garden
- Date posted
- 5y
garden garden
- Date posted
- 5y
Thank you all so much. You’re so lovely and have honestly given me some hope ? It’s a dark time but it won’t be forever. I hope you’re all well too.
ColorColor
- Date posted
- 5y
I’m really sorry. I have religious OCD, which has some similarities with morality OCD. I used to self punish in the past too. I’ve found that resisting the urge to punish myself made my bad thoughts less frequent. The more I fed the OCD by punishing my thoughts through self frustration or rituals, the more bad thoughts I had. Although, I know that’s easier to see in retrospect. And don’t hesitate to use the suicidal hot line if needed. It’s always okay to ask for help. Praying for you ❤️
ColorColor
- Date posted
- 5y
1-800-273-8255 suicide hotline number- just incase you ever need to talk to someone (:
sillybilly sillybilly
- Date posted
- 5y
Humans aren’t perfect. Life is not one happy story you read in books. You have to accept that. I too have traits I don’t like, but it is what it is. I am who I am, can’t change that. So we just gotta learn to live with it instead of hating it. Love yourself before try you love others.
LinaLina
- Date posted
- 5y
I'm sorry you're feeling that way. Im in the same boat too and it sucks. Ocd wants to try to ruin everything for us because that is its goal. I'm doing my best today to not respond to the thoughts as it makes it worse and are thoughts and feelings become more muddled.
garden garden
- Date posted
- 5y
Sorry guys I don’t mean to bother. I just feel like you’ll maybe understand most. Half of me wants to ‘get prettier’ (lose a little weight and tidy myself up a bit) so I can be more confident and self assured. But the other half wants to cling onto my insecurities as they’re proof I’m not a narcissist. I’m so clouded rn about what to do because of my OCD and I don’t know what would be best. I’ve always wanted to look prettier, but not excessively of course. I never want to feel like I’m better than other people. I just want to be more confident, and love myself, so I can love others too.
ColorColor
- Date posted
- 5y
Not a bother. I get this. I feel like clouded is a good word to describe it. It’s okay to love yourself, in whatever way that may be. It is hard to separate ocd thoughts from real thoughts, but you aren’t your ocd. None of us are.
garden garden
- Date posted
- 5y
@Color You’re right. I just don’t know what step to take. I don’t want to ever be self obsessed, but I do want to feel prettier! And I think in such a black and white way...
ColorColor
- Date posted
- 5y
@garden :) I get that. Me also. It is very hard for me to accept that there is a grey area. Maybe start slow? You could try thinking of self love/care as ERP. So maybe pick something small like doing your nails or something fun with your hair (whatever is small to you). Then, when you feel like you can successfully do that without your compulsions (especially the mental ones if you’re like me), try stepping it up. I know that’s way easier said than done, but I have to remind myself that starting, even if I fail for awhile, is a step in the right direction.
ColorColor
- Date posted
- 5y
@Color Also- I once read something that said, helping people with OCD is helping people to trust their own conscience & it sort gave me a goal to work for that made sense
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