I believe I have a personality disorder (or multiple personality disorders) in addition to OCD. Of course this is a huge trigger for me as it plays into my fear of long term suffering as well as being inflicted with something that is commonly corresponded with violence and lack of empathy as well as lack of treatment options. Anyone have any experiences with having a personality disorder as well as OCD? What has helped you? What have you learned works best as far as treatment goes.

Thank you so much for sharing your story. It sounds like you’re being very honest with yourself and it’s clear you have an idea of the path to take! You got this :) if you get time, could you explain what DBT is? Not sure I’ve heard of it

@electrolove DBT is dialectal behavioral therapy which was originally created for people with borderline. It’s similar to cognitive behavioral therapy but a bit more harsher I guess? I’m not sure how to describe it.

@Mars Oops. My comment deleted. Thank you for that info! I need to research it more, it sounds interesting. Has it helped at all? A lot of my fears also revolve around lack of empathy (I’m really good at numbing myself however in times of stress so it’s hard to discern between the two,) as well as meeting a lot of the criteria for avoidant personality disorder

@electrolove I haven’t sat down and done it fully yet but I’ve done some dbt skills and they do help. Things like mindfulness and reasoning. I know that feeling though the fear of feeling no empathy. Sometimes I can’t cry anymore when stressful things happen and it makes me think I didn’t care. And sometimes I feel numb now. Sometimes I even fear of being a narcissist or a sociopath and it drives me up a wall.

@Mars I also have trouble crying, and that bothers me too. Sometimes I feel I’d feel better if I were able to cry. Could be due to the medicines I’m on however as well. I too have the fear of narcissism and sociopathy. Mine is more rooted in harm OCD though as I don’t necessarily see a problem in the disorders themselves but the fact that they are often corresponded with violence and manipulation, etc. That’s not the kind of person I want to be!

@electrolove That’s true- and I think that’s where it leads for me as well. With my BPD I WAS manipulative a lot in the past and I hurt my ex best friend of 10 years a LOT. I made a lot of mistakes and I regret them bc I never wanted to be that way. I never wanted to hurt her. So it’s definitely a struggle with figuring out how to have normal relationships without bpd and ocd pushing me away in fear of hurting people again.