Hey everyone! As you all know, hocd goes through phases with a variety of different symptoms. Currently, I'm in the "I am bored" phase where I don't feel like I care anymore and I feel unbothered. However, I still get intrusive thoughts and sometimes anxiety attacks. Here's a link that will hopefully support you: https://www.scribd.com/doc/215149439/HOCD-What-It-is-and-What-to-Do-About-It

Yeah sometimes I get freaked out or triggered like earlier. However, rarely anything triggers me. It's like I don't care anymore but I really do care. The feelings is odd but once you get to this phase, you'll understand. It's a big relief but at the same time, your thoughts are still there and can be convincing sometimes.

Going through this right now and it sucks.

I feel this exactly

@takingmylifeback I've been suffering from hocd for 2 years now. And this article described it the best I've ever read. It's crazy how accurate some of the things are described.

i’d say i’m at a 2 or 3

I do too! It's so confusing, but we'll get through this :)

Since you're in the bored phase, do you feel like you are your thoughts sometimes? And feel unbothered and bothered at the same time even if you don't have anxiety.

@hocd sucks no haha. I know 100% that it is not me and just OCD. Yet I still have mental compulsions and they’re all mostly avoiding ones. I feel like I’m almost free yet I’m being held back

@Ultimatelyumi I'm back to the spiked phase. Now, I'm convinced I'm ---- ugh :/

@hocd sucks hey man, the same goes for me. I'm starting to go back to believe that I am actually really gay. But this time, I'll try to hold back all the compulsions and just accept the thought. I will not convince myself of anything but I will just accept this. Just for a change.

@Jayro Do experience any anxiety?

@hocd sucks Currently, a little bit but it is mostly doubting that comes into my mind that could lead to some distress.

@Jayro Same here! I felt so unbothered a few days ago but these thoughts came rushing down after I read something triggering.

For me the phase "scared of being scared" is the worst ?

Feel like my OCD is edging into the bored stage now. More and more I find myself in moments where the thoughts really don’t bother me. It’s becoming easier to separate my thoughts from my actual sexual desires. However, I’m having problems with sleep now, once I sleep for a lil I’m woken up by high anxiety and bare thoughts. Sometimes I’m just attacked by anxiety like something is wrong. Any tips on how you dealt with this particular issue? And thanks for that article really gave me a lot of confidence today.

@sam_ob Music is really helpful for me & watching comedies. I have to get out of bed sometimes as the anxiety is so high but its always at night it is worse.

@maya1090 Yeah they are horrible at night for me too. Wake up feeling like everything is a lie. Thanks a lot I enjoy comedies and music a lot so I will use that tonight.