I was doing well, and I just switched my medication *dont worry I spoke with my psychiatrist today* but since I switched I feel awful. I feel just like I did before I started taking medication. My boyfriend and I just started dating, but as I was switching medications we had a little falling out/few days where we needed to work some stuff out. So as I started feeling worse mentally him and I were also having issues so I might be associating the two. And now we are fine and I know that I love him and want to be with him, but I still feel this extreme anxiety, heaviness in my throat and chest, and unevenness in my body. It’s making me think that this is a sign the relationship won’t work out, or deep down I really might not like him or want to be with him/he looks at me differently after this fight or how much this OCD can affect us && he is going to leave me...but that’s not how I feel at all. I think it’s just the chemical switch up is affecting me and these thoughts are my ocd and not how I actually feel. But then I’m like “but what if this is how you actually feel and you’re just suppressing and avoiding it?” Or “what if the reason you feel these feelings in the first place is because you know that this isn’t it but you’re avoiding being alone or dealing with it?” BUT THATS NOT HOW I FEEL!!! But when I think it, It breathes life into it and I still entertain the possibility that these thoughts are how I truly feel/are real. It’s all encompassing, over whelming, and scary. I just want this to work, be confident in myself and the relationship, and not allow OCD to push him away or drive me to ruin this relationship. :(