sanš»
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tolandkmtolandkm
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I feel the same way at the moment. I was doing so well early on in the week, and even started to regain my attraction to men again. However, my hocd latched onto my best friend and now I dont feel straight anymore. Itās upsetting because now I feel that I wonāt ever find a boyfriend because my hocd has convinced me that im in love with my best friend (which Iām not) and canāt date any guys because of it.
sanš»sanš»
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Same. I just feel so gay. I cried but I don't know for what... Like my mind I'd a mess. I can't think rationally. I feel like I wanna be gay and bisexual but I'm repressing. I feel like I actually do like girls but I'm repressing. Like I remember before hocd, how much I loved guys!! Sexual and romantic fantasies about them made me happy. I can't imagine s guy's face and it irritates and distresses me which makes me feel like I'm distressed at the thought of guys ugh
tolandkmtolandkm
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@sanzida? Same here. Loved fantasizing about men but now I canāt. It sucks
sanš»sanš»
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@tolandkm I know. Ngl I kind of feel like I could be biromantic but then I get worried that I'm only attracted to girls because I wanna be into guys like before
AnonymousAnonymous
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I do, mines even worse because I literally feel nothing anymore for men, but I get all these responses towards women, and itās never happened like this before.
sanš»sanš»
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Same!!
starry duckstarry duck
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It manipulates you, I feel the same way!!! This article has helped me so much: https://ocdla.com/doubt-denial-ocd-5342
sanš»sanš»
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Thank you for this. But you know I got s thought...what if I do like girls and I'm just choosing to not acknowledge it though I don't enjoy the thoughts? It's scaring me a little
starry duckstarry duck
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@sanzida? Same, it's like "you had girl crushes before" etc. I'm pretty sure i never felt any romantic attraction to a girl before but my ocd is telling me i'm lying :/ ugh
sanš»sanš»
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@stars Same but I once did wonder what's it like but j felt weird afterwards. Do your thoughts ever tell you like "ugh you're gonna miss out on girls"? And then you feel a bit guilty?
starry duckstarry duck
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@sanzida? same!! sometimes i think about a future with my crush and ocd tells me that i'll never be truly happy with a boy.
sanš»sanš»
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@stars Me too,. Every night i imagine about my crush but then I feel like I'm forcing myself but I genuinely want it!!
starry duckstarry duck
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@sanzida? me too!! before this, i daydreamed normally without the forced feeling
sanš»sanš»
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@stars Same!!!? I wish I could do that again ?
sanš»sanš»
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@stars Could I talk to you about something? I'm a little worried
starry duckstarry duck
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@sanzida? sure! my reddit is driveby3
sanš»sanš»
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@stars I don't use Reddit because if triggers :(. Do you have insta? I'm sorry for being pathetic
sanš»sanš»
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@stars Oh thank you so much!! ?
mentowillnessmentowillness
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whatās compulsory heterosexuality
sanš»sanš»
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It's when a gay person forces themselves to be straight though they aren't comfortable
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