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Its the same problem us straight people have who fear we are gay. We can all relate thats why its also called Sexual Orientation OCD it goes both ways
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True. I guess it’s important to remember that people posting here about their fears of being gay isn’t a personal attack it’s the OCD. Fear of being alienated I guess? But this is a supportive community so I shouldn’t let that stop me from talking abt it here.
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Talk about it! It will make u feel better. Definitely not an attack on being gay, i support the gay community i just cant stop the OCD fears
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Thanks! I will :)
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Hi im a lesbian!! Same!! Lmk if you wanna talk! I havent experienced my HOCD as intensely the past year but it used to be sooo bad and i totally know how you feel when i was first realizing what it was. But this is exactly my situation, im gay but worry about being attracted to men
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I would totally like to talk :) ! I hear people talking about “compulsive heterosexuality” (idk the more current term) online a lot and it seems to be the same thought process that people with HOCD have. I’ve known I was a lesbian for several years now but I’m closeted so I think that could be affecting things too. I have a question: how did you deal with intrusive thoughts about men?? I have a history of trauma and hypersexuality which makes a lot of my obsessions and compulsions very complicated, but one of the most irritating daily occurrences I experience is sexual intrusive thoughts about virtually everybody I interact with, especially my male therapist and male teachers/adults.
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@blackraspberry Yes, I totally think compulsive heterosexuality is part of it. I think almost every gay person feels the effects of that in some way - we were literally raised and conditioned to find the opposite gender attractive - but its hard for us, because OCD makes that mean a lot more than it should!! I find a lot of comfort in the fact that most people don’t take labels as seriously as people with HOCD, for example, its like how a lot of lesbians say they think Harry Styles is super attractive, but they don’t question their entire identity over it. It’s just a funny thing about their sexuality that exists and it helps lessen the pressure a little bit to know that a lot of lesbians feel this way. So I think trying to keep a light attitude about it helps a lot, because attraction is ultimately so hard to tease out when you put a microscope on it, OCD or not. And as for the intrusive thoughts, I totally know how you feel:( when my OCD was at its worst I could barely look at men without having really graphic sexual thoughts and then “checking” to see how they made me feel. Like i literally wouldn’t go out for fear of seeing men, and on the flip side of that, i’d even stalk guys on social media to try and figure out how i felt... obviously none of that avoidance or checking helped anything and just made it worse. Things started to get better for me when I recognized those OCD behaviors and tried to think about how someone without HOCD would react. Like my girlfriend, for example, is a lesbian but finds a lot of guys attractive and that just isn’t a big deal for her. I try to just channel that energy whenever I get triggered by a guy, so accepting the fact sexuality is complixated and that I could find him attractive and moving on. (Easier said than done, just saying that still triggers me even though its gotten a lot better!!) But overall, this helped a little bit with the intrusive images. I think more than anything just be gentle with yourself. Sexuality is super complicated and having OCD makes it almost impossible to accept that, but I’m trying to. I always wish things fit into nice labels and categories, but they don’t!! I say I’m a lesbian because for all intensive purposes I am, and it’s a simple way to portray myself to others, but it’s always gonna be a little more complicated than that, for gay and straight people alike. I think people without HOCD just don’t have think about it as deeply as we do. Now I’m rambling but I have so many thoughts on this hahahaha. Also reading the article “I think it moved” by steven j phillipson really was a turning point for me, i read it whenever i feel discouraged!! Definitely look at that if you have a chance.
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I’m a trans woman lesbian and my main obsession is the idea that I’m really a man and therefore not a dyke! It’s so, *so* hard, especially because the world at large constantly reinforces, runs on, the ideology that trans dykes, trans people in general, don’t exist! I have to bust my ass to defend myself & who I am, and then on top of that I have to deal with OCD telling me I’m living a lie. I feel for you!
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Welcome! It's totally okay to post here about your situation. It will help you so much and you'll see that you are not alone. You are no different to any of us here. The mechanism of OCD is the same for all, even if everyone's situation is different.
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