For the record I’m positive on some of my posts here because I can help people on here more than I can help myself. If therapist’s can’t help me than I’m pretty much fucked but I figured I’d help people on here who aren’t as fucked as me. Also I am more fucked than anyone on here if you’d like to compare go ahead I’ll win every time. Face your OCD like it’s a bully. Agree with the ass hole and eventually it will stop. Don’t over do your erp and don’t do erp without seeing a therapist and letting them guide you through it first. My therapist’s messed me up because they saw I wasn’t having anxiety and knew I was doing erp on my own already and instead of telling me to stop they were hoping it would just get me anxiety eventually but that never happened and now it’s fucked me for who knows how many yrs if I even last for a few yrs. don’t do erp on your own until your therapist has guide you through it till you can do it on your own. It will stop but don’t do anything on your own. Hope this helps you all in your recovery.

No it won’t I’ve tried. My ERP is Erp/compulsions so it doesn’t matter anymore. Unlike you I have no one to get better for. My own family thinks I’m a lost caused. I have no loved ones to cheer me on. All I have is myself. I no longer have anxiety over killing myself so it’s just a choice whether I do it or not. It’s not how I want my life to be but it’s my reality right now.

@bufferthanyou You can’t get better for other people. You have to do it for yourself. That goes for all of us, people with and without support systems, not just you. I’m sorry you’ve had a bad experience with therapy so far. Doing ERP on your own is difficult. But doing it wrong for awhile won’t ruin your chances of ever recovering. Once you do start doing it correctly, it still works. I understand that life is very hard for you right now. And I’m sorry you’re feeling defeated. Many people struggle to get anxious during ERP. Often times it’s because people tell themselves things like “this is just therapy homework, it’s not real.” If you’re not making progress with your current therapist, and you’ve given them adequate time to make progress (most people don’t see noticeable differences with ERP until 2-3 months in —And full recovery takes 6+ months) then you should try a new therapist. I’m not sure what you mean by your ERP is ERP/compulsions but if you’d like to share more about your experience with ERP, people may be able to offer advice on how to make it more effective. Hang in there!

I wasn’t asking for a long story — and understanding your entire history with OCD is up to you and your therapist. I was just saying that if you wanted to provide an example of an exposure exercise you’ve maybe struggled with, others might be able to offer advise. But you don’t seem open to the idea of improving your situation right now. Good luck!

@pureolife I haven’t struggled with erp. I over did my erp which is what got me in this mess. What don’t you understand about that? I have a constant arousal 24/7 which doesn’t go away. Yes I know it’s caused by my OCD but there isn’t anything I can do about it since I fucked up my thoughts. Your advice just angers me it doesn’t help. And ending your comment with a good luck doesn’t help it’s a cop out. Don’t start commenting on someone’s post you’ve never spoken with before.

@bufferthanyou I’m sorry you’re in so much pain right now. Overdoing ERP can be an awful experience, and you’re not alone in dealing with this. But it will not permanently prevent you from recovery. I understand that you do not want advise from me, or perhaps anyone. But I hope you find someone who you do want to listen to who can help. I genuinely wished you luck, and still do. I know how hard this illness is to deal with. Unfortunately, the nature of this app is to have strangers comment on your posts. While I can stop commenting here after this, you will likely experience other comments from people you have never spoken to you if you choose to keep posting. Perhaps a closed support group would better suit your needs and preferences.

@pureolife Sorry my emotions are messed up with my medication that I’ll have to stop after today. I’m not afraid of OCD which is sort of my issue. Wow that came back to me full circle smfh haha. I’ve never been afraid of anything in my life and when I’m off medication I purposely drink caffeine to bring the the stupid thoughts and if it weren’t for this stupid ass pandemic I would’ve quieted my thoughts more to make my life more comfortable. The only thing with the caffeine is it makes me depressed. The reason I went on medication is I saw I was starting to have anxiety in a group setting that I never had anxiety for and it made me take a deep breath and cry a bit and I erp it because I didn’t want it to bother me but it made me really piss because I couldn’t do it again to be like fuck you bitch. That was the reason why I decided to take meds again.