I have obsessions about my appearance that I am ugly. I check my face in the mirror and seek reassurance from others. I am constantly comparing myself to my friends and thinking they’re so beautiful and I am disgusting. It’s so hard to not hate myself when I feel like this :(

A hard but effective approach: say to yourself i am too ugly to compete with others so i will give up and stop it.

That sounds like body dysmorphia. Comparing and checking and asking for reassurance are definitely OCD symptoms. I wonder if you could potentially reduce your fear of being ugly by looking at some of the ideas and consequences you're attaching to being ugly. I suspect that if you could get the idea of it to have a bit less emotional pull on you, it would help you to feel a bit safer to not do those compulsions. And as you stop the compulsions, the worry is on your mind a lot less and you can even be open to more clearly seeing things which are nice about the way you look. You don't have to love yourself, you can start with just trying to tolerate yourself a bit. Maybe you're not the WORST, yeah? Self compassion is a lot better than self esteem, because it's not dependent on anything. So that means saying nice things to yourself about how you can still have a whole life and would be plenty worthwhile if you were ugly. Self tolerance can develop into a promise to be on your own side more often against judgmental and harsh thoughts.

I totally get that. I often have felt the same. Just remember, those thoughts are ugly. You are beautiful.

You are beautiful

Maybe my comment was a little too progressive. Try to continue without spending any more time thinking about how you look. I know the people telling you that you are beautiful try to help you, but they don't. They give you Relief in the short term but later on you will need more reassurance. Its Like a drug. You need more and more of it. You have to become independent of idea whether you are beautiful or not and consequently of the reassurance from others that you are not ugly.

You have to be aware that this is ocd/bdd. You could be the most beautiful girl in the world and Miss universe, you would still find something to feel ugly. That is unfortunately in nature of the ocd Game. The only way to win the game is not to play it.

Yes, it's the pure evil.