Mars
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MarsMars
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No I don’t really, what do they have in common?
MarsMars
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@Bob999 Majority of them yes none of them have come true yet youre right. Though I do have obsessions with deaths that have happened but that’s just life. And it’s hard to accept that it’s life.
DMD DMD
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I agree with Christine. Tell the therapist everything so you can get it off your chest what you’re going through. I would add this caveat though - if the therapist tries to help you figure out the why behind this, like maybe deep down you are a pedophile, then it’s the wrong therapist for you.
ThreeLittleBirdsThreeLittleB...
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Be very careful with what you say I’d start with the small stuff first and ask them to also do homework on ocd while you practice your homework. I had pocd for a while and received great treatment and the only thing I admitted to having was contamination ocd and fear of developing schizophrenia. You do not have to talk about the content of your thought you can simply say I deal with Guilt Shame Fear Intrusive thoughts that vary And anxiety That’s enough to get started
MarsMars
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I’ve been through many therapists who didn’t understand and bc of some past trauma it’s hard for me to trust therapists in general with anything, Because ocd is not the only thing I struggle with. I was in a day program for a while and the psychiatrist there was the best I ever had and he knew my ocd was ocd. But it was always very general. I’m always very cautious anyways but I wanna be able to talk to my therapists about ALL my problems, not just ocd but my bpd and my traumas as well and not feel fear.
Stronger. Stronger.
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I disagree with everyone warning you to be careful. I have an therapist who I tell everything to and I absolutely love. She's not specialized in OCD but it doesn't matter because these thoughts, even the horrible ones are just that, thoughts. Also, if you are in America look up OpenPath
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MarsMars
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They don’t take my insurance and I don’t have the money for that. I don’t have a job.
MarsMars
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Spoken to NOCD, my dad would never be able to have us afford 25-50 a week sessions. There’s an ocd specialist in my state and their prices are 100-300$.. they too don’t take insurance. I don’t have a job.. I have no other options.
Ania85Ania85
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@Mars See if you can talk to NOCD. I had scheduled a meeting with them and the therapist never showed up. They ended up decreasing the amount from $50 to $25
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MarsMars
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My biggest this week has been POCD. pocd, health ocd, contamination ocd, harm ocd. These are my biggest themes. But I’ve had every obsession under the sun and I can’t handle it anymore. I’ve had obsessions since I could remember like when I was 5 or something and would literally cry bc intrusive thoughts of my mom dying would pop in my head.
Stronger. Stronger.
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I don't think they will purposefully make you think you are a pedafile but yes, if they do, that's NOT the one for you. What is likely to happen is exploration of possible sexual trauma in the past. Our past often comes up to haunt us, and traumas manifest in all sorts of different ways. A good therapist will help you work through and understand all sorts of things.
MarsMars
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The thing is I’ve never had sexual trauma. I know the reason pocd bothers me bc of a dumb thing i did when I was 17. My actual trauma is all just having to grow up fast to take care of people.
Stronger. Stronger.
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@Mars I too had to grow up fast and take care of people. That put you in a mother position at a young age which might mean you care for children more than others. (I don't know the circumstances so I may be totally wrong.) Or perhaps what you think is horrible and disgusting was inprinting to be so at a young age. What I'm trying to get across is this thing that happened aat 17 didn't cause your OCD. It's just your current obsession.
figuringitalloutfiguringital...
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I am in a similar situation Mara. Something that happened to me around that age has caused my OCD, and I just told my therapist about my POCD yesterday. It’s a big relief! I’m still struggling but that’s one thing I can not worry about.
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Well I kindly disagree, these things aren't the causes of the OCD but rather the OCD manifesting itself in something you deeply care about. You love kids? Here you go: think of all the stupid stuff you've done in your past. It works like that with every theme. And my guess is that once you "confess" the thing that happened at a young age, you will feel better for a little bit but then another sexual mishap will come up.
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