Hello! It’s my first time using this app. About to get really personal. I’ve struggled with OCD for a long as I can remember. Picking at the skin around my nails, having “scary thoughts.” After I moved out, my OCD seemed easier to manage for a while. However, a year and a half ago I was rapped. Ever since that night, the OCD has come back and is so much worse. Being raised Catholic, my intrusive thoughts center around the fact that I am no longer “pure”. I know that what happened to me is not my fault, but my OCD loves convincing me otherwise. Sometimes it’s almost like PTSD where I have flashbacks to that night. Any suggestions?

Are you seeing therapy? I would recommend going to an anxiety disorder clinic that can help you through the OCD and PTSD you seem to be experiencing. Much love ❤️

@Riley Elizabeth don’t let a bad therapist discourage you there are some amazing ones out there, and it can be hard to go through a trauma alone

I’ve experienced therapists and other people who have made my experience feel trivial too and it’s such a shitty feeling. But this stuff isn’t trivial that you’re dealing with. You deserve support. I had many, many therapists before I found one I connected with but it was so worth it and she has completely changed my life and helped me through it all. I’m sending you love and blessings! You are pure no matter what. Nothing in this world can EVER change that. Your heart is pure and remains untouched by the external world.

I completely understand you. I have experienced it too. I remember vividly the night it happened and I was just happy to be alive, but now I get flashbacks. My OCD and other illnesses (though I wasn’t officially diagnosed with it at the time) started to consume my life shortly after that. Before that night I had mild case of OCD. Don’t let anyone make you feel belittled. It’s not trivial. You survived trauma and it’s natural that you are suffering from it. Don’t give up on finding a therapist. Maybe look for someone who specializes in domestic violence/ rape and PTSD. If not maybe you can contact one of those rape survivor hotline and get a recommendation to a therapist in your area? You need someone who will listen to you with compassion and sympathy. I talked about my problems with my ex and though I still have flashbacks, I manage it better. If you want to talk in private let me know. Sometimes just talking about it helps. Lots of love ?

@TabbyKitty I went to see a therapist a few times but she almost made my problems seem trivial... almost as though they weren’t worth her time. Been considering reaching out to a new one, but was kind of discouraged from my first experience.