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The "as I suspected, they had slept together" doesn't sit right with me. It's like you're implying she was lying about her intentions, rather than considering that her intentions changed after you broke it off. You're right that she made no commitment to you that she could've broken and that you need to take responsibility for your hurt feelings. They happen sometimes in life. It doesn't need to be anybody's fault or due to anybody's selfish intent or failure, and the fact it upsets you still isn't an indication that there's actually anything wrong that needs fixing. It's an indication that you feel upset, and that's ok. Let yourself feel upset about it sometimes without trying to fix it or draw conclusions from it. Accept that she isn't perfect, she's human and can and will fall short of your ideals, otherwise any imperfection during the relationship has the potential to become intolerable for you. So my advice is to work on the black and white thinking about her: it doesn't need to be "she betrayed me, I should leave her" vs "she did nothing wrong, she's amazing and I need her". Consider points between those extremes. Also often if we are quite nitpicky about other people's mistakes it can be because we are perfectionistic and need to work on our own self-compassion and tolerance of ourselves before we can extend those to others. You don't need to know the exact answer of every thought and consideration she had during that whole time, and you can't know. There are ways to make it bother you less, like working on the black and white thinking, processing your feelings about it in your body and avoiding compulsions, and focusing on the here and now of your relationship and developing trust within it which you can rely on and which is real.
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This response was really helpful and it’s nice to hear an objective opinion on the subject. I’m more frustrated at myself at this very moment because of how avoidable all of this could have been had I just listened to her. I guess at the time, obviously her telling me her ex came me down was the catalyst to why we stopped but she also confessed she didn’t have feelings for me and it was only friendship. So whilst it was wrong for me to assume the worst of her without believing her, I guess I also saw no point in continuing sleeping with each other if I had feelings and she didn’t if that makes sense. I’ve only recently realised that I have ROCD as I haven’t been in a serious relationship in my adulthood so it’s all very new to me; but I’ve read up on it and it seems this sense of ‘perfectionism’ you mentioned seems to be a big factor for many people who have ROCD. Your advice was very helpful and constructive and I thank you for taking your time to hear me out and reach out your hand to help. I’ve only recently found this app but gives me a sense of security knowing that I’m not all alone in this constant battle with ocd and it’s good that people on this app are able to help each other and relate to each other, thanks once again.
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