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I completely understand. It feels as if we are what we think we are. After all, we have “solid evidence” that backs up our OCD’s claims, correct? It’s extremely difficult to have self compassion when the feelings of guilt and shame envelop you. We must forgive ourselves, admit that we are human and we inevitably make mistakes but they do not determine who we are as a person. We must look ahead and proceed to live life. Take care
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It’s so draining. But if you learn to have some self compassion I promise you will be able to get past whatever it is you’re thinking about
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is it normal to want to seek external validation for what i did? like, to tell certain people i love what i did,, to somehow get approval... even though i know what i did was wrong and horrible. It’s hard keeping it in, but i never want to confess. i don’t want to see it as a “confession” either. but.. idk.. it’s eating me away at this point
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@AlwaysHere It is very normal to want external validation
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@Itz Thank you! It’s so draining. I have to keep reminding myself I am not my past actions.
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@AlwaysHere My pleasure, and know this too. You are not you're worst moments and they do not define you.
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Can real event be something you did repeatedly? Or is it usually a one time thing that you feel guilty about doing
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It’s either. For me it’s both. I have something I did repeatedly, but stopped doing. And I have one that I did once, that I have overwhelming guilt for.
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@AlwaysHere I have the exactly the same but honestly talking about it did help however when I went down the rabbit hole of coffensing to my family I ended up thinking of more and more to confess to even if it wasn't bad or relavent
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@Itz I don’t tnink i’ll ever be able to confess, honestly. That’s too terrifying for what i did. I’d rather just keep it to myself, and learn to deal with the guilt.
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@AlwaysHere I understand that, good luck :)
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Yeah self compassion is key. I've told people in my life so I feel better but at the time I would just confess the lies of what the OCD feelings make me feel I must have done (way overblown). As sunflowers said, you have to stop trying to figure out how bad it was. For me that's what led into me thinking I did 100x worse even though that was delusional. I'm glad to feel much less guilt and confusion than I did back then. It only started to get any better once I did self compassion, and ERP/emotional processing to ruminate about it less. Accurate realisations of "how bad" it was and the actual facts of what I was responsible for Vs not came later.
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Hey, I wanted to message you again. Is there anyway we can chat? Like on skype, or email, or anything?
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Oh god yes it is exhausting
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Yesssss! I’ve done things in the past to ppl and now that I think about it, it’s not even that bad. But for some reason my mind is blowing it out of the water and making me feel like the person is going to get revenge on me. And I’ve just been feeling regret and anxiety bc I don’t know what’s real and what’s not
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I struggle with looking back at a past social media interaction and thinking catastrophically. It’s the worst because I’ve deleted my account and can’t go back and check.. which of course my OCD wants to do. It gets to the point where I’m scared something is going to come out and I’ll get arrested one day. It’s so scary! I feel like I don’t know what’s real and what’s not anymore.
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17f I have a lot of events, but my main and my worst one which is absolutely fucking diabolical was done when I was 14 and repeated when I was 16. Everytime I post something about real event ocd here people are like you are probably didn't do anything that bad, and when they hear what I did they are like yeah that's bad. Someone even asked me if I'm autistic cause "it's crazy how you didn't realize that the thing ypu were doing was wrong at this age." And I kinda agree, like it's fucked up It's just that my event is bad. Doesn't mean I don't have real event ocd. You can have a reocd over the event that was bad, it doesn't mean the event wasn't that bad or you don't have recod. It's just people always expect it to be something innocent and it's not Even a healthy person would feel guilty over it, it's just that I had ocd my whole life and it's making the guilt absolutely destructive, like to the point when I sometimes have a hard time breathing when I think about it, I lost more than a year of life to it, almost checked myself out couple of times if I wasn't so scared of pain/failure, the event haunts me in my dreams, it's in my head 24/7 and I will never able to forgive myself. That ocd. But the event itself was bad. So maybe i deserve it.
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