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Except I have tried watching those type of tik toks but like I don’t know what are good thoughts to have while I’m doing it like I just perform compulsions in my head the whole time so I don’t know what to tell myself. Props to you though for getting yourself to do that!! Let me know how it goes after and I hope you are doing well
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Yea that doesn’t sit right with me and scared me a little bit more
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Instead of scrolling through many tiktoks, try watching the same one over and over. Pick an especially distressing one and watch it on repeat
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also another one i have is the fact that majority of girls who are bi, the ratio of girls to boy that they like is like 95:5 but they still acknowledge and know they they wouldn’t mind dating a guy but me i know that i’m still very boy crazy and i keep telling myself that i’m not bi cus of that and i can’t stop FUCK. erp is so scary and hard, i’m so scared that when this is done i’m gonna end up being bi and like girls more so then i can’t have a boyfriend and i’ll have to date girls and have sex with them even tho i really don’t want to. this feels lile conversion therapy ??
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@okaaaylisa Would you be willing to try ERP and acceptance on that fear?
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I feel the exact same way
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I’ll admit I don’t exactly.
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a little advice- if you don’t know what HOCD is, don’t comment under post about it you should educate yourself instead.
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@ocdear I’m working doing so now. I’m new to this app. Was trying to give some insight on my life to try to help someone who may need it. Unfortunately did more harm then good! Sorry about this guys.
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@kfisher83 that’s totally fine it just happens a lot to me and some people do it intentionally to trigger people. it’s happened to me many times so i get kinda defensive. it’s good that you’re educating yourself on it now
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@kfisher83 No it’s okay! We all make mistakes
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I think it's fine to give feedback that you don't experience something. People sometimes need reminded that their experience isn't everyone's experience (even within a "theme") and that is ok. All experiences are valid. My hunch is that people who have a strong negative reaction to someone saying their experience is different were hoping everyone would say "yes, I have that too" and relieve the person's distress temporarily
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@NOCD Advocate - Katie +1 on that. Saying you haven't had that experience or have a different experience may be triggering to some but it's not doing something wrong and doesn't mean they're ignorant.
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Yeah I avoid going on tik tok for that same reason I used to love it but now it’s just triggering me all the time . I saw this one tik tok was about a guy coming out it said “ I always thought I was ugly , but I just realized I’m not my type “ it’s stuck in my head now. I’ve lost attraction to the opposite sex literally except for my boyfriend. I used always have crushes and think boys were cute but not anymore:(
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I have been doing okay for the past week or so and was really happy i felt that i was getting back on track, but today i went on tiktok and i saw something triggering which was “i thought i was a lesbian for 4 years until i met my now boyfriend” and it triggered me very badly, i have been crying all day and i can’t seem to make myself feel okay. i feel like im lying to myself that im not lesbian and i truly want men, but when i get any thought about men it feels disgusting and wrong and not me, i don’t want men i feel so sick i want to get out of this. i always felt so happy as a lesbian im so stuck i don’t want to be with a man. i have a loving girlfriend i just want to be happy with her.
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i had recently been triggered to have so-ocd. its been on my mind non-stop. (i am a heterosexual female) and my mind has been all over the place questioning if i have been in denial the entire time. ive always had people tell me they sort of got that vibe it it never really affected me until my own mother had her suspicions. so i would constantly get triggered un public around the same gender, while knowing my true sexuality. ive always been attracted to men but as of recently ive been having super bad anxiety to where i cannot eat or sleep and feel weak all the time. it was like that for a week or so. now im in the calm where i have been trying accept the uncertainty but it still isnt fair as im getting triggered. im a little worried because it feels like i have been lying to my parents the entire time although ive never had the desire to be with the same gender. and i keep getting intrusive thoguhts that make me feel anxious and uncomfortable. its all starting to affect my friendships as im constantly getting triggered with the intrusive thoguhts. i feel a little less anxious compared to how i was a couple days ago. im really scared on why im having these thoughts now when i have been having romantic feelings for a guy the past year or so. ive also been struggling with false attraction and loss attraction to men. it makes me feel uncertain of my life the entire time
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Hey guys, this last week has been pretty rough for me mentally for some reason. Today in particular I’m having a pretty bad episode. For some reason about 30 minutes ago, I randomly started remembering watching the Step Up movies growing up. I remember seeing Channing Tatum in that movie and think he’s attractive, along with some other men I think. Then I started to wonder if that means that I’m into men, because I somewhat remember getting a negative feeling about it from that young age. I looked up on Google if it’s possible to not realize your gay, and the ai thing said yes and started talking about something called latent homosexuality. It also so said that some people start sleeping with a particular before ever actually discovering their sexuality. This makes me want to take a panted homosexual test, or something. Lately I’ve also been wanting to dive into my past with my therapist to try to see where my “ocd” stems from (if I even have it) or if I’m truly gay and have just be conditioned to be straight. I’ve been spiralling guys and I need was honesty and wisdom. Can anybody help me ?
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