I’m so terrified of being called out as a disgusting person and I haven’t even done anything to my knowledge but I’m still terrified. I don’t find kids attractive at all! It disgusts me to even think about!! So why am I so scared? I’m scared of telling certain friends I’d trust about pocd and them thinking I’m a pedo. It’s terrifying.

Yeah! I used to have someone I told everything to but ever since we fell apart my ocd has been through the roof and I haven’t known who to trust since. Especially bc of call out culture and stuff. It’s hard because so many people don’t understand ocd, I even know some people who have ocd but don’t understand it a lot bc they don’t realize there’s a LOT of different themes like pocd and such. So it’s hard to figure out who I trust and who I don’t. And my ocd just feeds on that.

@Mars What drives you to tell people? Like, it's ok to tell some people and not others. That's good boundaries in a way

@NOCD Advocate - Katie I guess apart of it IS compulsion. Like admitting guilt. But sometimes I guess I just feel alone? It’s hard to really explain I don’t quite understand it completely myself.

@Mars That's ok. You're doing your best and that is good enough

How would I test it? My friends are literally extremely into twitter and will call you out over anything. I really don’t wanna put my livelihood on the line just to test my ocd.

@Mars I mean, you know your friends best. I would hope that if you said,"this is serious and I don't want you bringing it up in public" they would respect that.

@NOCD Advocate - Katie I guess because of trauma I just have serious trust issues. I do have friends I CAN go to to talk about this and they wouldn’t judge me. But the ones that would I always fear of finding out. I actually told a friend the other day and I was terrified but they think they have ocd dealing with emeto and understood how I felt and said I wasn’t a pedo which I know is reassurance but I more so was just relieved they saw it as ocd.

@NOCD Advocate - Katie I guess in my mind, if they wouldn't respect that request, the bigger, valid problem is that they have poor boundaries and you can't trust them to keep private conversations private. OCD may be latching onto that, but at it's core, that isn't an OCD problem

@NOCD Advocate - Katie I think what sucks about it is they trust me to talk about things with their issues but I can’t trust them.