- Username
- Mars
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I agree with Christine. Tell the therapist everything so you can get it off your chest what you’re going through. I would add this caveat though - if the therapist tries to help you figure out the why behind this, like maybe deep down you are a pedophile, then it’s the wrong therapist for you.
Be very careful with what you say I’d start with the small stuff first and ask them to also do homework on ocd while you practice your homework. I had pocd for a while and received great treatment and the only thing I admitted to having was contamination ocd and fear of developing schizophrenia. You do not have to talk about the content of your thought you can simply say I deal with Guilt Shame Fear Intrusive thoughts that vary And anxiety That’s enough to get started
I’ve been through many therapists who didn’t understand and bc of some past trauma it’s hard for me to trust therapists in general with anything, Because ocd is not the only thing I struggle with. I was in a day program for a while and the psychiatrist there was the best I ever had and he knew my ocd was ocd. But it was always very general. I’m always very cautious anyways but I wanna be able to talk to my therapists about ALL my problems, not just ocd but my bpd and my traumas as well and not feel fear.
I disagree with everyone warning you to be careful. I have an therapist who I tell everything to and I absolutely love. She's not specialized in OCD but it doesn't matter because these thoughts, even the horrible ones are just that, thoughts. Also, if you are in America look up OpenPath
I don't think they will purposefully make you think you are a pedafile but yes, if they do, that's NOT the one for you. What is likely to happen is exploration of possible sexual trauma in the past. Our past often comes up to haunt us, and traumas manifest in all sorts of different ways. A good therapist will help you work through and understand all sorts of things.
The thing is I’ve never had sexual trauma. I know the reason pocd bothers me bc of a dumb thing i did when I was 17. My actual trauma is all just having to grow up fast to take care of people.
@Mars I too had to grow up fast and take care of people. That put you in a mother position at a young age which might mean you care for children more than others. (I don't know the circumstances so I may be totally wrong.) Or perhaps what you think is horrible and disgusting was inprinting to be so at a young age. What I'm trying to get across is this thing that happened aat 17 didn't cause your OCD. It's just your current obsession.
I am in a similar situation Mara. Something that happened to me around that age has caused my OCD, and I just told my therapist about my POCD yesterday. It’s a big relief! I’m still struggling but that’s one thing I can not worry about.
Well I kindly disagree, these things aren't the causes of the OCD but rather the OCD manifesting itself in something you deeply care about. You love kids? Here you go: think of all the stupid stuff you've done in your past. It works like that with every theme. And my guess is that once you "confess" the thing that happened at a young age, you will feel better for a little bit but then another sexual mishap will come up.
So i was on a wait list for therapy and finally i have someone that can help me. I received a message from a therapist and i lost my shit. I started panicking and my brain is making up all sorts of terrible scenarios. For exemple, i have suicidal ocd and im terrified to potentially be suicidal. Welll my brain is telling me that the therapist will know that im suicidal and will make me go to the hospital. It makes me want to never get help because of all the scenarios. I dont know if its ocd. I want to cry, im so scared
I’ll be honest I am mostly overthinking it and some words of encouragement would be nice but I am just ranting my worst fears here. What if all my worst fears come true? What if she concludes that this is pedophilia and not ocd and I was just using ocd as an excuse? What if she says that I am crazy and that I’m gonna get locked up in a psych ward? What if she says that I was always a psychopath who got off to people being in pain? What if these pedophilia thoughts have always been here even though I really want them to go away it’s like I just can’t do it. I want these thoughts to lessen and I want my groinal responses and other bodily responses to go away and I want to live life and show love to everybody without thinking I have some ulterior motive. I’m hoping I can get my answers because I’m gonna be spending a lot of money that I don’t really have because my insurance won’t do me any favors. I hope everything will be okay.
i don’t understand what’s going on. All of the sudden i started having intrusive thoughts and I thought the “devil” had me and i was about to check myself into a mental hospital but then one of my friends who also has ocd told me that she has these too and i felt less alone. Then for like a day or two I was fine and then I went to therapy and was triggered (? idek) and the intrusive thoughts came back and now i’m even worse than I was before and I don’t even know what’s going on. I can’t figure it out and I can’t stop reading and posting on this dang app BECAUSE IM CONFUSED AND SCARED IM JUST SCARED and idk if this is reassurance seeking or what but I have my first therapy appointment with someone on here on wednesday but i’m scared that I won’t make it… Idk what’s going on and idek if I DO have ocd bc i haven’t been diagnosed
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