AdamRoyale
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san🌻san🌻
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Yes mine started in a similar way :(
AdamRoyaleAdamRoyale
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Omg so mine happend when i saw the guy in the movie the girl came in and that’s when I felt wrong how bout u
san🌻san🌻
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@AdamRoyale I watched a movie which had gay scenes in it and it scared me that I would do it :(
AdamRoyaleAdamRoyale
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@sanzida? Would you say it made it doubtful of who u are
san🌻san🌻
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@AdamRoyale Yes
AdamRoyaleAdamRoyale
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@sanzida? I hate it
san🌻san🌻
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@AdamRoyale Me too :(
AdamRoyaleAdamRoyale
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@sanzida? So basically it made you feel wrong to the point it made u distress
san🌻san🌻
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@AdamRoyale Yeah
Mimi123Mimi123
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Mine started like that!!
AdamRoyaleAdamRoyale
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Did u guys fear that your orientation will get effected by it
san🌻san🌻
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Yes!!
Mimi123Mimi123
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Truly felt it! Now I'm more or less over Hocd and now I have Rocd! It goes away and my sexuality did not change! At the end I concluded that I'm not attracted to the other gender and that OCD can attach to anything and everything
san🌻san🌻
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@Mimi123 Wait seriously? Omg I wanna get to that stage ?
san🌻san🌻
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@Mimi123 I'm literally so numb, so numb I feel like I'm gay because of groinal responses and stuff. And then my brain makes up these sentences which trigger tf out of me :(. I just wanna be with guys
Mimi123Mimi123
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@sanzida? Believe me I had everything! Groinal responses, sexual thoughts, "feelings" for girls, I couldn't even take a look at myself in the mirror because I thought that just because I had boobs and an vagina that would make me a lesbian!
san🌻san🌻
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@Mimi123 Damn I have gotten those thoughts too. Ngl i have even considered going into a relationship with a girl to see if I like it :(. I cried at that thoughts last week but now Im not getting nacious and I'm scared I do want it :(
Mimi123Mimi123
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@sanzida? You really need to calm down and let the thoughts go in and out! And even though they come in you have to say to yourself I believe I'm not gay! Repeat it and repeat it! Even if you have doughts
san🌻san🌻
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@Mimi123 But it makes me feel like I m lying when I say it :(. It has gotten to the point where I really think I'm actually gay but I feel upset like what if I'm just not accepting it :(. But I'll try to do it :(, my heart is beating so fast because I know what my brain will say when I say that
Mimi123Mimi123
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@sanzida? I'm really seeing myself in your words! I know it feels like your lying! But we need to learn something, we don't have to prove anything to ourselves! If we say we're not gay we ain't gay! Your not lying! In fact when you believe you are it's just your brain playing pranks to you! Believe me! Now I have a new OCD in which I believe I'm in love with my male bestfriend and I have a boyfriend! It really sucks! But believe me, OCD can make you believe anything! I believed I was gay, than I started to believe I was a pedophile, than I started to believe I was going to be on the 10 most wanted list, than I started to believe I was in love with my ex! Than I started to believe I was a corpse rapist and now I believe I'm in love with my bestfriend! Since I started having this thoughts I had a boyfriend and I still do! And even though I know I'm in love with him, my mind just won't live any bad thoughts alone! It takes strength! But OCD is a constant fight for proving the truth! And at the end I believe the truth is how I really was before this started
san🌻san🌻
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@Mimi123 I believe that too. I comfortable with my straight thouhts but I just don't react anymore. They stay there but they aren't distressing to me. I believe I'm still straight but just very veryyy deep down :(. I have actually started to believe I'm a pedophile now because I got groinals from seeing a child :(
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