Mars

Date posted: 5y ago

I have an appointment with a therapist next week but it isn’t any specialized therapist so I’m just really hoping she knows about Ocd and subtypes of it. I feel I’m going insane. I’m paranoid as all hell and my YouTube recommended videos are triggering me and I’m scared people can see what I talk about or something and that’s why my YouTube recs are the way they are and my pocd is being triggered by them. I just want it all to go away.

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Date posted: 5y ago

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Mars

Date posted: 5y ago

No I don’t really, what do they have in common?

Mars

Date posted: 5y ago

@Bob999 Majority of them yes none of them have come true yet youre right. Though I do have obsessions with deaths that have happened but that’s just life. And it’s hard to accept that it’s life.

DMD

Date posted: 5y ago

I agree with Christine. Tell the therapist everything so you can get it off your chest what you’re going through. I would add this caveat though - if the therapist tries to help you figure out the why behind this, like maybe deep down you are a pedophile, then it’s the wrong therapist for you.

ThreeLittleB...

Date posted: 5y ago

Be very careful with what you say I’d start with the small stuff first and ask them to also do homework on ocd while you practice your homework. I had pocd for a while and received great treatment and the only thing I admitted to having was contamination ocd and fear of developing schizophrenia. You do not have to talk about the content of your thought you can simply say I deal with Guilt Shame Fear Intrusive thoughts that vary And anxiety That’s enough to get started

Mars

Date posted: 5y ago

I’ve been through many therapists who didn’t understand and bc of some past trauma it’s hard for me to trust therapists in general with anything, Because ocd is not the only thing I struggle with. I was in a day program for a while and the psychiatrist there was the best I ever had and he knew my ocd was ocd. But it was always very general. I’m always very cautious anyways but I wanna be able to talk to my therapists about ALL my problems, not just ocd but my bpd and my traumas as well and not feel fear.

Stronger.

Date posted: 5y ago

I disagree with everyone warning you to be careful. I have an therapist who I tell everything to and I absolutely love. She's not specialized in OCD but it doesn't matter because these thoughts, even the horrible ones are just that, thoughts. Also, if you are in America look up OpenPath

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Date posted: 5y ago

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Mars

Date posted: 5y ago

They don’t take my insurance and I don’t have the money for that. I don’t have a job.

Mars

Date posted: 5y ago

Spoken to NOCD, my dad would never be able to have us afford 25-50 a week sessions. There’s an ocd specialist in my state and their prices are 100-300$.. they too don’t take insurance. I don’t have a job.. I have no other options.

Ania85

Date posted: 5y ago

@Mars See if you can talk to NOCD. I had scheduled a meeting with them and the therapist never showed up. They ended up decreasing the amount from $50 to $25

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Date posted: 5y ago

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Mars

Date posted: 5y ago

My biggest this week has been POCD. pocd, health ocd, contamination ocd, harm ocd. These are my biggest themes. But I’ve had every obsession under the sun and I can’t handle it anymore. I’ve had obsessions since I could remember like when I was 5 or something and would literally cry bc intrusive thoughts of my mom dying would pop in my head.

Stronger.

Date posted: 5y ago

I don't think they will purposefully make you think you are a pedafile but yes, if they do, that's NOT the one for you. What is likely to happen is exploration of possible sexual trauma in the past. Our past often comes up to haunt us, and traumas manifest in all sorts of different ways. A good therapist will help you work through and understand all sorts of things.

Mars

Date posted: 5y ago

The thing is I’ve never had sexual trauma. I know the reason pocd bothers me bc of a dumb thing i did when I was 17. My actual trauma is all just having to grow up fast to take care of people.

Stronger.

Date posted: 5y ago

@Mars I too had to grow up fast and take care of people. That put you in a mother position at a young age which might mean you care for children more than others. (I don't know the circumstances so I may be totally wrong.) Or perhaps what you think is horrible and disgusting was inprinting to be so at a young age. What I'm trying to get across is this thing that happened aat 17 didn't cause your OCD. It's just your current obsession.

figuringital...

Date posted: 5y ago

I am in a similar situation Mara. Something that happened to me around that age has caused my OCD, and I just told my therapist about my POCD yesterday. It’s a big relief! I’m still struggling but that’s one thing I can not worry about.

Stronger.

Date posted: 5y ago

Well I kindly disagree, these things aren't the causes of the OCD but rather the OCD manifesting itself in something you deeply care about. You love kids? Here you go: think of all the stupid stuff you've done in your past. It works like that with every theme. And my guess is that once you "confess" the thing that happened at a young age, you will feel better for a little bit but then another sexual mishap will come up.

Freddy327

Date posted: 19w ago

Waiting for therapy

Hi everyone. I'm feeling kinda scared because I have to wait a whole month to start ERP therapy, but I feel like I need to start doing exposures now because the longer I wait, the more anxiety I get. It just feels like the OCD monster is getting worse. One thing that helps me is asking one person about an obsession I have...asking a person that I trust, and then doing an exposure after I get the "ok" to do it. I feel like I do need 1 reassurance and then I can go ahead and do it. I know i'm not supposed to ask for reassurance at all, but i dont think you're supposed to do ERP on your own right? Does anyone have any suggestions for what to do while waiting for therapy? PS-the reason there is a wait is bc she's on vacation. After she's back we will meet regularly.

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 8w ago

panicking so bad

I want to rip out my uterus. Only my hormones can make my OCD and ability to manage it go back to square one. I am spiraling *so* hard. I cannot breathe. My PMDD is going crazy. I’m having a panic attack again. I feel so scared. The POCD is going absolutely insane right now. It feels undeniably real, and my mind keeps drifting to those awful thoughts and what feels like exploring them?? but I can’t for the life of me stop some of these compulsions right now. I was trying to watch something to get my mind off of this but ended up getting triggered twice, so my anxiety is a 10 and I can’t seem to calm down. This panic attack is tuned all the way up.

allykayy

Date posted: 7w ago

PURE-O Attempting to Seek Help

I didn’t know this but my Pure-O began when i was around 11/12 years old with a violent thought to hurt someone I love. This thought brought me tears. I tried supressing it, “praying” it away, thinking good things, distracting myself etc. But this thought always came back to haunt me. It was on/off for about 13 years. Just this past week, I recently got an image/thought of hurting someone I love and it scares me. I use smart devices to track my sleep and exercise and both devices show that my heart rate is much beyond what it should be. I have had difficulty sleeping the past 3 nights with very little REM and deep sleep because of this thought. I’m worried this could cause me to spiral. I feel anxious all day because I’m trying to avoid thinking this thought, but it keeps coming back. I’m waiting to book a call with a NOCD to see what my options are. I hope I can get effective treatment. 🥺🫶🏻

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