want to end my life. or even as simple as cleaning my room, “yup keep it clean so when your family goes through your stuff” then i panic and can’t even do anything. those thoughts distress me so bad. i’ll sit there and think how good my life is or when im having a good day my thoughts will be like “NOPEEE what if your just saying that to convince yourself” it never shuts up and genuinely makes me think i have SI or something. i hope this reaches the right people just to know im not alone. Even when i do get better in the back of my mind it’s always “people who want to are the same a day before too” im genuinely scared and im scared one day im going to just snap and do it because its “too much” do i need to go to a mental hospital! i feel insane.
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I can't stop thinking about ending my life. I feel like I'm not even living, I'm just surviving. Everyone is capable of being a person and functioning and I'm just stuck here avoiding everything. My psychiatrist said my ocd is severe and it will all take time and I'll start erp and I'm already on medication but I just feel so depressed and like I won't be able to handle erp and it's already too late for me. I feel inhuman, it's debilitating. My major theme is just fear or contamination, I can't even make myself a meal I can't touch anything in the kitchen. I get stuck in the shower for 2 hours and when I don't shower because I'm depressed I feel like a walking germ. My hands are a mess, my school work is shit, I avoid and avoid and I'm just so tired of "living" like this. My psychiatrist said they don't have any therapists available right now like.... excuse me? What do you mean u don't have any 😭 I honestly don't even know why I'm typing this becuase nothing helps, nothing ever will. I'm so deep into this I can't get out, my room looks like shit, I can't live in this body anymore, I really can't. I let everyone down, I am and will be such a dissapointment. I don't have any dreams or goals or passions I just wasn't made to be here. I don't know how or who to ask for help like there's nothing anyone can do, I'm already on meds. I can't keep being like this, seeing everyone judge me for acting insane.
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some days I wake up with so much dread and guilt. It makes it so hard to keep going. I open my eyes and I’m hit with a wave of nausea and terror. I feel ashamed of my compulsions and my OCD. I feel like a monster for my checking compulsions. For momentarily sexualizing things that shouldn’t be sexualized out of anxiety. I’m ashamed of a lot that I give into because of anxiety. Confessing things that are meaningless to my boyfriend. I feel so awful and unworthy of existing and of love. I feel hopeless I don’t want to keep pushing, the more I push the more meta my OCD becomes and the more guilt I feel for this mental illness. The more confusing it becomes to do ERP. If compulsions are a choice, they feel like life or death and it’s driving me insane, I beat myself up so badly over them I’m scared of compulsions, I’m scared of thoughts, I’m scared to be awake, I’m even scared of sleeping because my intrusions and compulsions haunt me there too. I spend my dreams trying to explain or justify my OCD and compulsions to people. I’m exhausted, I want this to stop so badly. My severe OCD isn’t feeling any less severe and it’s been months. I don’t want to keep questioning my every move but I’m so hyperaware of everything I do. I’m so tired. Some days I don’t even have tears to cry with. I’m just so full of despair and shame
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