hate_ocd.123
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pureolifepureolife
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The idea of “internalized homophobia” is something most people with HOCD end up discovering during their research compulsions and almost everyone freaks out about it when they do. It’s a really challenging concept for that OCD theme. It’s totally normal that it triggered you so much. And it’s okay to feel scared and unsure right now. Try to avoid any further compulsions and just sit with the uncertainty of it all: maybe you’re in denial because of internalized homophobia.. or maybe you just have OCD and this is a common trigger and reaction you’re experiencing right now given that you have this mental health issue.. you don’t/can’t know for sure. And you don’t need to. Don’t test yourself to “figure it out.” Just let yourself be unsure and go back to your normal day. Let the anxiety you have be there for as long as it needs and let it pass on its own time. Be extra kind to yourself in the mean time. I’m so sorry you’re feeling awful right now. I know your suffering is very real and my heart goes out to you.
AnonymousAnonymous
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It's just the hocd playing games with your mind. All ocds love playing with your mind.
Mike_dMike_d
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Watcha got
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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I’m crying so much rn
Mike_dMike_d
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@hate_ocd.123 What’s wrong?
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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I just read internalized homophobia is self loathing of someone who is gay, lesbian, bisexual or trans and does not want to be Like I don’t think there is anything wrong with being gay my best friend is bi and in my mind it’s just two people of the same gender dating like what’s wrong with that I don’t understand that hate towards them But now I’m freaking out that I just have it with myself cause I don’t want to be gay and I can’t distinguish if I enjoy these thoughts or not I want to be with a guy but I feel like I can’t and I just wanna cry ? I’m crying because I don’t want to be lesbian but feel like I am
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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@Carbon96 Idk if I’m gay I just don’t want to be with a girl and I genuinely don’t want a girl to lay on me and I feel so much more comfortable with a thought of a guy. Like I force myself to think about girls to test and check and I feel so uncomfortable but then I get anxious that I’m forcing that uncomfort and I hate it
Mike_dMike_d
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@hate_ocd.123 Listen, if you were homophobic.. you’d hate them. Despise them, doesn’t sound like that’s the issue, just sounds like you are stressing out... take a deep breath, and do something you enjoy, i Can see feom what you’re saying you’re not homophobic, i think everyone with this kind of suffering is far from being that, but I’m here if you need to talk. Times like this i kinda wish we could privately message people ?
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